Ego Death?

[Walter D. Roy]

Well I took about two hits of dmt in my friends house. The first hit I could tell was a nice long big hit, I held it in for about ten seconds and blew it out.

This is where my trip started to get a bit weird, because my experience shifted from reality. In my mind I had started to take the second hit and quickly realized that I did not need it, so I blew it out real quick and laid down. But apparently this isn't what happened and my friends assured me I had taken a very long and big second hit blowing it out slowly as I laid down on the bed.

Well I was confronted with the usual black space/flower/snake experience that asks me the question. Where are you going to take this? Good or bad? And at this moment I just remember giving up, letting go and saying "however is seen fit".

This is where its hard for me to explain. Because after that I was lost in infinity. I was in this space was JUST. I can't say I didn't know how I got there, because there was no I. But my existence was that THAT. It was infinity. After a point when it started to where off, I sat up. Of course I was tripping really hard still. And it was such an intense sense of DEJAVU. Everything that was going on was just something I knew was going to happen. A million of myselfs in millions of universes. Its really hard to explain this overwhelming sense of "this was meant to happen". I thought I broke my brain. Because the best way to describe it was, I came from there. I didn't go and come back. I just came from wherever that was. A rebirth in a way. When I sat up everything was so foreign to me. And I was touching everything around me because it was just so new to my mind!

Its hard to say a lot about this because when it comes down to it the best way to explain it is like this. " ." I'm not exactly sure what happened, it was a really emotional thing. An ego death if there was any in my mind.

I hope this makes sense because I feel like only I can really understand what went one because it was such an introspective journey.

But I wanted to share it here, and let you all know of the power of this Sacred Molecule.

Much love and peace!

Walter D. Roy

 

[Orion]

I feel I can relate to that feeling of 'this was meant to happen', it's as if for this one experience the world just conspired to make it a reality. Like waking up again, or going to sleep again, the sense of deja vu and becoming everything at once, as if it makes perfect sense before we come back and it seems more vague, the idea becomes strange once again.

Nice report!

 

[Global]

It makes sense. The hallmark for me of ego death experiences is that the observer that is 'you' is the entire experience itself - there is no distinction. If the particular experience happens to be of infinity, then in an ego death situation that would entail being the infinity yourself.