Art, others have said it before, you have a wonderful way with words!!

In this one paragraph (especially the highlighted part!) you summed up what I took 2 foot long post to try & say!!

Well put!!

Man I have a ton of respect for you!!  You've made a very adult decision!!

I can only imagine that the DMT experience would be somewhat tainted by the knowledge that your having to do it in secret anyway.

Antrocles mentioned that I had set a pretty unreasonable ideal.

Yes that is 100% true that most people don't measure up to such stark standards, myself included, but does that mean that we should just say fuck it & be a shit because it is hard work to be a good person in our modern world? 

I just do not see it as OK, to be sneaky with anybody, especially your life partner!!

That can only go on so long before it comes to a head & usually ends up exploding into a much, much bigger deal than just doing a little something in secret. 

Its the lie, or the "not the whole truth" that damages things, not the specific action.

WS