grimlid
Rising Star
Greetings,
I have been spending a lot of time on reddit as of late most specifically in the r/dmt section (as well as the lab and changa subs). I have been recovering from a surgery and in bed for the last 6 weeks.
I am finding the number of people seeking public attention for their dmt experiences overwhelming. I stopped reading trip reports awhile ago, and mostly hung around to give help or advice to people with technical difficulties with vaping, extracting, making vape carts ect. I felt like a bit of a public service and got to know a few decent people who also try to help (mostly mods). I also got the opportunity to learn from others who had greater knowledge than myself.
I made the mistake of viewing part of a posting about a trip report (made on youtube) in which the experiencer claimed to have had their ego crushed and destroyed. Quite a frothy and emotional video which I found quite sad and delusional. Why would someone with no ego feel the need to make a public admission of the fact that their ego was destroyed? On youtube no less. There was even a section where the experiencer holds the camera up to their eyes and says "see you can still see the teers".
I made the mistake of writing briefly about how I felt if an ego is crushed it doesn't need to be made public as this is highly personal, and the fact the poster felt the need to make it public demostrated the ego was still there and obviously intact. This of course left the door open to about 18 hours of derisive trolling and various inflammatory comments towards me. In the end it more or less caused me a lot of negativity and I decided to simply walk away and delete my comments.
I am finding the need to "cash in" on the DMT experience whether emotionally (ie attention) or financially or simply to increase the person's views on youtube very contradictory to what this spiritual experience is about. I am pretty old school so also fairly private.
It baffles my mind why anyone would want to combine publicity with the spiritual experience.
As the maturity level of this site is obviously high I am interested if anyone can give me any feedback positive or negative please. If anyone is from reddit I would appreciate to not be trolled obviously. thanks in advance if you made it through that.
EDIT: For the record Im not trying to play victim here. I definitely was vocal with people exponentially giving back what I was receiving.
I have been spending a lot of time on reddit as of late most specifically in the r/dmt section (as well as the lab and changa subs). I have been recovering from a surgery and in bed for the last 6 weeks.
I am finding the number of people seeking public attention for their dmt experiences overwhelming. I stopped reading trip reports awhile ago, and mostly hung around to give help or advice to people with technical difficulties with vaping, extracting, making vape carts ect. I felt like a bit of a public service and got to know a few decent people who also try to help (mostly mods). I also got the opportunity to learn from others who had greater knowledge than myself.
I made the mistake of viewing part of a posting about a trip report (made on youtube) in which the experiencer claimed to have had their ego crushed and destroyed. Quite a frothy and emotional video which I found quite sad and delusional. Why would someone with no ego feel the need to make a public admission of the fact that their ego was destroyed? On youtube no less. There was even a section where the experiencer holds the camera up to their eyes and says "see you can still see the teers".
I made the mistake of writing briefly about how I felt if an ego is crushed it doesn't need to be made public as this is highly personal, and the fact the poster felt the need to make it public demostrated the ego was still there and obviously intact. This of course left the door open to about 18 hours of derisive trolling and various inflammatory comments towards me. In the end it more or less caused me a lot of negativity and I decided to simply walk away and delete my comments.
I am finding the need to "cash in" on the DMT experience whether emotionally (ie attention) or financially or simply to increase the person's views on youtube very contradictory to what this spiritual experience is about. I am pretty old school so also fairly private.
It baffles my mind why anyone would want to combine publicity with the spiritual experience.
As the maturity level of this site is obviously high I am interested if anyone can give me any feedback positive or negative please. If anyone is from reddit I would appreciate to not be trolled obviously. thanks in advance if you made it through that.
EDIT: For the record Im not trying to play victim here. I definitely was vocal with people exponentially giving back what I was receiving.
