inaniel said:
the thought of some angry punk kid on some fucked up aya analogue brew shouting obscenities at terence mckenna and nexus members while simultaneously expressing concern over mommy's shiny new tiles.... fantastic.
Messing up the kitchen tiles with my acidic vomit is the kind of random thing that would pop into my head in a situation like this and, to be fair, worrying about ruining his mum"s floor does indicate a certain amout of responsibility and respect for said mother.
Ron i am relying on the idea that you maybe lurking in the background reading peoples replies (that"s the kind of thing that i would do after an epic flounce such as yours).
What did you hope to get out of the experience? If it was just for kicks i get that. I always do drugs for fun and any insights i get, personal or otherwise, are a bonus. If you were doing it to do work on yourself then it seems to me that you gained quite a bit a material to get to the grist of any hang ups that maybe plaguing your quest for personal growth.
You got advice from people in another thread who, as far as i can see, were not being condescending (although quite a few are being condescending in this thread but you can"t really blame them too much, you got their backs up) And then got your arse handed to you on a plate when you ignored their advice. We all end up integrating dramatic and traumatic experiences, whether it be in a positive way or negative and how you choose to integrate this is entirely up to you.
You made a mistake and gained experience. Now go forth and dont just grasp the nettle but pull it up by the roots and toss it in the faces of your demons.
I also enjoyed your trip report, even though it had quite a bit of swearing in it. I can forgive this as i too swear quite a bit after i have taken a decent dose of DMT.