I too have felt disconnected for a long time.  I didn't understand it until earlier this year, but for my whole life I have felt different, at odds with the society around me.  I always knew it just wasn't right, that there was something missing, that things felt out of place.  That feeling has only grown over the last year, but now theres an understanding of what is going on.  The old is falling away, a new beginning awaits, but not until enough people wake up from the illusion that has been pulled down over their eyes.

Pssilocibinnn, you are being given the chance to clear out the old.  If old things are happening to you again, there are lessons to be learned in order for you to move on to the next stage of your awakening.  Take the bad feelings and make them good, figure out how to turn them into a positive, look at them from a different angle or perspective.  In doing that you resolve and move on.  It is hard, no one said it would be easy, but you are the change you want to see in the world.  It must be centered in yourself before it can expand outward. 

Sit, meditate, be at peace.  Read, challenge old paradigms, think.  The answers are out there, if you are willing to ask the questions...