Contemplating re-entry

[lsrvnt]

It has been a long time since I have been bold enough to enter hyperspace. Each time I enter it feels so impossible like it shouldn't or couldn't exist. Ive even been lucky enough to experience a complete deep dive 100% in a lucid dream that turned into a full blown dmt experience. for some time now and I know others on the nexus are experiencing this as well... I have been blocked from hyperspace for years.

the last experience I had of full entry was so utterly terrifying. I felt as tho I would never find my way out. by. the time I felt that I had eyes to open I opened them immediately. I later regretted this and wish I was still in that other plane of existence because the reentry of my body felt as tho it had slid into my skin from hyperspace. very strange. as I looked at the clock I remember it being 9:06 thinking ok Ill wait this one out and after about. an hour or so I looked at the clock again and I read 9:06. the time distortion and what truly happened to me was to impossible to retell but would you believe me if I said that I was in the infinite museum of hyperspace objects to find the grand halls of the ancestor spirits too great to speak of? terrified by the horrible unknowable cosmic truths I realized I no longer desired.

prior to this experience I had so many breakthroughs its laughable. almost that It was too easy for me. It felt like a dimension I could walk into and trust. now I know its more complex than that. Im grateful to have been received by myself in such a warm way but thinking about going again dose frighten me. the world to day isn't the same as It was back then I should assume hyperspace would have changed as well. However I have no clue.

I cant believe Ive been so lucky and have avoided wack vibes in this place and pursued art and beauty because horrible things as I read can happen in this place. Im not about the wack vibes I can handle some crazy but when a spirits vibe gets weird I. usually don't focus on it or acknowledge it and focus on what Im interested in. I know you always forget what it is until your back but to be honest I always felt when done correctly that the experiences gave me permission to perceive the world in my own way and literally fixed so many wack vibes I had. I knew it back then as a medicine. I really have been wishing for those experiences again.

I think for some reason this type of breakthrough im referring to not many people experience. I feel like once you can no longer sense your body and your surroundings are no longer your room because your fully there. im sure plenty of people on here understand tho thus the reason that im posting at all haha. I think im truly afraid of whats going on there these days :shock:

thanks for reading just wanted to share a piece of my journey while I had the time

love nd peace :thumb_up:

 

[Voidmatrix]

Thank you so much for sharing and I empathize with your trepidation, as I have been fearful about breakthroughs myself and have been learning why over the past few years.

I used to eat a quarter of mushrooms as my main dosage years ago. Can't bring myself to do that either at the moment. Time will tell if I can get back, as the treasures discovered on high doses are invaluable to me.

There's some relatable traits in your story to my own. I've had massive time distortions, complete immersion that causes loss of contact with my body and immediate surroundings, and was even gone for 52 minutes once. Upon arriving back to my body, I felt trapped inside it, and due to the shock felt, ended up vomiting violently. I had been in a stationary area with other Souls, just being.

Take your time, reflect deeply, and I'm sure you'll make it back there

One love

 

[Exitwound]

Thank you for sharing.
Your post is a very, very close depiction of my experience (in general) with the molecule as well.

prior to this experience I had so many breakthroughs its laughable. almost that It was too easy for me. It felt like a dimension I could walk into and trust. now I know its more complex than that. Im grateful to have been received by myself in such a warm way but thinking about going again dose frighten me. the world to day isn't the same as It was back then I should assume hyperspace would have changed as well. However I have no clue.

Exactly! My last DMT trip was MAGNITUDES more intense than all and any of my previous breakthroughs and I have returned shaken and ready to kiss the earth and hug the trees. And I don't even remember most of it. I didn't even think that such level of intensity and vividness was possible.

I, too, had many breakthroughs prior, some were blackouts, but most of them were positively mind-blowing. Some were educational, some were weird, some pure love. But it was always on return from BT - as if you have travelled (teleported!) somewhere, to a completely different (amazing and beautiful!) dimension - a sense similar to coming back home from an amazing trip to some very distant country.

But the last one...
The feeling of "game over" and being lost and then trying to find your own dimension, while the universe is folding/unfolding itself on you... Sometimes I think my very strong wish to return back to earth, to my body, to uncompleted quests in this game called "Life", actually was a deciding factor in this case, or if I wished otherwise I could stay there forever...

I cant believe Ive been so lucky and have avoided wack vibes in this place and pursued art and beauty because horrible things as I read can happen in this place. Im not about the wack vibes I can handle some crazy but when a spirits vibe gets weird I. usually don't focus on it or acknowledge it and focus on what Im interested in.

I know you always forget what it is until your back but to be honest I always felt when done correctly that the experiences gave me permission to perceive the world in my own way and literally fixed so many wack vibes I had. I knew it back then as a medicine.

Same, I am eternally grateful to the molecule, for treating me so good for so long and for all the
healing it gifted to me. And "wack vibes" were not that scary or easy to handle before that, simply reminding myself that "all is love" typically helped to turn "weird" into "wonderful". Turns out it's not always that easy to do that

I really have been wishing for those experiences again.

Yes... I miss these the most, it showed me the magic "otherside" of our universe and it was indescribably beautiful and awe-inspiring. This last "mega-BT" and my following later "tries of waters" has really shown me that all this definitely ain't no games and fun, this is playing with fire. Be careful or be burnt

I think for some reason this type of breakthrough im referring to not many people experience. I feel like once you can no longer sense your body and your surroundings are no longer your room because your fully there. im sure plenty of people on here understand tho thus the reason that im posting at all haha. I think im truly afraid of whats going on there these days :shock:

thanks for reading just wanted to share a piece of my journey while I had the time

love nd peace :thumb_up:

I came to the same conclusion, that probably not everybody gets to "go/see/experience" that place/dimension/vibrational frequency. I have read and listened to maybe thousands of trip reports and experiences over the years. Many people saying they had hundreds of trips, but I can tell they haven't been as deep as I have been. I am not bragging about it or take any pride in it, just my conclusion/observation.

After that I have tried very low doses of vaped freebase (5-12mg) couple of times aaaand nope, still scared as hell.
Tried shrooming after more than a year of break from DMT and last experience on relatively low dose knocked me on my ass and now I am on an indefinite break from psychedelics

I view this a teaching from the other side. I don't really need to go "there", because I have a lot of preparatory work to do "here", before I can safely venture "there" again.

Again, thank you for sharing and I loved your art, last time you posted it. Do you have some more of it maybe?
Sorry for the long post, it's just that your experience feels very close to mine and I had to share. You are definitely not alone in this.

P.s. I envy happy fools who are just starting their journeys, may they be blessed by gods of creation