Fear is very normal, especially with the first few encounters with DMT. This fear will fade a bit with more use, but there will always be a part of the mind that fears the ego death DMT provides.
The best thing you can do, if you wish to continue your travels, is to give yourself a few days and then try again, fear or no. Remember that DMT only lasts a few minutes, to me this is a perk and one reason that I use vaporized DMT more than oral administration.
Whenever I read a thread like this it reminds me of my own fear of spice. It can be brutal at times...it is defininetly not a party type of "drug" (and I use that term very losely, DMT is medicine, not a recreational drug).
The best way to deal with this fear is to relax right before lift off.
I usually recommend getting your smoking device ready, loaded, with the lighter sitting next to it and then right before launch:
A) a nice hot shower/bath - the act of getting clean is mentally relaxing, the hot water will also help relax your muscles
B) light, soft music. Don't play Tool, or ICP, or heavy metal, rather put on some ambient music at a low volume
C) Lighting - dim the lights, close the curtains, go for very low level lighting, not complete darkness.
D) incense- again something light, don't spark up Nag Champa, use something with a very weak, light sent
E) intention: This is something I always do when I brew Ayahusaca. I let my intentions for the cerimony manifest within the brew...simply put, I speak aloud my goals and hopes for the experience. If I'm looking to interact with a spirit I say so, I think it, and I focus on it. If I'm looking for healing that's what I put in the brew. The same thing can be done for vaporized DMT. Simply hold your loaded smoking device and say, [speak your intentensions]. It can be anything from having a meaningful experience to NOT having a bad experience, to whatever you want. This helps to direct your experience a bit.
F) Meditate - Use your favorite type of meditation for 10-15 minutes right before launch. if you are not familiar with meditation, simply focus on your breath, in though the nose, out through the mouth, slowly, naturally. Focus on the sensation of the breath...do this for 10 minutes or so
Once you have found yourself extremely relaxed pick up your smoking device...this alone will probabaly bring back some of your anxiety, but push it aside with your intent.
I find that as soon as I start smoking the fear dissipates. I don't know if it is like that for others, but once I get the bong to my lips, I know I'm going for a ride on the HMS Spice Express.
Best of luck! I promise that your fear will become easier to manage if you can get back on that horse and ride it again.
The best thing you can do, if you wish to continue your travels, is to give yourself a few days and then try again, fear or no. Remember that DMT only lasts a few minutes, to me this is a perk and one reason that I use vaporized DMT more than oral administration.
Whenever I read a thread like this it reminds me of my own fear of spice. It can be brutal at times...it is defininetly not a party type of "drug" (and I use that term very losely, DMT is medicine, not a recreational drug).
The best way to deal with this fear is to relax right before lift off.
I usually recommend getting your smoking device ready, loaded, with the lighter sitting next to it and then right before launch:
A) a nice hot shower/bath - the act of getting clean is mentally relaxing, the hot water will also help relax your muscles
B) light, soft music. Don't play Tool, or ICP, or heavy metal, rather put on some ambient music at a low volume
C) Lighting - dim the lights, close the curtains, go for very low level lighting, not complete darkness.
D) incense- again something light, don't spark up Nag Champa, use something with a very weak, light sent
E) intention: This is something I always do when I brew Ayahusaca. I let my intentions for the cerimony manifest within the brew...simply put, I speak aloud my goals and hopes for the experience. If I'm looking to interact with a spirit I say so, I think it, and I focus on it. If I'm looking for healing that's what I put in the brew. The same thing can be done for vaporized DMT. Simply hold your loaded smoking device and say, [speak your intentensions]. It can be anything from having a meaningful experience to NOT having a bad experience, to whatever you want. This helps to direct your experience a bit.
F) Meditate - Use your favorite type of meditation for 10-15 minutes right before launch. if you are not familiar with meditation, simply focus on your breath, in though the nose, out through the mouth, slowly, naturally. Focus on the sensation of the breath...do this for 10 minutes or so
Once you have found yourself extremely relaxed pick up your smoking device...this alone will probabaly bring back some of your anxiety, but push it aside with your intent.
I find that as soon as I start smoking the fear dissipates. I don't know if it is like that for others, but once I get the bong to my lips, I know I'm going for a ride on the HMS Spice Express.
Best of luck! I promise that your fear will become easier to manage if you can get back on that horse and ride it again.
