ThirdEyeDrift
Rising Star
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Hello fellow seekers,
I would like to share my very first Ayahuasca experience.
I attended this ceremony on the recommendation of a colleague. I had known about this sacred medicine since my teenage years and had a vague understanding of its potential benefits. With curiosity and intention, I drove up to the mountains where the shaman had arranged a beautiful accommodation surrounded by nature and farm animals.
Day One
On the first day of the ceremony, we prepared by wearing all-white clothing. We were seated together in the living room. The ceremony began with everyone sharing their intentions, after which the shaman served the sacred medicine one by one. When it was my turn, I felt extremely anxious, but I still drank the medicine. Once everyone had received it, the shaman blew out the final candle.
My intention was:
To lovingly explore who I am through the eyes of unconditional acceptance, so that I can love and understand myself more deeply; by doing so, to release the tension at the heart of my social anxiety; to improve my relationship with my mum and dad; and to align my heart and life with universal acceptance.
For about 20 minutes, I felt nothing. Then I began to feel light-headed, and suddenly my anxiety kicked in. I started resisting the experience, and it became very difficult to surrender to the medicine. I began seeing higher beings, which I will refer to as entities from here on.
Soon, I felt my conscious mind dissolving. The entities started showing me my personality — who I am as a person. They never spoke in words, but communicated entirely through visions. Each vision carried messages that led to deep realizations.
They then showed me my relationship with my mother — how deeply she loves me, how important I am to her, and how much my happiness matters to her. Whenever the experience became overwhelming, I grounded myself by opening my eyes and focusing on my breath. I believe I did this because I was afraid of what the entities were trying to show me — perhaps truths that my body and soul weren’t ready to fully handle yet.
A part of me wanted to run away from the ceremony, while another part wanted to see it through. I’m grateful I stayed, although I realize now that there was no real escape even if I had tried. At that moment, I remembered why some of my friends had been so terrified after smoking DMT crystals.
At one point, instead of focusing on the visions, my mind drifted to everyday worries — rent, work issues, and other responsibilities. The entities communicated to me that these were just the noise of life. They showed me that problems will always exist in the present and future, but they are not as important as we believe them to be. This was when I truly understood the concept of Maya — the illusion of this world. They urged me to stop focusing on trivial problems and pay attention to what they were revealing.
Once the fear dissolved, I entered a state of pure bliss. I felt overwhelming happiness, and the entities began dancing in celebration, as if welcoming me. It felt like a mother rejoicing when her child visits after a long time. We danced together around a bonfire.
They showed me what happiness and love truly look like — not just feelings, but visible energies. They were radiant and breathtaking. The entities then revealed that the physical manifestation of this love and happiness originated from my mother. The love I received from her felt divine, otherworldly, and unforgettable.
In that moment, I began appreciating life more deeply. I had always felt like I was searching for something more, but suddenly I felt complete — satisfied and deeply grateful for existence.
While in this higher dimension, I was extremely sensitive to sounds. People coughing, purging, or crying would immediately ground me and pull me back into the physical realm.
When the final cup was announced, I felt myself returning to sobriety. I was filled with awe and gratitude for the journey I had just experienced. After the ceremony ended, we were offered soup, which helped ground my body fully back into this world. I went to bed afterward, but I couldn’t sleep — my mind was racing, processing everything I had seen. I also knew that the second day of the ceremony awaited me.
Day Two
The second day is when things became even deeper.
The ceremony began similarly to the first night. After drinking the medicine, it took some time to take effect. When it did, my anxiety briefly surfaced again, but this time it disappeared very quickly. The entities welcomed me back warmly and began guiding me through their world once more.
I saw a bright light, and within it, the entities appeared. I felt like I was being held in gentle, delicate hands. Surrendering felt much easier this time.
They immediately focused on my relationship with my parents, showing me the importance of accepting them for who they are. The biggest lesson for me was patience — especially with my father, who comes from a different era and holds very traditional views. This difference has caused conflict between us in the past, but now I feel far more patient and understanding toward him.
Next, the entities taught me about gratitude. They showed me that problems are not truly problems — they are created by the mind. They even showed me the person sitting next to me, revealing deep-seated emotional trauma that he needed to release. Moments later, he began purging, exactly as they had shown me.
After these teachings, I asked a question I had always wondered about: I want to see God. Where is He? What is He doing?
I felt myself moving past the entities toward an intense light. Within it, I saw a golden balcony where God resided. God communicated to me through my own voice, saying that I was not ready to see Him yet. I was told that I must go through trials and sacrifices — letting go of pleasures, wants, and desires — before I could have an audience.
At that moment, I realized that God exists within all living beings. To access Him requires deep inward journeys into the soul, the conscious, and the subconscious mind. I also understood that He is always present — watching over me, loving me, and guiding me along the path I am meant to walk.
This made me reflect on what monks and yogis have been accessing for centuries — the path toward Nirvana, becoming one with ultimate consciousness. I then experienced what it felt like to leave my body through the crown chakra and enter another dimension. The energy there was beyond anything the sober human mind can comprehend. The only way to reach such states is through disciplined thought, mindfulness, and spiritual practice.
At one point, more medicine was offered. I considered taking another cup, believing I had sobered up. But the medicine communicated to me clearly that it was still present and that I was not ready for more.
Once again, I entered a state of bliss and celebration — the most beautiful part of the journey. I experienced the birth of music itself, as if the sounds of the universe gave rise to it. I understood how music touches the soul on a deeply spiritual level.
The medicine revealed that there were two shamans involved in this ritual since the beginning of time — how the medicine first revealed itself to them, how they became one with it, and how they continue this sacred practice. I saw them dancing with me around the bonfire. I was shown visions of ancient mountains where this medicine was first consumed centuries ago.
The medicine told me: I have shown myself to humanity for their betterment. I existed before humanity and will remain after humanity is gone.
Reflections
I learned so much from this retreat. I am deeply grateful that I stayed for the second day, even when leaving was an option. The medicine had more to show me.
My key learnings are:
I will definitely attend a five-day retreat in the future.
Thank you, entities, for showing me these invaluable lessons.
I would like to share my very first Ayahuasca experience.
I attended this ceremony on the recommendation of a colleague. I had known about this sacred medicine since my teenage years and had a vague understanding of its potential benefits. With curiosity and intention, I drove up to the mountains where the shaman had arranged a beautiful accommodation surrounded by nature and farm animals.
Day One
On the first day of the ceremony, we prepared by wearing all-white clothing. We were seated together in the living room. The ceremony began with everyone sharing their intentions, after which the shaman served the sacred medicine one by one. When it was my turn, I felt extremely anxious, but I still drank the medicine. Once everyone had received it, the shaman blew out the final candle.
My intention was:
To lovingly explore who I am through the eyes of unconditional acceptance, so that I can love and understand myself more deeply; by doing so, to release the tension at the heart of my social anxiety; to improve my relationship with my mum and dad; and to align my heart and life with universal acceptance.
For about 20 minutes, I felt nothing. Then I began to feel light-headed, and suddenly my anxiety kicked in. I started resisting the experience, and it became very difficult to surrender to the medicine. I began seeing higher beings, which I will refer to as entities from here on.
Soon, I felt my conscious mind dissolving. The entities started showing me my personality — who I am as a person. They never spoke in words, but communicated entirely through visions. Each vision carried messages that led to deep realizations.
They then showed me my relationship with my mother — how deeply she loves me, how important I am to her, and how much my happiness matters to her. Whenever the experience became overwhelming, I grounded myself by opening my eyes and focusing on my breath. I believe I did this because I was afraid of what the entities were trying to show me — perhaps truths that my body and soul weren’t ready to fully handle yet.
A part of me wanted to run away from the ceremony, while another part wanted to see it through. I’m grateful I stayed, although I realize now that there was no real escape even if I had tried. At that moment, I remembered why some of my friends had been so terrified after smoking DMT crystals.
At one point, instead of focusing on the visions, my mind drifted to everyday worries — rent, work issues, and other responsibilities. The entities communicated to me that these were just the noise of life. They showed me that problems will always exist in the present and future, but they are not as important as we believe them to be. This was when I truly understood the concept of Maya — the illusion of this world. They urged me to stop focusing on trivial problems and pay attention to what they were revealing.
Once the fear dissolved, I entered a state of pure bliss. I felt overwhelming happiness, and the entities began dancing in celebration, as if welcoming me. It felt like a mother rejoicing when her child visits after a long time. We danced together around a bonfire.
They showed me what happiness and love truly look like — not just feelings, but visible energies. They were radiant and breathtaking. The entities then revealed that the physical manifestation of this love and happiness originated from my mother. The love I received from her felt divine, otherworldly, and unforgettable.
In that moment, I began appreciating life more deeply. I had always felt like I was searching for something more, but suddenly I felt complete — satisfied and deeply grateful for existence.
While in this higher dimension, I was extremely sensitive to sounds. People coughing, purging, or crying would immediately ground me and pull me back into the physical realm.
When the final cup was announced, I felt myself returning to sobriety. I was filled with awe and gratitude for the journey I had just experienced. After the ceremony ended, we were offered soup, which helped ground my body fully back into this world. I went to bed afterward, but I couldn’t sleep — my mind was racing, processing everything I had seen. I also knew that the second day of the ceremony awaited me.
Day Two
The second day is when things became even deeper.
The ceremony began similarly to the first night. After drinking the medicine, it took some time to take effect. When it did, my anxiety briefly surfaced again, but this time it disappeared very quickly. The entities welcomed me back warmly and began guiding me through their world once more.
I saw a bright light, and within it, the entities appeared. I felt like I was being held in gentle, delicate hands. Surrendering felt much easier this time.
They immediately focused on my relationship with my parents, showing me the importance of accepting them for who they are. The biggest lesson for me was patience — especially with my father, who comes from a different era and holds very traditional views. This difference has caused conflict between us in the past, but now I feel far more patient and understanding toward him.
Next, the entities taught me about gratitude. They showed me that problems are not truly problems — they are created by the mind. They even showed me the person sitting next to me, revealing deep-seated emotional trauma that he needed to release. Moments later, he began purging, exactly as they had shown me.
After these teachings, I asked a question I had always wondered about: I want to see God. Where is He? What is He doing?
I felt myself moving past the entities toward an intense light. Within it, I saw a golden balcony where God resided. God communicated to me through my own voice, saying that I was not ready to see Him yet. I was told that I must go through trials and sacrifices — letting go of pleasures, wants, and desires — before I could have an audience.
At that moment, I realized that God exists within all living beings. To access Him requires deep inward journeys into the soul, the conscious, and the subconscious mind. I also understood that He is always present — watching over me, loving me, and guiding me along the path I am meant to walk.
This made me reflect on what monks and yogis have been accessing for centuries — the path toward Nirvana, becoming one with ultimate consciousness. I then experienced what it felt like to leave my body through the crown chakra and enter another dimension. The energy there was beyond anything the sober human mind can comprehend. The only way to reach such states is through disciplined thought, mindfulness, and spiritual practice.
At one point, more medicine was offered. I considered taking another cup, believing I had sobered up. But the medicine communicated to me clearly that it was still present and that I was not ready for more.
Once again, I entered a state of bliss and celebration — the most beautiful part of the journey. I experienced the birth of music itself, as if the sounds of the universe gave rise to it. I understood how music touches the soul on a deeply spiritual level.
The medicine revealed that there were two shamans involved in this ritual since the beginning of time — how the medicine first revealed itself to them, how they became one with it, and how they continue this sacred practice. I saw them dancing with me around the bonfire. I was shown visions of ancient mountains where this medicine was first consumed centuries ago.
The medicine told me: I have shown myself to humanity for their betterment. I existed before humanity and will remain after humanity is gone.
Reflections
I learned so much from this retreat. I am deeply grateful that I stayed for the second day, even when leaving was an option. The medicine had more to show me.
My key learnings are:
- To practice gratitude
- To be patient and compassionate with my parents
- To cherish every moment on this planet
I will definitely attend a five-day retreat in the future.
Thank you, entities, for showing me these invaluable lessons.
