Thank you, again I know this could all be in my head. So I caution digging too deep. That part is difficult for me as I experienced it and it was real (to me) for at least for 3 days.

Most people's sharing were things like "I feel better about my weight" or "I stopped drinking".  I did try to "dismiss" what I was told around the Mckenna folks and they made it sound like I should not. That even if it was just in my head. It was meant for me and it shouldn't matter if it was real or not. That I should cling to it as it was the way back to a healthy life. "You get what you need (to hear)".

My only "overpowering want" that may be unhealthy is the need to grow more caapi. I started 5 seedlings and will care for them until adulthood. It's my way to say "thank you".