Achilles
I is the obstacle.
To start this report off I’ll start by saying Swims a pretty seasoned psychedelic user but until now has had no actual exposure to dmt. After probably bout 3 years of waiting for dmt to present itself in life swim finally decided to seek it out. Swim attempted his first extraction using 50 grams of mimosa hostilis. Swim put it in the blender to powder it (making sure to let the powder settle for 10 mins before opening). Swim then weighed 50 grams of lye in a plastic cup on his scale before disposing of the cup. He mixed the lye into 300 ml of water in increments of thirds into a tempered glass beaker and poured it over his mimosa which was in a larger glass beaker. Three naphtha pulls were done and each time He’d leave the naphtha in with the bark for bout 3 hours swirling periodically and keeping his water pot warm. After 30 hours of deep freeze the results were successful in all his jars.
THE TRIP
Swim loaded a glass pipe with spice using marijuana residue to keep it from sucking through (it wasn’t until swim ran out of spice that he realized he was destroying most of his material with direct flame). The first hit from the pipe swim felt the effects were similar to the peak of a good lsd trip. Swim was happy by the effects but somewhat let down because he had expected more. Swim picked up the pipe and proceeded to hit it two or three more times… he laid back and stared at the light fixture enjoying the euphoria and visuals but this is where things went crazy… see swim has had lots of experiences with psychedelics but the closest he’s ever got to dmt was salvia which is still much different. Because of this swim was unprepared for the light to morph into a bunch of lights and immediately terrify him into thinking it was aliens or higher dimensional gods or something. Swim shut his eyes but found no relief, he felt exposed as if whatever he thought he was seeing was all around him. With his eyes now shut he began getting lost in constant churning pink hexagon shapes but the shape would also morph into symbols that kinda looked male and female symbols. At this point swim was saying in his head to himself that he had made a mistake and prayed for an end. Swim repeatedly spoke to himself telling himself it would be over soon until he began to regain his outside vision.. the last thing swim saw as the trip was ending was a pink barcode glitch looking that he could see his friend through.
WHAT WAS LEARNED.
Swim later did his research and determined a few thing. First he was unprepared and arrogant to the situation which led to a huge pride hit when he was chased out of hyperspace after trying to get there for years without finding dmt. He learned he wasn’t as awesome of a “shaman” as he thought. Second swim was burning all his product which was attributed to rushing the experience due to excitement and not doing his research. Third and MOST IMPORTANT is that swim later found he had only made it to the waiting room and his fear was attributed to his ego death experience that he once again had not prepared for. The experience though terrifying was perfect… it hurt swims pride badly to feel he wasn’t worthy of reaching hyperspace but it forced him to better research and prepare… the ego that kept swim from letting go is now back in charge and is on a determined suicide mission… while sober swim has been meditating trying to learn to silence his ego and yet train his ego to encourage letting go instead of holding on. Instead of saying “I wish this will end” next time the ego must stay quiet and allow its death… go with the flow and let go. This is a challenge that has been hard to deal with but luckily as I said… swims egos pride was hurt and is on a suicide mission and will not fail to let go next time. Overall dmt gave swim the kick in the ass he needed and said “come back when your ready”... swim is determined and will not fail again. When swim finally goes for round two he’ll be sure to post the experience to his nexian brothers… thanks for reading and I hope others learn from this.
THE TRIP
Swim loaded a glass pipe with spice using marijuana residue to keep it from sucking through (it wasn’t until swim ran out of spice that he realized he was destroying most of his material with direct flame). The first hit from the pipe swim felt the effects were similar to the peak of a good lsd trip. Swim was happy by the effects but somewhat let down because he had expected more. Swim picked up the pipe and proceeded to hit it two or three more times… he laid back and stared at the light fixture enjoying the euphoria and visuals but this is where things went crazy… see swim has had lots of experiences with psychedelics but the closest he’s ever got to dmt was salvia which is still much different. Because of this swim was unprepared for the light to morph into a bunch of lights and immediately terrify him into thinking it was aliens or higher dimensional gods or something. Swim shut his eyes but found no relief, he felt exposed as if whatever he thought he was seeing was all around him. With his eyes now shut he began getting lost in constant churning pink hexagon shapes but the shape would also morph into symbols that kinda looked male and female symbols. At this point swim was saying in his head to himself that he had made a mistake and prayed for an end. Swim repeatedly spoke to himself telling himself it would be over soon until he began to regain his outside vision.. the last thing swim saw as the trip was ending was a pink barcode glitch looking that he could see his friend through.
WHAT WAS LEARNED.
Swim later did his research and determined a few thing. First he was unprepared and arrogant to the situation which led to a huge pride hit when he was chased out of hyperspace after trying to get there for years without finding dmt. He learned he wasn’t as awesome of a “shaman” as he thought. Second swim was burning all his product which was attributed to rushing the experience due to excitement and not doing his research. Third and MOST IMPORTANT is that swim later found he had only made it to the waiting room and his fear was attributed to his ego death experience that he once again had not prepared for. The experience though terrifying was perfect… it hurt swims pride badly to feel he wasn’t worthy of reaching hyperspace but it forced him to better research and prepare… the ego that kept swim from letting go is now back in charge and is on a determined suicide mission… while sober swim has been meditating trying to learn to silence his ego and yet train his ego to encourage letting go instead of holding on. Instead of saying “I wish this will end” next time the ego must stay quiet and allow its death… go with the flow and let go. This is a challenge that has been hard to deal with but luckily as I said… swims egos pride was hurt and is on a suicide mission and will not fail to let go next time. Overall dmt gave swim the kick in the ass he needed and said “come back when your ready”... swim is determined and will not fail again. When swim finally goes for round two he’ll be sure to post the experience to his nexian brothers… thanks for reading and I hope others learn from this.
