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Feeling alone, socially, need advice.

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First of all, great to see so many positive replys. really shows what a great and loving community the nexus is. As for your friends; sorry to say, but if the only way to relate to them is through partying and getting laid, and that's the only contact there is, they aren't REALLY friends. True friendship goes a lot deeper than that, it's a connection you make at a very personal level. A few reactions suggested that it doesn't matter if you haven't got any good friends. I disagree. I think it's VERY important to have some (at least one) people that you can really relate to. A few years ago I was also a bit lonely, having only two people I considered friends, one living very far away and the other one changing, sniffing a lot of coke, getting really egocentric. Fortunately I made some new friends now, with whom I really have a good time. Sure, sometimes the vibe is shallow. My friends all like to party and go crazy, fuck their ass off but so do I sometimes. Psychedelics definately changed my lifestyle and worldview, but sometimes it's just nice to indulge. We aren't saints!!! By the way, all of them have tried my spice by now and everybody loves it. After partying and before getting laid, hit the pipe! I'm sure you'll find people that are on the same level... be patient. And enjoy your lifestyle, I really respect you guys. I'm not that far yet that I can put practice into words.... Be grateful that you are. BTW, where do you live? I'm residing in Amsterdam, if you're ever around let me know. Peace
 
I find it interesting that a lot of people here seem to have entered from the partying-angle. I have next to no friends that like to party. My friends are mostly people I know from the science-departments at the university or people I've met in/during school. Most of them know what I'm up to, some of them don't. Some of them have participated in one or the other trip, most of them haven't. Most of them I can't relate to entirely, not because they are shallow and hedonistic but because I'm deviant, my interests are odd, my ideas odder (for them), and because I just don't want to inhibit my mind so much, to calm it so much, so that it could relate to anything.

I do love my friends though. I don't have many, but I do love them. I've stopped hoping to get total fulfilment from interpersonal relationships. It's good enough to spend some quality time with others, to share the warmth and openness, to bring yourself into every interaction you make to the fullest and request it from the other side as well. There is something to be gained from every interaction - as long as you don't compromise yourself, which, granted, is hard. Being authentic in every situation might provide for you the means to find something valuable in any of the beings you meet day to day.

That being said, I think in the end we are all -as individuals- terribly alone and isolated, but as nodes we are all interconnected within a supra-network of energy and life.
Also there I think there is a hierarchy of awareness and as so often with hierarchies the higher up you go the less people are there. That leaves you technically in solitude, but you can find the spark of the divine in all beings, and sometimes you can ignite it or watch it ignite, or at least see it flicker. Try to provoke it in others. Try to demand they admit to it.
The light, as I see it, wants to shine through us and recognize itself in the other. But if your being is murky the light can not shine. Make yourself transparent to the light within and then help others do the same and see through a glass clearly.

Ok at this point I have to say a big THANK YOU to the nexus for making me feel like there is hope for meeting others that are equally as strange and estranged from the Gaussian mean. Other nexians are out there... I've even met a few... and others that haven't found the nexus yet are out there still, just like you, just like me, wishing to connect.

cheers and love
Enoon
 
You are not alone, no. I see that many others here is relating to you, and I know a few people myself that has experienced the same, as well as me.

Currently I have two close friends and my boyfriend I feel I really can relate to, and it have taken quite a lot of time finding someone I really feel are at the same level. However, I know that my old friends don't really think much of me anymore, because I have - in their words - "become weird". Even though the thought that I'm not really having very many friends anymore and that my old ones are talking crap about me since I've tried certain psychoactives for mental growth bothers me at time, I know that there's people out there at the same level as me, like you people here at the nexus :d This is a very comforting thought to me. My brother and family too I feel I can relate to. They are every bit as weird as me!

However, I believe the right people will come around for you after a little while. Just keep being social and let yourself be out there, and the right people will come along eventually. In the meantime, find comfort in your new lifestyle and be proud of yourself - that is really essential, whatever the situation is. Also, it is great to see all the replies. This truly is, as mr Mad Professor here says, a great and loving community.
 
Bru-

I voluntarily dropped all my old friends. Fuck em, DMT is an excellent opportunity to Dust yourself off and free yourself from your old patterns, including tacit friendships. You can make new friends. Like Chuck D says "if you cant change the people around you - then change the people around you".

I have noticed only 2 complicatins with DMT. The first is that you become 1 in a million to embrace a truly Universal perspective. It is a Beautiful Scenario but a lonely one. Second, without conversational outlet, I find myself having too many conversations with myself (about DMT). I have become very noisy to myself in this regard.

To counter my own over-active mind I have begun to meditate with Thai Buddhists. I HIGHLY suggest doing the same. Altering friends, alter your mind to proceed in the direction of balance.
 
Hey what your feeling is completely natural.. When I was 18 I had already been addicted to exstacy. heroin. and cocain. I had a group of friends I had been hanging out with for years, since middle school we had been finding our kicks, and highs and lows with eachother. I then started taking more mushrooms than normal (normal was once every few months), and started taking doses of mushrooms and acid weekly. Quickly I found myself pulling away from these friends, started thinking about meeting new people, and leaving these ones behind. I have got random calls for years, or messages on facebook, of old friends looking to get back in touch. They always get mad and start bitching at me when i tell them "I dont care if your clean these days, I cant see you man, you were a part of my life, when my life was bad, and it is not healthy to be reminded of that daily...

There is a song, by a scottish singer/songwriter, called Caledonia. The first time I heard it, it made a positive change in my life, the second verse goes as follows.

I have moved, and i kept on movin,
proved the points that i needed provin,
LOST THE FRIENDS THAT I NEEDED LOSIN
FOUND OTHERS ON THE WAY!
I have kissed the ladies and left them crying
stolen dreams yes theres no denyin,
I have travelled hard sometimes with conscious flying
somewhere in the wind---


Look man, I went to arizona 2 years ago, I spent a summer all over the state, I found nothing but good people, people that were willing to come and talk, invite you over for dinner. I spent a month in the navajo nation, and I can tell you right now, a lot of those guys know all about tripping. But, having a friend is not about someone you can do a drug with, its something els, its like loves ally, a good friend. Just because your alone now doesnt mean you will be alone for ever. My advice for meeting people? go to festivals, concerts, and take the psychedelics you want, and meet great people who are interested in the same things you are, and better yet, are taking or have interest in taking the same things you want.. The options are endless, and using introversion or past hurt as an excuse, or to stop you from meeting new people shouldnt justify being alone. If your a good person, you need to get out and meet other good people, dont worry if your scared or something? if you start talking to someone about something, 99% of the time the person will respond and talk back, without any bad vibes or acting weird.. the only time I dont lean over and comment about something to the person next to me in in an elevator when you should just shut up and look at the numbers.. many people including myself have taken psychedelics and now find themselves looking for new friends, I think mainly because our perception has been widened, and we have seen things that others havent.. but the good news, is that there are millions of people out there taking psychedelics and thinking the same way you are, and trying to find good friends. all you have to do is lend a few words, and get somewhere to talk to new people. they are everywhere (possible friends), its just about putting out the effort, they will never just come to you and fall in your lap, the more energy you put into anything, the more energy you get back.
good luck man, best wishes for you.

much peace and love.
 
I know this strays slightly from the topic a little bit, but I have to say that I love the Nexus and everyone on it. This is pretty much the most positive place I've encountered and we all want everyone to grow. This place is beautiful and thank you to the creator of this site (The Travelor if I'm not mistaken).
much love
 
It is good to hear you are going through this. So long as you hold yourself up and don't fall into a dark spiral of nihilism (from which you may never return 😉 ) you will grow greatly from the metamorphosis, or deconstruction if you will. You definitely have my sympathy and empathy, I am going through this in a similar fashion, though I do have a core group of friends that are solid, I just don't get to see them often. Which has its merits.

Don't worry about what anyone thinks of you, unless of course you really think there is a real connection; a real relationship you have with them, and even then... there are no blanket answers, every situation requires its own level of discernment, violence, and calculation. This is your journey bro, just walk the path, learn yourself come to know who you are, and hopefully gains some wisdom, knowledge, and understanding that will benefit those you come in contact with, no mater if they are a elohim, the walking dead, or somewhere in between.

peace upon you and yours,
Fior
 
kmartin80 said:
I know this strays slightly from the topic a little bit, but I have to say that I love the Nexus and everyone on it. This is pretty much the most positive place I've encountered and we all want everyone to grow. This place is beautiful and thank you to the creator of this site (The Travelor if I'm not mistaken).
much love
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I AGREE!!!! This place is not only a great tool for future travels but its a home to those that need to get their thoughts out and possibly advice or guidance. Thank you to everyone for everything!!!!
 
olympus mon said:
this helped me in a time of great pain and confusion. maybe it can help you too. 😉
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WOW!!! Thank you very much for sharing that with us or me especially. Things are really odd right now. I'm going through an information overload that my brain has not caught up to yet. I'm detached and distracted. I'll explain later when I figure out where to post in the nursery my recent situation or whatever this is...lol. This spoke to me, thank you :)
 
Minus The H said:
olympus mon said:
this helped me in a time of great pain and confusion. maybe it can help you too. 😉
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WOW!!! Thank you very much for sharing that with us or me especially. Things are really odd right now. I'm going through an information overload that my brain has not caught up to yet. I'm detached and distracted. I'll explain later when I figure out where to post in the nursery my recent situation or whatever this is...lol. This spoke to me, thank you :)
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And for those that are interested in reading about my current hiccup, the link below. I would really appreciate anyone's thoughts or advice. Kinda at an intersting spot right now. Not sure if its this break time I hear about or what...

INFORMATION OVERLOAD - First steps in Hyperspace - Welcome to the DMT-Nexus
 
Minus The H said:
olympus mon said:
this helped me in a time of great pain and confusion. maybe it can help you too. 😉
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WOW!!! Thank you very much for sharing that with us or me especially. Things are really odd right now. I'm going through an information overload that my brain has not caught up to yet. I'm detached and distracted. I'll explain later when I figure out where to post in the nursery my recent situation or whatever this is...lol. This spoke to me, thank you :)
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your very welcome minus the H, i remember falling to my knees one sunny summer morning surrendering to that which was my life situation. i was loosing my house,just ended my relationship with my ex, business was on the verge of going under and i couldn't understand why. i just layed there on my bedroom carpet with this beam of sunlight warming my face for an hour or so and at some point crawled over to my computer and typed in motivation. this came up and its was like the voice of God was speaking to my soul.

i can honestly say that my life was different from that moment on. not that my financial situation improved nor have i found my soul-mate (whatever that is), i just wasnt scared anymore. they could no longer take anything from me without my allowance.

i wish you and the original poster all the best this world offers. i wish you both to feel and know how great you truly are. i dare you to become the highest version of yourselves.:d

godspeed good travelers
 
And also to the original poster, I do not in anyway want to tread on your thread and apologize if it seems or did seem that way. I wish you all the best of luck and maybe we can help each other out throughout the way :)
 
You are definetely not alone, after a couple non-breakthrough experiences, SWIM wanted to have his materialistic, oblivious friends try this life changing experience A.K.A the spice. What he found was after the experience, everyone, no matter how spiritually ignorant, will question theyre reality, and the existence of their soul. Keep moving forward with your spirtitual awakening. Eventually, inevitably, as the frequencies rise, beings with the same spiritual motivation will unknowingly group, and third eyes will open

Stay Positive :D
 
Lavos said:
Listen to xtechre, he's got a great persepctive

Like he said, remember to stay open. I was walking one day, and someone offered me a ride when I was close, about 1/4 mile from my destination. I told him no, I was okay, and he asked if I was sure, I told him I was and off he went.

Immediately I was disappointed in myself for turning down something like a possible friendship. I had a joint in my pocket of some fresh homegrown, he was about my age, looked the type, and I had few friends then, but I just blew his kindness off.
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Great advice, my entire life I've been saying no and passing on other people's help because I didn't want to be a burden.. when in fact they wouldn't have offered if they didn't want to help me.. I've been pushing people away my entire life. :/
 
Some of us have good friends but still haven't met our best friends in life. I'm 34 years old and I'm still making good friends :) And yes I've had to let go of some old friends that went another path.
When you let go of the old, life brings you new stuff.
 
DMTripper said:
Some of us have good friends but still haven't met our best friends in life. I'm 34 years old and I'm still making good friends :) And yes I've had to let go of some old friends that went another path.
When you let go of the old, life brings you new stuff.
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but remember, one is silver and the other's gold. :)
 
Like most have said the path you choose will take you to new friends of the same interests. I myself am going through the same, and sit mostly on my on in front of this computer, feeling that I am drifting from certain friends because we are so different. I would never if hang around with people like that if I hadn't known them for years before they changed. We all change, and although sometimes it seems dark and lonely it won't always be! :)
 
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