I am often quite a reckless character (the clown in me) and my first experience with the Spice exemplifies this trait. I didnt know what it was, infact 2 minuites before my first launch, I had never heard of it. I had no idea what to expect apart from being told by some Eastern European in very broken English "you see machines". Without any consideration on my part I decided to have a look. Well I can tell you I saw a hell of alot more than just machines. The trip was fantastic more beautifull than anything 30 odd years of life had ever shown me. However it was edged with real fear. Did I just kill myself? How long will this last? Will I ever come back? Have I damaged my self? Will I ever be the same again? All questions you should probly try to answer before trying anything new. Well to say "I came out wanting to know all about It" is a bit of an under statement. I made every efort over the next few weeks to learn all I could. Shortly after I found "The Spirit Molecule". I read it cover to cover then re read portions and digested the information that Strassman had to offer. I found it sober, rational and informative. I know that Im rash, reckless and somtimes quite stupid, but I didnt want to end up dead, hurt or hooked on somthing evil. I believed Strassman's assertions and accepted many of his conclusions. It was all very reasuring. In fact "The Spirit Molecule" was for me a massive green light. It gave me the confidence to go back and explore lots! As for the bad experiences mentioned in the book. I dont know, every time I do it I want it to be great, fantastic, extrodinary etc. Somtimes it isn't. Every now and again it scares the living shit out of me, it leaves me shaking and sick with a mess in my pants and do you know what? I still love it.