Desperately Searching

[antrocles]

God Damn Ant, speak it brother!!!

Man, your connection to this other place is really becoming more & more obvious in what you write & how you write about it!! And it just seems to keep growing!!:shock:
Are you still keeping a regular, daily, ritual of journeying into DMT-Space at least once, everyday?

I love reading the accounts of your experiences Ant, please keep em coming!!


BTW, out of my own curiosity, have you ever had any negative experiences with DMT?

many thanks and much love W won't be long now and you are going to be doing more than just hearing about them....

yes, DMT is blowing it all wide open for me and i am doing as little as possible to get in the way of such a righteous awakening process. i still have my moments of doubt and uncertainty....i'm no buddha...but on the whole i have a sense of peace so deep within me that even those moments don't last long. my work with this molecule is the single greatest contributor towards the inner peace i have spent my whole life searching for. it has given me glimpses, no matter how brief, of otherness and unknowingness that have acted essentially like hand and footholds as i slowly climb out of this hole i've dug myself into over the past 38 years.

when you're climbing the mountain and it is huge, isn't it motivating and assuring to be able to see the peak from time to time? no matter how far off it might be... DMT does this for me.

and yes, i still breakthrough almost every day.

as for "negative" experiences.....i can honestly say no to that. i HAVE had some straight-up ego-death journeys that required complete surrender and there is always a nano-second where your nuts start going up into your body on those....but each time i go i get more and more capable of just letting go. THAT is truly what i believe DMT's greatest gift is to us. teaching us how to let go.

i wrote something i felt pretty deep regarding this very concept yesterday in the "is smoking DMT a waste of my time and molecule" thread in the INFORMATION/GENERAL DISCUSSIONS room. give it a read and let me know what you think...

much love to you brother.

L&G!!