powercorruption
Rising Star
I'm in my mid 20's, I've smoked cannabis for about a year now...that's about as far as my "drug" use has gone.
About 4 or 5 months ago (shortly before I had my first panic attack) I discovered DMT through reddit. I have always had an interest in psychedelics and hallucinogens, but feared having a bad trip and losing my mind, I'd like to thank the media for this unwarranted fear. Shortly after getting my medical marijuana card, I ate a cannabis edible from a dispensary...I did NOT expect the effects it presented me. I had vivid closed eye hallucinations, looping thoughts, I felt as if I had died and experienced a rebirth. It was terrifying, and may have triggered my anxiety attack. I don't blame cannabis, though, because I had a bad year, and a regretful Lasik procedure done that has made my eyesight dull.
After my anxiety attacks I went to my doctor and was prescribed Zoloft, which seem to be working for 4 months now. In those last 4 months I've read/watched The Spirit Molecule, have seen almost every YouTube video of DMT, read many accounts of DMT experiences, and lurked the Nexus. I have bought a Glass Vapor Genie, and a Zico curved torch lighter, all I need now is to make the substance.
Many people have told me to start with shrooms first, but I'd really like to experience a full breakthrough with DMT as my introduction to psychedelics. From what I've gathered nothing will prepare me for the experience, so why even try shrooms to "prepare" me for something that can't be prepared for? I realize I may witness a very haunting event, but that DMT is only showing me what I need to see, and who I really am. I'm hoping with that trip I'll have peace knowing why I am the way I am, even if it means I'm a bad person.. I'm hoping by facing up to this fear, it will give me a more personal, spiritual, and universal clarity.
Am I going over my head, or do I have to right attitude to seek DMT?
About 4 or 5 months ago (shortly before I had my first panic attack) I discovered DMT through reddit. I have always had an interest in psychedelics and hallucinogens, but feared having a bad trip and losing my mind, I'd like to thank the media for this unwarranted fear. Shortly after getting my medical marijuana card, I ate a cannabis edible from a dispensary...I did NOT expect the effects it presented me. I had vivid closed eye hallucinations, looping thoughts, I felt as if I had died and experienced a rebirth. It was terrifying, and may have triggered my anxiety attack. I don't blame cannabis, though, because I had a bad year, and a regretful Lasik procedure done that has made my eyesight dull.
After my anxiety attacks I went to my doctor and was prescribed Zoloft, which seem to be working for 4 months now. In those last 4 months I've read/watched The Spirit Molecule, have seen almost every YouTube video of DMT, read many accounts of DMT experiences, and lurked the Nexus. I have bought a Glass Vapor Genie, and a Zico curved torch lighter, all I need now is to make the substance.
Many people have told me to start with shrooms first, but I'd really like to experience a full breakthrough with DMT as my introduction to psychedelics. From what I've gathered nothing will prepare me for the experience, so why even try shrooms to "prepare" me for something that can't be prepared for? I realize I may witness a very haunting event, but that DMT is only showing me what I need to see, and who I really am. I'm hoping with that trip I'll have peace knowing why I am the way I am, even if it means I'm a bad person.. I'm hoping by facing up to this fear, it will give me a more personal, spiritual, and universal clarity.
Am I going over my head, or do I have to right attitude to seek DMT?