ControlledChaos
Nature is analog, ever flowing and continuous.
Tonight it finally clicked to me the importance of harmalas in the Ayahuasca experience. I came to this discovery as I began making my own brews; I would only use the threshold amount to inhibit my mao and thought that if I just upped the acacia confusa dosage in my brew, I could recapture the magic I felt last year with the caapi and chacruna brew that was given to me; a brew most definitely made with high levels of harmalas and DMT alike. I had it in my head that it was the DMT carrying those experiences, so I once again used 3 grams of Syrian rue and upped my acacia dosage to 10 grams.
What I got from this, was a light show. The acacia confusa most definitely had a voice, but it seemed content just showing me through the corridors of the hyperspaceship. It looked somewhat like the final boss room on Majora's mask. The thoughts I had during this were very practical and logical. I decided to play the entire Zelda ocarina of time soundtrack during this and funny enough when I purged the music when link opens a big chest was in synch with it. The acacia definitely imparted some good advice. But yet still, something was missing in this experience. I was seeing some of the most intricate DMT visuals I'd ever seen and yet, that emotional, sacred feeling that touched the depths of my soul last year just wasn't there. It was a light show with lots of practical advice.
At some point during this, I felt the effects of the acacia fade rather early and reckoned I could prolong it by smoking some Syrian rue seeds. So I loaded my pipe with them and as I smoked they popped dramatically. It seemed with each exhale the effects were coming back somewhat. But then something new crept into my headspace, something familiar; it was that sacred emotional feeling from my brew I had before. That's when it clicked that it was likely not the DMT but actually the harmalas that gave me that feeling. And moreover it seemed that this feeling greatly enhanced the actual connection to hyperspace on a more deep/touching/emotional level. It greatly enhanced the actual immersion into the DMT plane.
With this, it's clear to me that I haven't been using enough Syrian rue in these brews, if I'm to recapture what made me love Ayahuasca in the first place. I believe the brew that was given to me last year, which was a traditional brew, must have had a lot of harmalas and DMT. It was extremely brown and sludgy, and I know chacruna leaves aren't gonna make it that brown. Which tells me it had quite a lot of vine in it. That must be why it made me feel the way it did. So in the future I will be using more Syrian rue in these brews and perhaps more acacia too. I'm not sure how different from caapi it will be with the lack of THH, but that feeling when I smoked it was undeniably the same as what I felt before.
So with that, I can see why the tradition is called Ayahuasca, not chacruna. I believe harmala plants like rue and caapi must put you in touch with your underlying soul on a very profound level and I look forward to experiencing their power more in the future. Thanks for reading Andi hope you enjoyed.
What I got from this, was a light show. The acacia confusa most definitely had a voice, but it seemed content just showing me through the corridors of the hyperspaceship. It looked somewhat like the final boss room on Majora's mask. The thoughts I had during this were very practical and logical. I decided to play the entire Zelda ocarina of time soundtrack during this and funny enough when I purged the music when link opens a big chest was in synch with it. The acacia definitely imparted some good advice. But yet still, something was missing in this experience. I was seeing some of the most intricate DMT visuals I'd ever seen and yet, that emotional, sacred feeling that touched the depths of my soul last year just wasn't there. It was a light show with lots of practical advice.
At some point during this, I felt the effects of the acacia fade rather early and reckoned I could prolong it by smoking some Syrian rue seeds. So I loaded my pipe with them and as I smoked they popped dramatically. It seemed with each exhale the effects were coming back somewhat. But then something new crept into my headspace, something familiar; it was that sacred emotional feeling from my brew I had before. That's when it clicked that it was likely not the DMT but actually the harmalas that gave me that feeling. And moreover it seemed that this feeling greatly enhanced the actual connection to hyperspace on a more deep/touching/emotional level. It greatly enhanced the actual immersion into the DMT plane.
With this, it's clear to me that I haven't been using enough Syrian rue in these brews, if I'm to recapture what made me love Ayahuasca in the first place. I believe the brew that was given to me last year, which was a traditional brew, must have had a lot of harmalas and DMT. It was extremely brown and sludgy, and I know chacruna leaves aren't gonna make it that brown. Which tells me it had quite a lot of vine in it. That must be why it made me feel the way it did. So in the future I will be using more Syrian rue in these brews and perhaps more acacia too. I'm not sure how different from caapi it will be with the lack of THH, but that feeling when I smoked it was undeniably the same as what I felt before.
So with that, I can see why the tradition is called Ayahuasca, not chacruna. I believe harmala plants like rue and caapi must put you in touch with your underlying soul on a very profound level and I look forward to experiencing their power more in the future. Thanks for reading Andi hope you enjoyed.
