DreamingNdream
Rising Star
Hi everyone, ive been wanting to share what i call my first and only breakthrough experience for awhile. I hope to get some feed back from fellow Nexus members as i don't have anyone to share this with that can relate.
After two years of research i finally decided to try Dmt. My frist few experiences with the spice where very mild because i kept burning it in my herb pipes. Finally i had enough and decided to get a GVG.
Unfortunately my scale got lye in it and was useless, so i went online and compaired a dose on someone else's scale. i forget what dose i was shooting for but it was around 15-30mg dose that i wanted to consume. I took more than half of my remaining spice and placed it over some herb use for making tea. A few weeks later i got a new scale and weighed the remaining spice it was 40mg, so i must of packed around 50mg of spice in my GVG, oops!!!
The setting of my trip was in a old cow pasture directly behind my parents house. I spent plenty of time in that field picking mushrooms, that feild has changed my life in so many ways even prior to this particular event. It was summer time mid afternoon around 4 pm sunny and not too hot. I got positioned on a mound of dirt that was angled so that i was slightly reclining and could see the field which was surrounded by tree lines on all sides. I took a few minutes to relax and clear my mind, i knew some was going to pop this time around i was prepaired with my vape and tourch lighter.
I begun to vape, drew some vapor and held it in. Immediately begun to feel affects the familar calming of my mind and heavy sedating felling along with shimmering landscape came on like my previous attemps but still no hullicnations. I looked around for ten seconds or so and went for another. I felt the same affects. Looked around some more and took a third. Same effects but way more intense it was terrific! I looked around for about ten more seconds and told myself i might as well try another just incase there is some more but it's probably all gone.
Boy was i wrong! I started to see my GVG fill up with vape and i just kept drawing until i couldn't anymore. Instantly it was like i forgot that i was even smoking dmt like i didn't remember anything of my past existance until this very moment. I felt like my whole life and purpose was leading to this very moment it was overwhelming. There was an rediculiouly overwhelming sence of deja vu. It felt like this was my thousandth time in this exact momemnt tripping balls for the first time on DMT. This moment felt ancient. So weired.
I quickly caught myself realized that i was on my way to experiencing what i had been reading about for the past couple of years. Everything was happing so fast i noticed that i couldn't hear anything or feel anything. I looked at the tree line and my line of vision begun to dissapear in vertical planes towards me! I was freaking out! Everything turned super vibrant and cartoon like which sent me over the edge. I begun to panic and said to myself not the cartoon trip i hate that trip, i was referring to the last time i tripped out hard on shrooms and everything looked like it was painted and 2-D.
As everything was turing cartoonish an extreme sound like a speeding up or volume and pitch was overcoming me and thought to myself, oh shit i finally did it i fried my brain i finally pushed my limits and im dying.I thought this overwhelming sound is what it must be like before you die when your brain is so stressed from information overload it shuts down. I thought to myself my family is going to find me lying here next to this crazy pipe overdosed on some drugs. During my research I read about how some people thought they were dying from dmt and i told myself i would never let that bother me but i couldn't help it i thought i was a goner. I felt like i was on my way out of my body, not to have a trip but on my way out permentaly. I tried with all my will to stay in my body i was completely fighting it and screaming noooooo!!! Well i don't think i was screaming out loud but i couldn't tell.
I looked down at my body and it was vibrating, not vibrations you could feel, i felt completely numb. It looked more like static from an old tv. My body was vibrating away! I looked up and everything collapsed and shatterd into a pixelated mess of multicolored pixels, my human self was no more there was nothing left of planet Earth or my identity. As soon as there was the shattering of pixels there was a sense that this reality is actually a computer program of some sort and the program was exposed or compromised or somthing. Like there was an interuption of the program.
After my body vibrated away and everything shatterd, they was no more fear because there was no more reality to hold on to. I herd crazy springing sounds bouncing around and everything was complete darkness, there was no more dimention just darkness. I wasn't floating around in darkness because there was no self or matter to be made of but there was still I? Not me but I? I was like an observer, not a participant of this place.
Upon arrival to this emptiness i herd a familar sound. It was like the cliche outspace sound like a cosmic whistle or something. This sound was the welcoming of my arrival to this place. I could feel an orgainc presence dripping all around but couldn't see any life. All i saw was three multicolored neon squiggles in the far distance. The duration of this time in this place seemed like a few seconds.
All of a sudden there was Earth-like dimention but it was like i was on another planet. I knew i was in the cow field but everything was completely alien. Luckliy it wasn't cartoon like but super vibrant. I was so releived to still be alive and back on Earth even though everything was made of colors that ive never even seen before. There was so many things moving around all i could do was look at the long grass shimmering around, it was utterly amazing. I watched the alien like colors for what seemed like one minute. As things begun to transiton back to Earth like envrionment Alien script appeared out of nowhere and scrolled down and away from me. When that was done a message came to me. I can't remeber word for word but it was on the lines of, "All that is, is all that will be" this message was telling me to accept things for what they are and not what i want them to be.
After i came down i was so greatful to be human agian and have the chance to experience life on earth. I got up and walked over to my family and just chilled with them in the most peaceful and understanding mindset of my entire life. Thank you DMT.
After two years of research i finally decided to try Dmt. My frist few experiences with the spice where very mild because i kept burning it in my herb pipes. Finally i had enough and decided to get a GVG.
Unfortunately my scale got lye in it and was useless, so i went online and compaired a dose on someone else's scale. i forget what dose i was shooting for but it was around 15-30mg dose that i wanted to consume. I took more than half of my remaining spice and placed it over some herb use for making tea. A few weeks later i got a new scale and weighed the remaining spice it was 40mg, so i must of packed around 50mg of spice in my GVG, oops!!!
The setting of my trip was in a old cow pasture directly behind my parents house. I spent plenty of time in that field picking mushrooms, that feild has changed my life in so many ways even prior to this particular event. It was summer time mid afternoon around 4 pm sunny and not too hot. I got positioned on a mound of dirt that was angled so that i was slightly reclining and could see the field which was surrounded by tree lines on all sides. I took a few minutes to relax and clear my mind, i knew some was going to pop this time around i was prepaired with my vape and tourch lighter.
I begun to vape, drew some vapor and held it in. Immediately begun to feel affects the familar calming of my mind and heavy sedating felling along with shimmering landscape came on like my previous attemps but still no hullicnations. I looked around for ten seconds or so and went for another. I felt the same affects. Looked around some more and took a third. Same effects but way more intense it was terrific! I looked around for about ten more seconds and told myself i might as well try another just incase there is some more but it's probably all gone.
Boy was i wrong! I started to see my GVG fill up with vape and i just kept drawing until i couldn't anymore. Instantly it was like i forgot that i was even smoking dmt like i didn't remember anything of my past existance until this very moment. I felt like my whole life and purpose was leading to this very moment it was overwhelming. There was an rediculiouly overwhelming sence of deja vu. It felt like this was my thousandth time in this exact momemnt tripping balls for the first time on DMT. This moment felt ancient. So weired.
I quickly caught myself realized that i was on my way to experiencing what i had been reading about for the past couple of years. Everything was happing so fast i noticed that i couldn't hear anything or feel anything. I looked at the tree line and my line of vision begun to dissapear in vertical planes towards me! I was freaking out! Everything turned super vibrant and cartoon like which sent me over the edge. I begun to panic and said to myself not the cartoon trip i hate that trip, i was referring to the last time i tripped out hard on shrooms and everything looked like it was painted and 2-D.
As everything was turing cartoonish an extreme sound like a speeding up or volume and pitch was overcoming me and thought to myself, oh shit i finally did it i fried my brain i finally pushed my limits and im dying.I thought this overwhelming sound is what it must be like before you die when your brain is so stressed from information overload it shuts down. I thought to myself my family is going to find me lying here next to this crazy pipe overdosed on some drugs. During my research I read about how some people thought they were dying from dmt and i told myself i would never let that bother me but i couldn't help it i thought i was a goner. I felt like i was on my way out of my body, not to have a trip but on my way out permentaly. I tried with all my will to stay in my body i was completely fighting it and screaming noooooo!!! Well i don't think i was screaming out loud but i couldn't tell.
I looked down at my body and it was vibrating, not vibrations you could feel, i felt completely numb. It looked more like static from an old tv. My body was vibrating away! I looked up and everything collapsed and shatterd into a pixelated mess of multicolored pixels, my human self was no more there was nothing left of planet Earth or my identity. As soon as there was the shattering of pixels there was a sense that this reality is actually a computer program of some sort and the program was exposed or compromised or somthing. Like there was an interuption of the program.
After my body vibrated away and everything shatterd, they was no more fear because there was no more reality to hold on to. I herd crazy springing sounds bouncing around and everything was complete darkness, there was no more dimention just darkness. I wasn't floating around in darkness because there was no self or matter to be made of but there was still I? Not me but I? I was like an observer, not a participant of this place.
Upon arrival to this emptiness i herd a familar sound. It was like the cliche outspace sound like a cosmic whistle or something. This sound was the welcoming of my arrival to this place. I could feel an orgainc presence dripping all around but couldn't see any life. All i saw was three multicolored neon squiggles in the far distance. The duration of this time in this place seemed like a few seconds.
All of a sudden there was Earth-like dimention but it was like i was on another planet. I knew i was in the cow field but everything was completely alien. Luckliy it wasn't cartoon like but super vibrant. I was so releived to still be alive and back on Earth even though everything was made of colors that ive never even seen before. There was so many things moving around all i could do was look at the long grass shimmering around, it was utterly amazing. I watched the alien like colors for what seemed like one minute. As things begun to transiton back to Earth like envrionment Alien script appeared out of nowhere and scrolled down and away from me. When that was done a message came to me. I can't remeber word for word but it was on the lines of, "All that is, is all that will be" this message was telling me to accept things for what they are and not what i want them to be.
After i came down i was so greatful to be human agian and have the chance to experience life on earth. I got up and walked over to my family and just chilled with them in the most peaceful and understanding mindset of my entire life. Thank you DMT.
