Dirty Spoons
Rising Star
My first experience took place about 3 years ago. I was in my mid 20's and was deeply involved with mushrooms. I had heard of dmt, but it wasn't until this time frame that it seemed easy enough to extract some myself. I did a very simple STB in quart jars on 100g of mhrb. I ended up with a nice pile of very yellow shards.
My experience to this point included weekly mushroom voyages, a bit of experimentation with nightshades. Some romances with salvia and her extracts, and probably plenty of other naturals. I felt pretty experienced and had no doubt I was ready for my first trip into hyperspace. In addition to this, I am typically hard headed, and need at least 1.5x more than most people recommend for most substances. I also had read that there is virtually no danger to my health regardless of dose. Worst case scenario seemed to be I wouldn't remember it. I know better now. lol.
I had absolutely no experience vaping anything at this point. I had hit some bufo alvarius secretions out of a lightbulb vape once or twice, but that was it. I had nothing convenient to vape in, so i just used one of my normal bongs, which i left some ash in the bottom of the stem. I put a big ol pile of crystal in the bowl, which filled it more than half way. My wife was asleep and I was alone. I lit it up pretty much soon as it was loaded.
The hit was big and smooth. Lots of smoke and it went down easy. I was a daily weed smoker but nothing prepared me for this. I started to get a fuzzy feeling, which i now know is a normal body load. At the time, I felt like I was dissolving into static. I also had a very strong sensation I was sinking threw my couch. As I felt myself falling over the near death experience started. The safety margin I had assured myself of evaporated. It clearly was possible to do too much, and I just did. My living room was turning purple. I had an xmas tree setup and lit at the time and every bulb was exploding and throwing massive amounts of light into the room. I was just a spectator as I sank threw the couch and filled with regret that my wife was going to find me dead on the couch in the morning. I, the most respectful, educated psychonaut of anyone i've ever personally known, finally pushed it too far. The entire NDE only lasted 5 seconds, at which point I was launched into hyperspace, but it felt like a good 10 minutes. Time no longer existed, and I had more than enough of it to say goodbye to the people I truly love.
Everything went black but I was still aware. I was way too overwhelmed to start thinking of anything though. I was simply aware, but since there was no stimulation at all, my mind was very still. It was like waking up in my coffin. After a few seconds I saw something out in the distance and realized I was approaching it very fast. I was flying! I quickly reached a landscape of rolling hills painted like a chessboard. There were very 3-d sculptures on the ground and floating around in the air. As I passed the objects in the air, they made very peculiar noises I had never heard to that point. I got the feeling these things were alive, and flying in the same direction as me, just a bit slower.
By this point my mind was catching up, but I still had no way to look back to before my breakthrough. My normal life no longer existed. I never knew it existed. I never knew I even died. I had always been in the place as far as I was concerned, but I was able to observe and think like i normally would.
As my flight continued I enjoyed the scenery until I heard or felt a woman calling me in the distance. It was in the direction I was going, which i didn't seem to have control of anyway, so I just kept going towards it. I got close but all I could see at any given time was the landscape and the pitch black sky which was everywhere there wasn't ground. It seemed like I was going around a sphere so there was even more sky than if it was just flat. Lots of blackness. Anyhow, the woman feels really close, and at some point I can tell this is no normal woman I am approaching, but THE woman.
The desire to become one with her was high, but it seems I waited too long, or it wasn't my time. The ground instantly fell out from under me, which seemed to be enabling me to hover/fly, since once it was gone, i started to fall. It was like I jumped off a cliff. The reaction was so intense my stomach actually jumped like it would on a rollercoaster or something. That was the first point i remembered I had a body. The stomach jump was so severe I vomited, and pretty much terminated my trip.
When I found myself sitting on my couch again, I was completely stunned. I was in no way prepared for that, not that you can be. I spent the next hour flip flopping between laughing and crying about what I had just put myself threw. In the end I was very grateful for the opportunity, and was also very glad I approached it the way I had. After messing around with some sub-breakthrough hits in the following days, I found myself so put off by the body load that I refused to touch dmt again for a couple years. If i had never shown myself what really lays behind that door, i'd probably have never gone bigger and found out for myself. Now of course i actually embrace the body load, which is barely noticeable most times now that I want it there. figures. always different.
My experience to this point included weekly mushroom voyages, a bit of experimentation with nightshades. Some romances with salvia and her extracts, and probably plenty of other naturals. I felt pretty experienced and had no doubt I was ready for my first trip into hyperspace. In addition to this, I am typically hard headed, and need at least 1.5x more than most people recommend for most substances. I also had read that there is virtually no danger to my health regardless of dose. Worst case scenario seemed to be I wouldn't remember it. I know better now. lol.
I had absolutely no experience vaping anything at this point. I had hit some bufo alvarius secretions out of a lightbulb vape once or twice, but that was it. I had nothing convenient to vape in, so i just used one of my normal bongs, which i left some ash in the bottom of the stem. I put a big ol pile of crystal in the bowl, which filled it more than half way. My wife was asleep and I was alone. I lit it up pretty much soon as it was loaded.
The hit was big and smooth. Lots of smoke and it went down easy. I was a daily weed smoker but nothing prepared me for this. I started to get a fuzzy feeling, which i now know is a normal body load. At the time, I felt like I was dissolving into static. I also had a very strong sensation I was sinking threw my couch. As I felt myself falling over the near death experience started. The safety margin I had assured myself of evaporated. It clearly was possible to do too much, and I just did. My living room was turning purple. I had an xmas tree setup and lit at the time and every bulb was exploding and throwing massive amounts of light into the room. I was just a spectator as I sank threw the couch and filled with regret that my wife was going to find me dead on the couch in the morning. I, the most respectful, educated psychonaut of anyone i've ever personally known, finally pushed it too far. The entire NDE only lasted 5 seconds, at which point I was launched into hyperspace, but it felt like a good 10 minutes. Time no longer existed, and I had more than enough of it to say goodbye to the people I truly love.
Everything went black but I was still aware. I was way too overwhelmed to start thinking of anything though. I was simply aware, but since there was no stimulation at all, my mind was very still. It was like waking up in my coffin. After a few seconds I saw something out in the distance and realized I was approaching it very fast. I was flying! I quickly reached a landscape of rolling hills painted like a chessboard. There were very 3-d sculptures on the ground and floating around in the air. As I passed the objects in the air, they made very peculiar noises I had never heard to that point. I got the feeling these things were alive, and flying in the same direction as me, just a bit slower.
By this point my mind was catching up, but I still had no way to look back to before my breakthrough. My normal life no longer existed. I never knew it existed. I never knew I even died. I had always been in the place as far as I was concerned, but I was able to observe and think like i normally would.
As my flight continued I enjoyed the scenery until I heard or felt a woman calling me in the distance. It was in the direction I was going, which i didn't seem to have control of anyway, so I just kept going towards it. I got close but all I could see at any given time was the landscape and the pitch black sky which was everywhere there wasn't ground. It seemed like I was going around a sphere so there was even more sky than if it was just flat. Lots of blackness. Anyhow, the woman feels really close, and at some point I can tell this is no normal woman I am approaching, but THE woman.
The desire to become one with her was high, but it seems I waited too long, or it wasn't my time. The ground instantly fell out from under me, which seemed to be enabling me to hover/fly, since once it was gone, i started to fall. It was like I jumped off a cliff. The reaction was so intense my stomach actually jumped like it would on a rollercoaster or something. That was the first point i remembered I had a body. The stomach jump was so severe I vomited, and pretty much terminated my trip.
When I found myself sitting on my couch again, I was completely stunned. I was in no way prepared for that, not that you can be. I spent the next hour flip flopping between laughing and crying about what I had just put myself threw. In the end I was very grateful for the opportunity, and was also very glad I approached it the way I had. After messing around with some sub-breakthrough hits in the following days, I found myself so put off by the body load that I refused to touch dmt again for a couple years. If i had never shown myself what really lays behind that door, i'd probably have never gone bigger and found out for myself. Now of course i actually embrace the body load, which is barely noticeable most times now that I want it there. figures. always different.
