i am new here, and came across this forum. very happy to have found this, seems to be a great amount of info of all sorts. thank you for taking your time and reading, and giving feedback, advise. i have been searching for years now. it started with changing my diet, and then turning inward to search for answers. i am meditating daily for many years now. i came across the DMT through various podcasts such as joe rogan and mike tyson. i have done my research, read books, listend and reach about experiences.
the day came that i was ready for my first experience. i tried white crystal dmt 50mg a few days ago..i used a brass pipe, with silver balls and screens, and smoked from a long plastic/rubber like tube which was attached to the brass pipe. i put some dried hazelnut herbs on the screen, placed the dmt on top and some more herbs to cover. i used a small blow torch lighter. i heald the lighter a good lenght from the dmt and herbs so it was not in direct contact, the herbs did burn and i took a big hit of white smoke that filled the tube.
upon exhaling the first hit i felt my body slowly dissovle as did my visuals. my heart beat start kicking it because i was entering this uknown feeling which hit me extremely fast. i had trouble taking the second hit as i couldn fully grasp the tube, i took the second hit as good as i could, but the 2nd and 3rd hit were not full hits as i was told by my close ones who were with me. i wasnt able to hold in the smoke very long, or take a proper hit as i was coping with the hit from the first toke.
i layed back on my bed, and the heavy visuals started kicking it immediatly as i read and heard from various experiences. i had my ego trying to grasp what is happening and it felt uncomfortable, i was telling myseld this is too much and i wouldn dare do this again. after a felt minute or two i tried to just relax and enjoy the ride.
i couldnt feel my body during the visuals, it was just the meditation music at a different vibration that was playing in the background in harmony with the geometric shapings.
i fully relaxed and had sort of white light and a sort of feeling being pulled towards it and i was open and in no denial and acually wanting to leave my body. but i realized i was thinking this, which kind of stopped me from fully breaking through also. i have this during meditation sometimes, that when i reach a space, my thoughts and ego kick in, trying to grasp what is happening which kind of ruins the letting go to the furthur state of concsiouness. i soon after came back to normal, but with a good euphoric feeling and still was thankful for the experience.
my goal and wish was to fully break through, from what i was hoping is to beeing shot into the center of the universe, no thoughts, no ego, no body, just pure energy and peace. i am figuring that on my next go, i will keep my eyes open during the tokes, and fully concentrate on taking 3 full big tokes even if i feel i cannot anymore. or perhaps maybe i burned the dmt? even though the flame did not touch the dmt or the herbs, but like mentioned above, the herbs on top of the dmt did start burning, even though the torch was far away. perhaps not far away enough i am guessing? or i just didnt inhale enough....??
today my girlfriend went on her first ride. she has been battling with depresssion, childhood trauma, and was at a state of helplessness, and dmt is a sort of last cry for help...
i had the setting the same as mine, candles lit, i was calming her down, we had meditation music playing, a nice comfy bed and i held and lit the dmt while she held the same device tube and took the tokes. i held the torch far away, just like in my first time and the herbs did burn also. she suprisngly took 3 hits. i was kind of amazed the first toke didnt hit her like it hit me. she is very small, and doesnt weigh much. but she smokes cigarettes unlike me.....as she layed back after the 3 hits, she got into the visual states, but her ego was very intense as she was fighting against it. she was saying " im not ready, im not ready for this yet" i held her hand, and told her to relax, everything is just fine, she is safe. she opened her eyes a lot and soon came back to her normal state fairly fast after around 5-6 minutes. my trip maybe lasted 8-10 minutes max. i find it weird that my girlfriend only had visuals and her trip was so short? how can this be? is a ego strong enough to fight against the whole trip? my understanding was that no matter how strong your ego is....if you smoke enough you have no chance to fight agaisnt hyperspace which was both of our goals! to have no fear of death and be connected with all and everything.
i am sorry for writing so much, i am trying to give a detailed explanation of our first experience. i am definetly looking to do it again soon, how every many times it takes to reach the hyperspace. i would appreciate any advice. i was thinking maybe to next time only hold the torch to the side of the brass pipe....or would this not have any effect at all?
thank you very much!
the day came that i was ready for my first experience. i tried white crystal dmt 50mg a few days ago..i used a brass pipe, with silver balls and screens, and smoked from a long plastic/rubber like tube which was attached to the brass pipe. i put some dried hazelnut herbs on the screen, placed the dmt on top and some more herbs to cover. i used a small blow torch lighter. i heald the lighter a good lenght from the dmt and herbs so it was not in direct contact, the herbs did burn and i took a big hit of white smoke that filled the tube.
upon exhaling the first hit i felt my body slowly dissovle as did my visuals. my heart beat start kicking it because i was entering this uknown feeling which hit me extremely fast. i had trouble taking the second hit as i couldn fully grasp the tube, i took the second hit as good as i could, but the 2nd and 3rd hit were not full hits as i was told by my close ones who were with me. i wasnt able to hold in the smoke very long, or take a proper hit as i was coping with the hit from the first toke.
i layed back on my bed, and the heavy visuals started kicking it immediatly as i read and heard from various experiences. i had my ego trying to grasp what is happening and it felt uncomfortable, i was telling myseld this is too much and i wouldn dare do this again. after a felt minute or two i tried to just relax and enjoy the ride.
i couldnt feel my body during the visuals, it was just the meditation music at a different vibration that was playing in the background in harmony with the geometric shapings.
i fully relaxed and had sort of white light and a sort of feeling being pulled towards it and i was open and in no denial and acually wanting to leave my body. but i realized i was thinking this, which kind of stopped me from fully breaking through also. i have this during meditation sometimes, that when i reach a space, my thoughts and ego kick in, trying to grasp what is happening which kind of ruins the letting go to the furthur state of concsiouness. i soon after came back to normal, but with a good euphoric feeling and still was thankful for the experience.
my goal and wish was to fully break through, from what i was hoping is to beeing shot into the center of the universe, no thoughts, no ego, no body, just pure energy and peace. i am figuring that on my next go, i will keep my eyes open during the tokes, and fully concentrate on taking 3 full big tokes even if i feel i cannot anymore. or perhaps maybe i burned the dmt? even though the flame did not touch the dmt or the herbs, but like mentioned above, the herbs on top of the dmt did start burning, even though the torch was far away. perhaps not far away enough i am guessing? or i just didnt inhale enough....??
today my girlfriend went on her first ride. she has been battling with depresssion, childhood trauma, and was at a state of helplessness, and dmt is a sort of last cry for help...
i had the setting the same as mine, candles lit, i was calming her down, we had meditation music playing, a nice comfy bed and i held and lit the dmt while she held the same device tube and took the tokes. i held the torch far away, just like in my first time and the herbs did burn also. she suprisngly took 3 hits. i was kind of amazed the first toke didnt hit her like it hit me. she is very small, and doesnt weigh much. but she smokes cigarettes unlike me.....as she layed back after the 3 hits, she got into the visual states, but her ego was very intense as she was fighting against it. she was saying " im not ready, im not ready for this yet" i held her hand, and told her to relax, everything is just fine, she is safe. she opened her eyes a lot and soon came back to her normal state fairly fast after around 5-6 minutes. my trip maybe lasted 8-10 minutes max. i find it weird that my girlfriend only had visuals and her trip was so short? how can this be? is a ego strong enough to fight against the whole trip? my understanding was that no matter how strong your ego is....if you smoke enough you have no chance to fight agaisnt hyperspace which was both of our goals! to have no fear of death and be connected with all and everything.
i am sorry for writing so much, i am trying to give a detailed explanation of our first experience. i am definetly looking to do it again soon, how every many times it takes to reach the hyperspace. i would appreciate any advice. i was thinking maybe to next time only hold the torch to the side of the brass pipe....or would this not have any effect at all?
thank you very much!
