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Looks like the OP decided to quit this forum altogether. The OP was tired of fear mongering. Nothin wrong with that. I don't like it myself. I have found that all of these things exist within myself so I understand them. Watch a fearful child and smile when you see the multitude of false reasonings associated with their various fears. They know not what they do. They will act out in brutal ways when forced into a corner to face the fear soon becoming that which they feared the most.
I have seen the worst of myself and I know my demons. I am very well aware of them. They have caused me a tremendous amount of pain and suffering. These demons were allowed to run rampant in my mind unchecked for a long time. Ignored and unchecked, these demons can become real. They can certainly become something very real to a novice psychedelic user. Maybe it's lazy language to chalk anything dark into the demon and devil category? I feel that maybe some of these people who say the saw a demon or experienced something dark while in the midst of a psychedelic trip are simply experiencing something that they do not understand within themselves. The simple and lazy thing to do when engaging with something we don't understand is to label it evil or demonic and then we can say what we wish about it. I don't see demons or devils anymore because I understand the darkness of the mind now. Anyone can behave in an evil way if pushed far enough. It's completely relative. Something someone else may refer to as 'evil or demonic' I would likely refer to as 'cool! or wicked!'. I like dark things now. I now recognize them within myself and the fear vanished.
I cannot judge someone who sees demons as I saw them before as well. No one could have told me they weren't real. It was what I knew then. There was nothing wrong with me. I was just learning. I think we are all learning. We will create names for our fears, names for thing we do not understand. We learn and the names and labels of things tend to drop away in the end.
Thank you OP for creating this thread! I certainly hope you will come back and respond to what I have said to you here. I was hoping to chat about this with you and was very disappointed reading you were leaving. I guess that is just the way it is for a forum like this. Ebb and flow.
Thank you for explaining your thought processes.
It's very interesting to see what your distant past perspective was compared to your more recent past. It's also helpful, since I've had difficulty understanding such a point of view (your distant past point of view) with a former friend.
He was trying to impose on me the (according to him) "fact" that the world is by nature evil, a prison, Satan's world and we are here because we did something bad and we are being punished. Saturn is Satan, the "black cube", the "god of this world" and we can only be saved by Jesus Christ. I wanted to see the divinity in everything, and he was trying to impose and force all this into my belief system. It was rough. Listening to him every day trying to convince me of these and many other things. I had told him various times to stop with the Satan talks but he was incessant and could not care less that I had told him I did not want to speak of such things. He was just trying to force and transmit his beliefs on me. Because he was right and I was a "fool". It got even rougher when he kept doing it until I finally lost my patience and told him that he was the one worshiping the devil since he couldn't seem to stop talking about him. I offered him an exorcism and told him that Yahweh was the real devil. That the real God isn't a murdering sadist like Yahweh. Anyway I got myself riled up... Re-living that again is not good for me I will stop here and refrain from writing all the details.
I find it interesting that you mention labels and names and how they tend to drop away. I believe that this is because all words are failed attempts at describing the ineffable. Ever try to explain or describe a psychedelic trip and immediately notice that the words that you try to attribute to the trip do not do the trip justice? That they offer only an incomplete and inaccurate version of what was experienced?
The mind can be your greatest enemy(demon) or your greatest friend (angel), like in the cartoons I saw when I was little, where the character would see a demon and an angel above their head or their shoulders. That was a description of the possibilities of the mind. What is of note is that the character ALWAYS chooses which thoughts he will turn into acts and which thoughts he will let go. The mind presents thoughts to you, you observe these thoughts and decide whether you will act upon these thoughts, or let the thoughts go. From this, you can gather that you are not your mind. You are the master of the mind. If, however, you decide to identify with and act upon every thought your mind presents to you, then you are allowing the mind to take you for whatever ride it wants to take you.
It is important to understand the nature of thoughts. All thoughts are transient or impermanent. They come and go. Rise and fall. You can always just observe thoughts rise and fall without being identified with them. What I mean with getting identified with them is thinking that you are your thoughts.
For example, lets say I'm going to do an experiment and observe what thoughts arise while I'm standing still in a forest. "Wow, it's so peaceful here compared to the city." "I wish I could come here more often." "The city is so noisy." "The forest is so calm." "The inhabitants of the forest all seem to be in harmony."
Did any of the thoughts stay permanently? Did all of the thoughts eventually vanish? Is any thought truly permanent?
If no thought is truly permanent, then anyone can certainly watch their thoughts come and go, without acting upon any of them, whether good, bad or neutral. This, again, means that you are the master of your thoughts, and the thoughts are not the masters of you.