Thank you, you and Running were always kind to me in the past, you guys actually guided me in the first of my fungi projects.  Part of why I returned (even if they decide it is temporary) was to share the end of seemed to be a long quest.

I have asked for forgiveness as I was a "spreader" and learned over time, this is only for those who have already taken the first few steps.  Furthermore, I was pretty dern obsessed with what it all "meant" and I just had a flow of consciousness that was disruptive in the past.

I am at peace with that now. The answers I got were clear and concise.  That many already lead a good path and this isn't for them. They don't need it. They have that love ingrained in them and haven't let the world take if from them.  Finally, that what I was torturing myself over was a beautiful space and was a truly random game, meant to let us have some fun as long as we didn't take it all too serious.. like a D and D adventure.

I do hear the Watts message loud and clear "When you've got the message, hang up the phone".  I feel like I got that message, but I still want to role up my Hyperspace character and see what kind of fun I can get into.

Also, I want to make sure I get the same message I got that first night again in a separate experience rather than in a lucid multi-day event.

My final real goal is 5-Meo, but seems too hard to find solid Tek and I don't want to hurt any frogs, so that may have to take a back seat to traveling for now

I love you man, always have. So many of you helped me get there. When I was taking it all WAY to seriously, you forced me to search on my own.  The end result and the end of the road has been beautiful.