Face to Face with a Devil

[thecosmicjoke]

5 to 6 large pulls of 4:1 e-liquid.

The beginning of the trip was confusing. Lately I’ve been seeing visions that I didn’t know DMT could generate. I saw a woman run by me with her dog in my living room, while my eyes were open. These little slugs were spinning in my vision and pulling their heads off, and pulling the heads off of little men with black eyes. They were kind of scary, but mostly annoying because they were right over each of my eyes.

I decided to go further. It was the kind of trip that was powerful enough for me to forget quite a bit of it. At a point I realized that the DMT wasn’t doing much anymore, and I felt an impulse to look upwards, trying to roll my eyes back as far as I could. This generated powerful visions. The inner muscle of my ear vibrated as I started to see heavenly things, and I saw glimpses of the body of some holy figure, an angel of sorts, that I can only describe as having a centaur-aura.

However, at a point, the heavenly visions flipped. I started to feel the presence of something evil, and with my eyes closed I felt that it was right in front of my face, trying to get as close as it could to me. It was trying to scare me, and initially it was successful. I continued trying to roll my eyes back and induce further visions. At a point I became worried that I was doing something demonic. This demon lingered directly in front of my face, and I could only see his shadow resting on my eyelids. I tried to stand my ground, and stare him down with closed eyes. He would not relent. Eventually I got angry, and audibly told him to leave my house. I told him he is not welcome, and I will not allow him to be inside my house. I emphasized that I never invited him and I wanted nothing to do with him.

This is where the threshold from vision to reality merged. and I have only ever had it happen once before. I still felt the presence of the demon in my house, and I became very angry that he was trying to fuck with me. I told him he has no power over me, and that I only serve God. This house is only for God. I began to audibly hear the bulb in my fan begin to buzz. At this point, I was tempted to tell him to do more and make himself known. However, I did not want this to be mistaken for an invitation, and my seriousness overrode my curiosity. I told him to get the fuck out.

At this point, the rod on my blinds began to swing back and forth, but only slightly. I stared intently at its sway, as if I were staring the entity down himself. Without breaking eye contact, I told it again to leave. I told it again it does not belong here. I called it vile, and disgusting, and I began to feel pity for it, knowing that it will never rejoice in Gods warmth. I told it that I only serve God, and that it has no right to be in my house. It can not scare me, and I am not a fan of its tricks. Saying enough of these words out loud caused the rod to stop swaying.

Once the trip was over, probably a 40 minute experience total, I got up and decided to sage my house, repeating again that only those who serve God are allowed inside. I thanked God for his protection. I felt my fear and any negative presence dissipate through this act.

I don’t know guys, this one was strange. I’ve seen demons before, but only once have they manifested in reality, and never have they manipulated physical objects. Unsure what to think of this one, but I will continue to cleanse my spirit and my home. Praise be to God.

Stay blessed.

 

[Exitwound]

I think you handled it well and may you be blessed in your journeys.

 

[🌺🔥🫧]

I was attending a ceremonial Mescaline water prayer ceremony (with tobacco as well, tobacco brownies at the end! lol xD ), which reading this trip reminds me of, although I have yet to trip on DMT as vaped or smoked (I have done a little ayahuasca). I met an entity on this trip.

In many of my shamanic drumming trances, I meet entities as well, or have intuitive visions which -I find oddly interesting- I literally remember impeccably, forever - but anyways, I meet entities. Sometimes they are 'neutral' like these 2 booger seaweed blob spirits I was on a lonely hill with in the vast universe, under a tree above the clouds. Rarely they are angelic, like this one glowing angel that descended from above and went into my (human) body. Most often they are destructive, terrifying, or screaming towards me. I used to resist or avoid these ones, but they always annihilated me in the most horrible ways. Some I had repeat encounters with. There was this black vortex I kept falling through and I kept getting intercepted by a massive flying 'space-beetle' (for lack of better words). This space beetle would suddenly rush at me out of my peripheral vision, through the walls of the vortex I'm falling through, snatch me, and drag me sideways through the walls. There he would proceed to just rip me to pieces with his mandibles, at my stomach. It was extremely gory and like a classic movie scene where the horror creature is dragging the protagonist by their feet into a pit lol. I fought with everything. The third time I saw him I was like "O M G YOU AGAIN ... I give up." And the space beetle in that moment stopped, and just left.

Since then when I meet entities in shamanic drumming that are contacting me through -terror, -fear/panic, -screaming(the audible way), I LET them destroy or annihilate me. I am not afraid of death in these situations. Some of the most intimate love I have ever felt was from entities reaching out to me via these means. I really feel like they are reaching out to me, even if the means by fear/terror/scream. My first entity which contacted me through the sound of scream was a smaller entity, like a decrepit demonic floating angler fish. It unmasked and became a pure spirit energy orb. Our souls merged and it was extremely intimate. Our souls merged. It felt like meeting a long, long lost soulmate.

Back to my original Mescaline ceremony ~ the entity I met there was some sort of deep alpha terror spirit. She was this ginormous skeletal levitating bone-snake, with several discombobulated eyes on her face. The eyes were a raw terror hypnosis. I looked at her, which made all the difference. Not in a trying to look at her way, just simply, in the most neutral empty minded way possible, just looked at her. It was actually a respectful acknowledgement to see her, as it's disrespectful and sacrilegious to them for us not to see some of these annihilatory spirits (I believe). So had I not SEEN her, for who she was, I would have been annihilated probably, but instead we got along and she provided me guardianship after which I became one with a wavy golden ocean of bliss.

"If someone screams, listen...
If someone terrorizes, see...
And die"

"Fear is just a spirit knocking very loudly on your door"

The destructive entity contact is a common theme on the shamanic path, which is a path of spirit, similar to your path of god I'm assuming. I hope should you meet this entity again, that you can establish clear relations! I am a bit radical in this sense however, in my acceptance and willingness to meet with 'negative' entities. This is just my path with the spirits so far. If guardianship and clearing space works for you, then it works! That is always good


Looking forward to hearing more from you!
Best wishes,
negative entity contact lady

 

[thecosmicjoke]

I was attending a ceremonial Mescaline water prayer ceremony (with tobacco as well, tobacco brownies at the end! lol xD ), which reading this trip reminds me of, although I have yet to trip on DMT as vaped or smoked (I have done a little ayahuasca). I met an entity on this trip.

In many of my shamanic drumming trances, I meet entities as well, or have intuitive visions which -I find oddly interesting- I literally remember impeccably, forever - but anyways, I meet entities. Sometimes they are 'neutral' like these 2 booger seaweed blob spirits I was on a lonely hill with in the vast universe, under a tree above the clouds. Rarely they are angelic, like this one glowing angel that descended from above and went into my (human) body. Most often they are destructive, terrifying, or screaming towards me. I used to resist or avoid these ones, but they always annihilated me in the most horrible ways. Some I had repeat encounters with. There was this black vortex I kept falling through and I kept getting intercepted by a massive flying 'space-beetle' (for lack of better words). This space beetle would suddenly rush at me out of my peripheral vision, through the walls of the vortex I'm falling through, snatch me, and drag me sideways through the walls. There he would proceed to just rip me to pieces with his mandibles, at my stomach. It was extremely gory and like a classic movie scene where the horror creature is dragging the protagonist by their feet into a pit lol. I fought with everything. The third time I saw him I was like "O M G YOU AGAIN ... I give up." And the space beetle in that moment stopped, and just left.

Since then when I meet entities in shamanic drumming that are contacting me through -terror, -fear/panic, -screaming(the audible way), I LET them destroy or annihilate me. I am not afraid of death in these situations. Some of the most intimate love I have ever felt was from entities reaching out to me via these means. I really feel like they are reaching out to me, even if the means by fear/terror/scream. My first entity which contacted me through the sound of scream was a smaller entity, like a decrepit demonic floating angler fish. It unmasked and became a pure spirit energy orb. Our souls merged and it was extremely intimate. Our souls merged. It felt like meeting a long, long lost soulmate.

Back to my original Mescaline ceremony ~ the entity I met there was some sort of deep alpha terror spirit. She was this ginormous skeletal levitating bone-snake, with several discombobulated eyes on her face. The eyes were a raw terror hypnosis. I looked at her, which made all the difference. Not in a trying to look at her way, just simply, in the most neutral empty minded way possible, just looked at her. It was actually a respectful acknowledgement to see her, as it's disrespectful and sacrilegious to them for us not to see some of these annihilatory spirits (I believe). So had I not SEEN her, for who she was, I would have been annihilated probably, but instead we got along and she provided me guardianship after which I became one with a wavy golden ocean of bliss.

"If someone screams, listen...
If someone terrorizes, see...
And die"

"Fear is just a spirit knocking very loudly on your door"

The destructive entity contact is a common theme on the shamanic path, which is a path of spirit, similar to your path of god I'm assuming. I hope should you meet this entity again, that you can establish clear relations! I am a bit radical in this sense however, in my acceptance and willingness to meet with 'negative' entities. This is just my path with the spirits so far. If guardianship and clearing space works for you, then it works! That is always good


Looking forward to hearing more from you!
Best wishes,
negative entity contact lady

I came to God from a non-Christian standpoint, and I actually felt his presence years ago on a high dose mushroom and DMT experience. It was incredibly powerful, and distinctly unlike any entity I have ever met since. It was clear that his word was the authority of this existence. He was terrifying and beautiful, and he loved me like a father loves a son.

I struggle with viewing God from a Christian standpoint. That being said, I still have a healthy Christian fear of demons. Muslims would call them Djinn. I do not want to invite them, or allow them to hold any place in my life. I do believe that negative spirits will manipulate your mind and convince you of thoughts that aren’t yours. I do not want to offer them an invitation, or accept any sort of deal. How do I reckon this with your strategy of radical acceptance?

Also, I’ve met many negative entities, annoying and provocative ones, and ones that I just don’t like. Rarely have I met a Demon. That is a distinctly different experience. I am curious what you think of this.

 

[🌺🔥🫧]

Honestly, what you have seen and felt, I feel, is difficulty communicated through English, so I only wish to share with you as best I can what I have seen and experienced myself, and leave the rest of your own heart to interpret.

I would also like to reiterate that I have not yet vaped/smoked DMT yet, nor am I by any means an experienced shaman/spiritualist xD I hope some of the other experienced DMT travelers here can speak to your demon situation as well! But I'll try to express myself further as well

I do believe that negative spirits will manipulate your mind and convince you of thoughts that aren’t yours.

They don't hold a place in your life, and your mind is completely your own, yet you still fear them?
It seems to me then, that whether you keep your mind to yourself, or give it to them, their presence affects you regardless! On one path, you can resist them and move on, on another path they can overcome you and become part of you ~

If you recognize this, then you now have a choice. The universe has manifested something new for you. You can maintain your separate identity as long as you like, which is a totally wonderfully fine thing to do, or if you become incapable (or just purely exhausted) of that or otherwise curious/openhearted/openminded/brave/excited/etc, you can turn to face and get to know whatever this thing is which is trying to destroy you it seems.

I speak of a sort of chaotic-feminine approach to things. If this resonates with you in some capacity then great! If not, then, listen to yourself!

You can start exercising the habit of letting everything inhabit you with the little on the earth plane things first, which are of lesser psychic consequence. This could include arguments people make which you disagree with, deeply letting the voices of others into your mind, deeply witnessing people & life as it is manifest. The nature of this can be very painful, disorienting, and humbling, but it is in the disorientation that you build a robust orientation, and in the humility where you learn to engage with what is, as it truly is. It can also be many more things, like profoundly beautiful, rewarding, ecstatic etc. so it's not all demonic at all xD

The mindset of this is seeing the truth manifest in everything.

I always go about things gently, and slowly if I can, especially with psychic matters, and I can only recommend the same for you!

There is a time and place where resistance can do well, but building the capacity to loose yourself in another and find truth is equally valuable to me. I don't know what this DEMON you met is like. Clearly you were able to ward off the demon which is nice, however this demon is now part of your life experience. Even if you forget now, or don't always think about this demon, as you fulfill your destiny of remembering who you truly are, you will also need to re-member everything and everyone you've ever seen. Since you have seen this demon, your path and its path have now met and what is seen cannot be unseen. Forever intertwined .

The more time you spend with this demon, the better you will get to know it, and the better it will get to know you. This is the law of focus. Since the universe is always manifesting, and changing, what you focus on must also manifest and change into ever greater intricacy. You may not like it now, but with time perhaps even a great DEMON can become your friend, and wonderfully intricate part of you. Each person, moment, place is a manifesting journey unto themselves.

I would like to point out however that this process can take you through many different psychologies. For instance, you can become like a 4 year old again, or god knows what becoming like a demon might be like. I don't know. That is why for learning how to lose and destruct yourself, a gentle and slow start is helpful.

Thank you for your attention!! I hope this can be of some inspiration for you. This is a piece of the mystical story as voiced through the chaotic feminine and manifest in my life. Other people seem to deal with these things in many different ways. This is just my way, which is more of a titanic habit of mind.
Where an effort is made towards the non-focus, of getting possessed, lost, and annihilated. What remains must be true . .

 

[AstralRoots]

Thanks for your share.

Great work. You saged afterward. I'm curious if you also engage in prayer and burning of certain plants prior to consumption?

I also wonder about the days/experiences leading up to the ritual. Who we are around, what we are allowing in to our minds, etc.

Be well

 

[thecosmicjoke]

Thanks for your share.

Great work. You saged afterward. I'm curious if you also engage in prayer and burning of certain plants prior to consumption?

I also wonder about the days/experiences leading up to the ritual. Who we are around, what we are allowing in to our minds, etc.

Be well

I didn’t, and I pray often but I don’t perform any holy ‘rituals’. I could find things to say that invited this experience, but truthfully DMT can be a coin toss. I’ve had far more good experiences than bad, all while consuming the same food, same thoughts, being around the same people, etc.

 

[AstralRoots]

Have you studied the tibetan book of the dead by chance?

I had angels morph into demons in an experience once. It was one of the most intense experiences of my life.

I later stumbled into TTBOTD and much light was thrown upon my experience.

Underworlds, Pluto, dark night of the soul have been interesting subjects of investigation.

 

[thecosmicjoke]

Have you studied the tibetan book of the dead by chance?

I had angels morph into demons in an experience once. It was one of the most intense experiences of my life.

I later stumbled into TTBOTD and much light was thrown upon my experience.

Underworlds, Pluto, dark night of the soul have been interesting subjects of investigation.

Man, you’re gonna freak me out mentioning things I’ve already been thinking about. I haven’t read it, but I’m thinking now that I should.

 

[The Nobody]

5 to 6 large pulls of 4:1 e-liquid.

The beginning of the trip was confusing. Lately I’ve been seeing visions that I didn’t know DMT could generate. I saw a woman run by me with her dog in my living room, while my eyes were open. These little slugs were spinning in my vision and pulling their heads off, and pulling the heads off of little men with black eyes. They were kind of scary, but mostly annoying because they were right over each of my eyes.

I decided to go further. It was the kind of trip that was powerful enough for me to forget quite a bit of it. At a point I realized that the DMT wasn’t doing much anymore, and I felt an impulse to look upwards, trying to roll my eyes back as far as I could. This generated powerful visions. The inner muscle of my ear vibrated as I started to see heavenly things, and I saw glimpses of the body of some holy figure, an angel of sorts, that I can only describe as having a centaur-aura.

However, at a point, the heavenly visions flipped. I started to feel the presence of something evil, and with my eyes closed I felt that it was right in front of my face, trying to get as close as it could to me. It was trying to scare me, and initially it was successful. I continued trying to roll my eyes back and induce further visions. At a point I became worried that I was doing something demonic. This demon lingered directly in front of my face, and I could only see his shadow resting on my eyelids. I tried to stand my ground, and stare him down with closed eyes. He would not relent. Eventually I got angry, and audibly told him to leave my house. I told him he is not welcome, and I will not allow him to be inside my house. I emphasized that I never invited him and I wanted nothing to do with him.

This is where the threshold from vision to reality merged. and I have only ever had it happen once before. I still felt the presence of the demon in my house, and I became very angry that he was trying to fuck with me. I told him he has no power over me, and that I only serve God. This house is only for God. I began to audibly hear the bulb in my fan begin to buzz. At this point, I was tempted to tell him to do more and make himself known. However, I did not want this to be mistaken for an invitation, and my seriousness overrode my curiosity. I told him to get the fuck out.

At this point, the rod on my blinds began to swing back and forth, but only slightly. I stared intently at its sway, as if I were staring the entity down himself. Without breaking eye contact, I told it again to leave. I told it again it does not belong here. I called it vile, and disgusting, and I began to feel pity for it, knowing that it will never rejoice in Gods warmth. I told it that I only serve God, and that it has no right to be in my house. It can not scare me, and I am not a fan of its tricks. Saying enough of these words out loud caused the rod to stop swaying.

Once the trip was over, probably a 40 minute experience total, I got up and decided to sage my house, repeating again that only those who serve God are allowed inside. I thanked God for his protection. I felt my fear and any negative presence dissipate through this act.

I don’t know guys, this one was strange. I’ve seen demons before, but only once have they manifested in reality, and never have they manipulated physical objects. Unsure what to think of this one, but I will continue to cleanse my spirit and my home. Praise be to God.

Stay blessed.

"¿God?, But i'am God."

 

[eLeSDee]

Man, you’re gonna freak me out mentioning things I’ve already been thinking about. I haven’t read it, but I’m thinking now that I should.

The Tibetan Book of the Dead is a guide more or less. I think what you did through this encounter was great BUT in the the book they explain not to engage in any temptation, per say if you encounter a sexual being or in your case a TERRIFYING entity. So to speak on this I will sort of quote Dune by Frank Herbert, "to let the fear pass over you and through you, THEN you realize there is nothing left but you.

So yes fear knocking at your door. In Tibetan book they sort of hint that you need not give any attention to these JUST like you let the next thought pass through your mind while in meditation. I think this may help in your next endeavors.

 

[premeditated]

5 to 6 large pulls of 4:1 e-liquid.

The beginning of the trip was confusing. Lately I’ve been seeing visions that I didn’t know DMT could generate. I saw a woman run by me with her dog in my living room, while my eyes were open. These little slugs were spinning in my vision and pulling their heads off, and pulling the heads off of little men with black eyes. They were kind of scary, but mostly annoying because they were right over each of my eyes.

I decided to go further. It was the kind of trip that was powerful enough for me to forget quite a bit of it. At a point I realized that the DMT wasn’t doing much anymore, and I felt an impulse to look upwards, trying to roll my eyes back as far as I could. This generated powerful visions. The inner muscle of my ear vibrated as I started to see heavenly things, and I saw glimpses of the body of some holy figure, an angel of sorts, that I can only describe as having a centaur-aura.

However, at a point, the heavenly visions flipped. I started to feel the presence of something evil, and with my eyes closed I felt that it was right in front of my face, trying to get as close as it could to me. It was trying to scare me, and initially it was successful. I continued trying to roll my eyes back and induce further visions. At a point I became worried that I was doing something demonic. This demon lingered directly in front of my face, and I could only see his shadow resting on my eyelids. I tried to stand my ground, and stare him down with closed eyes. He would not relent. Eventually I got angry, and audibly told him to leave my house. I told him he is not welcome, and I will not allow him to be inside my house. I emphasized that I never invited him and I wanted nothing to do with him.

This is where the threshold from vision to reality merged. and I have only ever had it happen once before. I still felt the presence of the demon in my house, and I became very angry that he was trying to fuck with me. I told him he has no power over me, and that I only serve God. This house is only for God. I began to audibly hear the bulb in my fan begin to buzz. At this point, I was tempted to tell him to do more and make himself known. However, I did not want this to be mistaken for an invitation, and my seriousness overrode my curiosity. I told him to get the fuck out.

At this point, the rod on my blinds began to swing back and forth, but only slightly. I stared intently at its sway, as if I were staring the entity down himself. Without breaking eye contact, I told it again to leave. I told it again it does not belong here. I called it vile, and disgusting, and I began to feel pity for it, knowing that it will never rejoice in Gods warmth. I told it that I only serve God, and that it has no right to be in my house. It can not scare me, and I am not a fan of its tricks. Saying enough of these words out loud caused the rod to stop swaying.

Once the trip was over, probably a 40 minute experience total, I got up and decided to sage my house, repeating again that only those who serve God are allowed inside. I thanked God for his protection. I felt my fear and any negative presence dissipate through this act.

I don’t know guys, this one was strange. I’ve seen demons before, but only once have they manifested in reality, and never have they manipulated physical objects. Unsure what to think of this one, but I will continue to cleanse my spirit and my home. Praise be to God.

Stay blessed.

Well no more dmt for me....that shit sounds beyond terrifying.

 

[Ernestine]

Well no more dmt for me....that shit sounds beyond terrifying.

You can only go on your own trip, not anyone else's.