Tumupasa
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Caapi tea + Changa 100mg + 60mg
Hello, all.
This is an experience that happened yesterday. I usually try to integrate sessions before sharing them, but anyway, I wanted to share this with you
Context
I've had a lot of soft changa expereinces in the past few months but haven't had the opportunity / guts to go deeper. As mentioned here, I've had some strong andd sometimes really frightening ayahuasca experiences in the past 20 years and I know well what it is to go deep with the medecine, that's why I respect it so much.
This my first real Ayahuasca-like experience out of the shamanic context. I think I’m ready to handle whatever comes tonight.
First I start by stating my intentions for tonight. I want profound healing, and learning how to manage myself what I usually left to trustworthy shamans.
00:00 (9:45pm) I drink A full glass of caapi but there is still more in the bottle, seems like a little bit, I save it for later if needed.
Then I start cleaning the space with Palo Santo and Sage, Icaros are playing in the background. A great calmness arise, putting me in a perfect mood for what is coming.
I load 100mg in my new changa pipe. I bought it 3 weeks ago in Morroco and I love it.
Then the signal I defined earlier for starting smoking happen: my favorite changa music is playing, gamelans
00:45 (10.30pm) I smoke one big hit and close my eyes. Patterns of vivd colours start taking shape, then what I call the inside light turns on, (it’s like having a candle inside me), followed by a more structured entity looking a lot like this Alex Grey painting. It’s manifesting just in front of me and suddenly a kind of flow of soft light emanate from it and go directly into my chest while simultaneously asking for my permission. I hear the usual voice saying something like “now I’ll be with you”, I trust it, it seems full of good intentions and feels like a real blessing at this moment.
Just after that, a lot spirits / entities similar to the one that incorporated me surround me, I think of them as doctors, they are practicing some deep healing. That’s the moment when I realise, they are feeding of my fears, that’s what they do, what they love, they say “ feed me nightmares”. I can’t emphasise enough how deep was this realisation to me.
Then, the light slowly fades, I decide to wait a little bit before smoking again, and I do right, now an icaro is playing, sang by what I picture in my mind an old shaman. This is, again, so profound, I feel like the chanting is going the deeper it can inside me to tear out every bits of junk I have inside me.
01:15 (23:00) I smoke again the pipe, almost finishing it.
This time the visuals are less colourful, less obvious, but the overall feeling is pretty overwhelming, lots of thoughts, insights cross my mind.
I’m almost back to “normal”. And I’m thinking that I’ll probably won’t smoke again tonight, I’m thankful.
01:30 (23:15) Calmness… again… I am instructed to finish the caapi. I pour the remaining of the bottle into the glass, finally, it’s much more than what I thought. After stating my intentions, I drink the bitter liquid. I almost purge (which would be totally ok for me), but no, time passes and it stays with me. I’m still thinking that I won’t smoke more.
02:00 (23: 45) After all, it seems right, so I load the pipe with 60mg which I manage to smoke in one big hit. I hold the smoke for what seems an eternity and I hear the voice saying “breathe!”, I exhale… Then comes the big finale, the light show… as John Lennon said when asked “ what do you see when you turn out the light?”, “I can’t tell you but I know it’s mine”.
The effect of this last pipe lasts very long, for approximately 30 minutes I’m literally flying… grounded, but flying.
02:30 (00:15) I take the rattle, put it on my forehead, thank everybody that contributed all those years (knowingly or not) to make this night possible.
Finally I’m closing the space with some incenses and by spreading some Agua de Florida on my body.
Aho!
Hello, all.
This is an experience that happened yesterday. I usually try to integrate sessions before sharing them, but anyway, I wanted to share this with you
Context
I've had a lot of soft changa expereinces in the past few months but haven't had the opportunity / guts to go deeper. As mentioned here, I've had some strong andd sometimes really frightening ayahuasca experiences in the past 20 years and I know well what it is to go deep with the medecine, that's why I respect it so much.
This my first real Ayahuasca-like experience out of the shamanic context. I think I’m ready to handle whatever comes tonight.
First I start by stating my intentions for tonight. I want profound healing, and learning how to manage myself what I usually left to trustworthy shamans.
00:00 (9:45pm) I drink A full glass of caapi but there is still more in the bottle, seems like a little bit, I save it for later if needed.
Then I start cleaning the space with Palo Santo and Sage, Icaros are playing in the background. A great calmness arise, putting me in a perfect mood for what is coming.
I load 100mg in my new changa pipe. I bought it 3 weeks ago in Morroco and I love it.
Then the signal I defined earlier for starting smoking happen: my favorite changa music is playing, gamelans
00:45 (10.30pm) I smoke one big hit and close my eyes. Patterns of vivd colours start taking shape, then what I call the inside light turns on, (it’s like having a candle inside me), followed by a more structured entity looking a lot like this Alex Grey painting. It’s manifesting just in front of me and suddenly a kind of flow of soft light emanate from it and go directly into my chest while simultaneously asking for my permission. I hear the usual voice saying something like “now I’ll be with you”, I trust it, it seems full of good intentions and feels like a real blessing at this moment.
Just after that, a lot spirits / entities similar to the one that incorporated me surround me, I think of them as doctors, they are practicing some deep healing. That’s the moment when I realise, they are feeding of my fears, that’s what they do, what they love, they say “ feed me nightmares”. I can’t emphasise enough how deep was this realisation to me.
Then, the light slowly fades, I decide to wait a little bit before smoking again, and I do right, now an icaro is playing, sang by what I picture in my mind an old shaman. This is, again, so profound, I feel like the chanting is going the deeper it can inside me to tear out every bits of junk I have inside me.
01:15 (23:00) I smoke again the pipe, almost finishing it.
This time the visuals are less colourful, less obvious, but the overall feeling is pretty overwhelming, lots of thoughts, insights cross my mind.
I’m almost back to “normal”. And I’m thinking that I’ll probably won’t smoke again tonight, I’m thankful.
01:30 (23:15) Calmness… again… I am instructed to finish the caapi. I pour the remaining of the bottle into the glass, finally, it’s much more than what I thought. After stating my intentions, I drink the bitter liquid. I almost purge (which would be totally ok for me), but no, time passes and it stays with me. I’m still thinking that I won’t smoke more.
02:00 (23: 45) After all, it seems right, so I load the pipe with 60mg which I manage to smoke in one big hit. I hold the smoke for what seems an eternity and I hear the voice saying “breathe!”, I exhale… Then comes the big finale, the light show… as John Lennon said when asked “ what do you see when you turn out the light?”, “I can’t tell you but I know it’s mine”.
The effect of this last pipe lasts very long, for approximately 30 minutes I’m literally flying… grounded, but flying.
02:30 (00:15) I take the rattle, put it on my forehead, thank everybody that contributed all those years (knowingly or not) to make this night possible.
Finally I’m closing the space with some incenses and by spreading some Agua de Florida on my body.
Aho!
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