Shoe,
What you mean is DMT hasn't worked for YOU. It has and does help some other people.
There is no miracle drug for depression. When I say DMT 'cured' SWIM's depression, I make it clear that it was only part of the cure. It was the shock that propelled him from a rut... so that he could put into practice the other good advice he had been given. It wiped his slate clean for him. It also gave spirituality to his life, which is something else he felt lacking in. But he only smokes it every week or so, he's cautious of its potential to imbalance him if he smoked it too regularly.
SWIM was already eating healthily and exercising, but he wasn't happy. He was drinking himself into ill health, forcing himself to be the 'life and soul of the party' in social siuations with an alcohol crutch, and he wasn't getting enough fresh air and being open enough to new people. Even the elves themselves told him to get out more and open up to people- that told him something, whether he believed they were real or not!!
Did you buy that book I recommended you? Do it man! It only costs a few dollars off Amazon. The guy isn't some quack, he's the guy who founded cognitive behavioural psychology, the only strand of psychology that has got good results in this area. Trials were done and the book was found to be as or more effective than taking both antidepressants and receiving therapy combined. SWIM swears by that book. 'Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy' by David D. Burns. Read it, and live healthily, and hopefully things will improve for you.
But please please please, I strongly advise that SWIY gives up MDMA. It is not something that meloncholic types can handle, believe me. SWIM remembers the 'suicidal tuesdays' and a shiver runs down his spine. Don't mess up your seratonin wotsits, those with a meloncholic side need them much more than others.
You are the only one who can get yourself out of this rut. The ability is within YOU, nowhere else. No amount of hearing good advice from various sources will help if you don't absorb it and make a conscious decision to allow it to change your attitude. Accept your lot in life (because I know you have some status anxiety from previous conversations) and realise that you are a worthwhile human being, and that you are actually even lucky compared to other people in this world, other animals on the wheel of life, and cherish the good, simple things in your life... a glass of water, the breeze, the sound of leaves in the park... happiness is a relative thing, we are programmed only to feel it when we feel like we've achieved some sort of one-upmanship, but it is possible to reprogram yourself in a healthier way than the baseline program written by society and raw genetic instinct.
If all that doesn't work, then it might be time to consider a psychologist. One familiar with CBT and a range of other techniques, not a straight Freudian/Jungian etc who I consider quacks having read the pseudoscience they believe in. Not saying that stuff wouldn't work for some but I suspect when it does it's akin to faith healing. Also a psychologist told SWIM that hypnosis was purely placebo, I'm sorry to say, so don't be disappointed if your hypnosis CD doesn't work. But don't let that stop you listening to it, it could well be a good motivational tool to listen to what they have to say. That same psychologist never recommended he smoke DMT, after all
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Whatever works for you is good.
I hope it works out for you man, and I'm sure it will. It took SWIM a LONG time but he's out of it now. It requires work to stay happy and healthy, these things don't fall in our laps. You can do it
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