OnthePath
Rising Star
I'll try to keep this brief so as not to lose anyones attention. I started experimenting with various entheogens back when I was a teen and managed to get at least 500 doses of LSD into me over the next few years. Kept at it for quite some time in different combinations. I learned alot in those days and spent mnay occassions by myself and worked on the mind. Over the years I, like many people I knew, started to hit partying pretty hard and did a lot of travelling and genreally having a great old time. Over this period the entheogens were gradually replaced with harsher more "social" substances at plenty of events such as metal, hip hop shows and plenty of raves and afterhours clubbing.
This is probably enough of that aspect of my life but I should mention I never lost sight of my hobbies, intrests or career. I finally slowed down this breakneck torrent of abuse (never addicted to anything just compulsive - except cigarrettes) by the time I was 27 or so and settled down. Family, job and social life all intertwined with the occasional party every so often as time permitted. Over this time entheogens had been relegated to a past life almost, this and the fact that they just were not as abundant nor was there a desire to seek them out.
Enter mid thirties. This molecule had caught my attention and I cannot remember exactly how but do remember reading that it would find me...For two years I did my homework and became more and more curious to the point of actually studying and realizing a real need inside my psyche to begin registering much of what I had learnt as a young adult. Maturity had done a little to have me scratch my head and desire to open my mind with all the knowledge gained over the years. I have seen a lot in this lifetime. I had gathered all of the tools and was preparing to put my newfound knowledge to the test.
Early this year tragedy struck my family in the worst way when our eldest child was killed in an avoidable accident caused by reckless behaviour. Needless to say we have been devestated. Grief over this sort of loss is unimaginably horrid. A few months after this incident my mind began to wonder what, if any, healing might be attained through entheogens as clearly the drinking was not working and becoming a distraction, worsoning grief. We are strong people but were brought to our knees. Filling out the various perscriptions handed to us easily was not an option as I have witnessed first hand how these pills ruin lives for years after the intended purpose is long forgotten or perhaps amplified.
Fast forward - first extraction. Nervous trepidation almost overwhelms as the first attempt goes down. Awed is not an apt description although much of what happened was fast and confusing. Over the next few days a noticeable feeling of wellness and adaptability had joined my grief and enabled a clearer thought process. A few weeks later another attempt was made. Feelings were not numbed or altered yet I found things easier to deal with, and was confronted with loving beings trying to communicate messages.
I'm going to avoid going into full blown recounting of the experiences but will mention that there is definately a healing compound in this realm one enters and the communication is unassailable. Even the harshest of experiences that one occasionally comes accross contain many tools that one is able to work with. My mind has not weakened but had gotten stronger. We have a newfound measuring stick through which we are able to realize what we have always felt spiritualy. I have read many of the debates raging over whether these experiences are all within our own headspace or if external influences are indeed being percieved and I can say wihtout hesitation that the latter is the most probable case for us as contact has been made with those on the other side(s). We are completely humbled and have a better understanding of the confusion that this experience of "life" is or should be. I might add that I have many other experiences to measure this against, including the reality bending shift that Sally forces on you.
I have recently also began work with LSD for the first time in years and have rediscovered with the aid of spice how to rearm the brain to deal with life and not hide from it. The work that has been done is far from over but some meassure of ejoying life has returned, with the knowledge that this might all be a trip we have put ourselves on from someplace else.
I have this place to thank and all of the members for tirelessly assisting throughout this process and am forever grateful. First extraction went off without a hitch and have been getting great returns ever since. Next step is work with the vine.
So in a nutshell I am truly grateful for this experience as it has helped immeasurably in our process and knocked many of the confusing and dreadful parts of life into perspective. Looking forward to discussing and not lurking from here on in.
Chiao.
This is probably enough of that aspect of my life but I should mention I never lost sight of my hobbies, intrests or career. I finally slowed down this breakneck torrent of abuse (never addicted to anything just compulsive - except cigarrettes) by the time I was 27 or so and settled down. Family, job and social life all intertwined with the occasional party every so often as time permitted. Over this time entheogens had been relegated to a past life almost, this and the fact that they just were not as abundant nor was there a desire to seek them out.
Enter mid thirties. This molecule had caught my attention and I cannot remember exactly how but do remember reading that it would find me...For two years I did my homework and became more and more curious to the point of actually studying and realizing a real need inside my psyche to begin registering much of what I had learnt as a young adult. Maturity had done a little to have me scratch my head and desire to open my mind with all the knowledge gained over the years. I have seen a lot in this lifetime. I had gathered all of the tools and was preparing to put my newfound knowledge to the test.
Early this year tragedy struck my family in the worst way when our eldest child was killed in an avoidable accident caused by reckless behaviour. Needless to say we have been devestated. Grief over this sort of loss is unimaginably horrid. A few months after this incident my mind began to wonder what, if any, healing might be attained through entheogens as clearly the drinking was not working and becoming a distraction, worsoning grief. We are strong people but were brought to our knees. Filling out the various perscriptions handed to us easily was not an option as I have witnessed first hand how these pills ruin lives for years after the intended purpose is long forgotten or perhaps amplified.
Fast forward - first extraction. Nervous trepidation almost overwhelms as the first attempt goes down. Awed is not an apt description although much of what happened was fast and confusing. Over the next few days a noticeable feeling of wellness and adaptability had joined my grief and enabled a clearer thought process. A few weeks later another attempt was made. Feelings were not numbed or altered yet I found things easier to deal with, and was confronted with loving beings trying to communicate messages.
I'm going to avoid going into full blown recounting of the experiences but will mention that there is definately a healing compound in this realm one enters and the communication is unassailable. Even the harshest of experiences that one occasionally comes accross contain many tools that one is able to work with. My mind has not weakened but had gotten stronger. We have a newfound measuring stick through which we are able to realize what we have always felt spiritualy. I have read many of the debates raging over whether these experiences are all within our own headspace or if external influences are indeed being percieved and I can say wihtout hesitation that the latter is the most probable case for us as contact has been made with those on the other side(s). We are completely humbled and have a better understanding of the confusion that this experience of "life" is or should be. I might add that I have many other experiences to measure this against, including the reality bending shift that Sally forces on you.
I have recently also began work with LSD for the first time in years and have rediscovered with the aid of spice how to rearm the brain to deal with life and not hide from it. The work that has been done is far from over but some meassure of ejoying life has returned, with the knowledge that this might all be a trip we have put ourselves on from someplace else.
I have this place to thank and all of the members for tirelessly assisting throughout this process and am forever grateful. First extraction went off without a hitch and have been getting great returns ever since. Next step is work with the vine.
So in a nutshell I am truly grateful for this experience as it has helped immeasurably in our process and knocked many of the confusing and dreadful parts of life into perspective. Looking forward to discussing and not lurking from here on in.
Chiao.
