OrangeEnergy said:
I have considered the risks, and am asking for people's opinions who have experience that is relevant.
I have read of people taking these higher doses who have been miniaturised and journeyed around their body, discovering the root cause of issues manifesting physically. I have a condition I would like to explore, and this is why I am contemplating this, not for a pissing contest or bragging rights.
Ah, now I can probably throw in some meaningful input. Probably more than your average head. I have done exactly this, to the point that I have attained some level of intentionality over it.
Yes, the first time I had a physically healing experience was on a MASSIVE overdose of LSD. I took 2 tabs of orange sunshine, 300 ug per tab, so 600 ug overall. It was made in homage to the original orange sunshine of the 1960’s, the LSD Avengers tested it and said it had the clearest reaction they’d ever seen, and the largest dose they’d ever seem. Now that I know what a real 300 ug dose is, I understand what all the stories of people losing their shit on acid back in the day are about. The first bit of it was just swirling colours - not a blackout, but incapable of recognizing my physical surroundings - my name was floating around and I was desperately trying to figure out who it was. I didn’t know my own name. I just knew it was important somehow. Later, when I had come down enough to know my name and my surroundings, I had my first ever spontaneous mystical experience wherein I believed I was God. Metaphysically, who knows. Maybe the Vedantins and the Neoplatonists are on to something. Or perhaps it was just a profoundly helpful delusion. Either way, I had not been able to turn my neck to the right for three years because of an injury. I whipped my head around, CRUNCH, the sober people babysitting me asked ARE YOU ALRIGHT?!?! and - YES!!! I FIXED IT!!!! Permanently. It was miraculous. I had been to therapists to no avail. It was incredible.
It was not the last time I had an experience like that. Hit and miss, but, spontaneously, randomly, not requiring such massive doses, I continued to enter that headspace on psychedelics. Only LSD ever gave me the “one with God” message - ayahuasca got me to that healing space much more reliably, with no accompanying metaphysical suppositions. But after a while, I got frustrated with the randomness. How to make it reliable?
That’s when I began serious meditation - with the intention of being able to learn how to meditate WHILE tripping. For hours. And so I did. It worked. When I learned how to meditate for hours at a time in single unbroken sessions, sober, I had developed my concentration enough that I could do it on psychedelics, and I entered the mystical healing space reliably.
The pinnacle of mastery of this can be illustrated in the following story. A few years agoI had violent epileptic seizures and dislocated both of my shoulders and wrenched my back and gave myself scoliosis. I had a nerve in my spine being pinched, that would, shoot from zero to a ten on a pain scale every single day multiple times throughout the day. It was horrible. And I knew: I need to fix this, with ayahuasca. I took the ayahuasca, and I meditated. When I entered the samadhi state, my energy made me lay down on the ground, and I began rocking back and forth on my back, and the most delightful CRUNCHING filled the room as I laughed like a baby, profusely thanking the ayahuasca. Never again did that nerve pinching happen. That’s right: I did it intentionally.
CAN a massive dose spontaneously heal you? Yes. Is it LIKELY to? No. It is highly unlikely you’ll do anything other than get yourself fucked up. It CAN work - it’s just extremely unlikely to work. My way, is very likely to work, if you put in the work, to make it work. It is not easy, but it is reliable.
If you want something reliable, it takes work. A lot of work. Sober work. Which you then apply in the trip. This is how I did it. There are other methods. Skillset is the best way to do healing work with psychedelics in any reliable fashion. The general thing is: simple, repetetive rhythm, for hours at a time, no breaks in between - continuous and sustained. Drumming, dancing, chanting, singing, or - in my case - mindful breathing, until mental unification is achieved.
That’s how you do it. If this sounds like too much work (wouldn’t blame you, it is work) - I hope the crapshoot of a massive dose works. It can work! But it’s unlikely to work. But best of luck. I hope it does not result in the more likely scenario of hurting yourself.
