I shit myself last night and it was with eyes opee, think I done it by mistake, Like forgot to shut my eyes. I couldnt see entities but I felt they were surrounding me and passing through me. I started panicking a little, was as if they were wondering why I was there, I turrned the music up but it just went away, I think once I started getting anxious it just got worse and worse, I thought I was going to die and didnt want to let go of my body I had taken a medium dose of mushrooms that nigth and been smoking hash and weed. The majority of time with me eyes open is really scary and traumatising. As I said before sometimes I forget and think ive died and im just sitting with my eyes closed, think maybe I didnt smoke enough and could see this happening and didnt want to die, its hard to explain sorry. Saying sorry just reminded me actually there I was saying that last night as if im sorry for being in your world please dont let me die or something and think they were both taking the piss out of me and wondering why I was there, sorry for rambling its hard to explain :? Think maybe its my fear of death, most probably, so should just take more, so I dont have a choice. I have seen entities with eyes open but last night it wasnt as clear as day like another couple of times, or with eyes shut. Ive seen like lizard type things and demon looking things, but no communication just some of them trying to intimidate me, one time I was communicating with these luminous space fleas who were all over my body and they spoke with a really high pitched voice and told me not to mind this tall thing with horns that was trying to intimidate me, ive also seen them on a high dose of mushrooms, exact same little fleas with big eyes and like a laughing smiley face ! lol I also thought it was kaosunderware lol