First time smoker who has some questions

[sloth_in_space]

First off guys this is my first post. Been a lurker on here for a bit, DMT has been a huge interest of mine for a while now. Sorry if this isn't where this post belongs, or something similar.

So I extracted DMt for my first time using Cyb ATB hybrid salt tek, came out with nice fluffy yellow crystals. I was going to re x but decided I really wanted to go ahead and try some. After making sure it was safe to smoke (new shoe/flower scent which took me by surprise because that's EXACTLY what it smelled like, no trace of naphtha left) I loaded increasing doses into my gvg. I didn't wanna rush into it so I started with .05mg, .15mg, then .23mg so I could see what I was getting into. .05mg dose wasn't much of anything, I had the oxygen leaving the room experience, felt slight pressure in my head which didn't hurt, it was just there. .15mg was a little more intense. ringing in my ears getting louder and louder, vibrations in my body ect. I've had one OBE, which is what this dose reminded me of feeling wise. I saw what looked like a portal? It was the flower of life, changing colors, and swirling around. The colors weren't super vivid but I could clearly see them. Then I saw a man sitting down, he was all black and covered in eyes from head to toe. He was showing me what appeared to be a timeline of something, I'm not too sure, my focus was mainly on him. Once he finished showing me I slowly came back down to baseline. The .23mg dose was super intense though. It scared me honestly. I hit the gvg, laid down, closed my eyes, and put a blanket over my head so I could focus better. I skipped the "portal" part from last time and was starting to catapult somewhere.. But I thought I had died. Like I literally thought I was dead and that I had poisoned myself. It scared me so I removed the blanket to make sure I was still alive and looked around the room which I think prevented me from going as far as I could have gone. So once I realized I was still alive I calmed down and replaced the blanket over my head. A short time later I was greeted by what I think was a gate keeper. He's obviously impossible to describe but he sorta looked like an ameba. He was green and had all the 3D geometric shapes coming off him. Almost like they were still k to him. He kept morphing and so did the shapes. He was communicating telepathically with me, telling me to go down this stairway he was gesturing towards. I wanted to go down it but I wasn't able since I think I scared myself out of the full experience. The stairway was to the left of him, and the timeline I saw on my .15mg dose was going from left to right. So I think it has something to do with the past maybe? Anyways some questions I have are.

1. My colors are pretty vivid, especially one the .23mg dose but they don't seem like what's been described from other trips. Maybe they are, but like this be because my product isn't as potent? Is that a possibility or is spice, spice?

2. Was the stairway from my .23mg dose what I needed to enter for a breakthrough?

3. Has anyone else had the experience of dying? How did you handle it? What can I do to help prepare myself for next time?

4. Should I up the dose to experience it way more, or is .25-.30mg enough for a breakthrough with the the?

 

[sloth_in_space]

First off guys this is my first post. Been a lurker on here for a bit, DMT has been a huge interest of mine for a while now. Sorry if this isn't where this post belongs, or something similar.

So I extracted DMt for my first time using Cyb ATB hybrid salt tek, came out with nice fluffy yellow crystals. I was going to re x but decided I really wanted to go ahead and try some. After making sure it was safe to smoke (new shoe/flower scent which took me by surprise because that's EXACTLY what it smelled like, no trace of naphtha left) I loaded increasing doses into my gvg. I didn't wanna rush into it so I started with .05mg, .15mg, then .23mg so I could see what I was getting into. .05mg dose wasn't much of anything, I had the oxygen leaving the room experience, felt slight pressure in my head which didn't hurt, it was just there. .15mg was a little more intense. ringing in my ears getting louder and louder, vibrations in my body ect. I've had one OBE, which is what this dose reminded me of feeling wise. I saw what looked like a portal? It was the flower of life, changing colors, and swirling around. The colors weren't super vivid but I could clearly see them. Then I saw a man sitting down, he was all black and covered in eyes from head to toe. He was showing me what appeared to be a timeline of something, I'm not too sure, my focus was mainly on him. Once he finished showing me I slowly came back down to baseline. The .23mg dose was super intense though. It scared me honestly. I hit the gvg, laid down, closed my eyes, and put a blanket over my head so I could focus better. I skipped the "portal" part from last time and was starting to catapult somewhere.. But I thought I had died. Like I literally thought I was dead and that I had poisoned myself. It scared me so I removed the blanket to make sure I was still alive and looked around the room which I think prevented me from going as far as I could have gone. So once I realized I was still alive I calmed down and replaced the blanket over my head. A short time later I was greeted by what I think was a gate keeper. He's obviously impossible to describe but he sorta looked like an ameba. He was green and had all the 3D geometric shapes coming off him. Almost like they were still k to him. He kept morphing and so did the shapes. He was communicating telepathically with me, telling me to go down this stairway he was gesturing towards. I wanted to go down it but I wasn't able since I think I scared myself out of the full experience. The stairway was to the left of him, and the timeline I saw on my .15mg dose was going from left to right. So I think it has something to do with the past maybe? Anyways some questions I have are.

1. My colors are pretty vivid, especially one the .23mg dose but they don't seem like what's been described from other trips. Maybe they are, but like this be because my product isn't as potent? Is that a possibility or is spice, spice?

2. Was the stairway from my .23mg dose what I needed to enter for a breakthrough?

3. Has anyone else had the experience of dying? How did you handle it? What can I do to help prepare myself for next time?

4. Should I up the dose to experience it way more, or is .25-.30mg enough for a breakthrough with the the gvg.

5. I didn't experience any fractals or crazy geometric patterns. Does that come after the breakthrough?

 

[DmnStr8]

Has anyone else had the experience of dying? How did you handle it? What can I do to help prepare myself for next time?

Many experience this feeling of death. You have no body. Your senses are removed. Your mind begins to panic. Where is my body? Where are my senses? This place is so odd that I must be dead enable to experience anything like this.

You have to let go of these thoughts. Let it all go and just allow yourself to have the experience without all the mind chatter. Thoughts will come and they will go. Just breathe and pay attention. Nothing more. Relax and let go. Whatever you are feeling,go straight for it,allow it to come in and wash over you. The fear will pass. The feeling of death will pass. Go into your fear. Imagine that you have died. How does that make you feel? You can pull a lot from going into this for yourself. Allow your mind to think that you have died. Let it come in and pay attention what comes up. If you ignore your fears, they will return until they are dealt with. So deal with it. Practice dying.

 

[friken]

Anyways some questions I have are.

1. My colors are pretty vivid, especially one the .23mg dose but they don't seem like what's been described from other trips. Maybe they are, but like this be because my product isn't as potent? Is that a possibility or is spice, spice?

2. Was the stairway from my .23mg dose what I needed to enter for a breakthrough?

3. Has anyone else had the experience of dying? How did you handle it? What can I do to help prepare myself for next time?

4. Should I up the dose to experience it way more, or is .25-.30mg enough for a breakthrough with the the?

1. Reading about other's experiences (we all do it) creates expectations and actually can pre-color experiences. DMT is indescribable and I highly recommend letting go of all the previous reading/expectations coming from other's write ups. It is truly indescribable and while we try to do our best to write trip reports, it just isn't possible or easy to directly compare and contrast such experiences. At best we can get similarities to high five each other about.... but until someone invents a 3rd eye recording device.... who the hell knows how similar our actual experiences are.

2. Dose is different person to person and also even w the same person, smoke technique is a HUGE factor. A perfectly and fully vaped 23mg in a single hit could launch one really effectively or not fully vaped across several hits could be hardly noticeable. Even using a GVG and many hundred / thousands(stopped counting long ago) of trips, I can't perfectly get dosing right every time. I also notice sometimes after doing a number of trips in a row of getting access denied... After 3-10 trips, sometimes I can vape 75-100mg and get nothing other than the buz and odd body feels (15mg-30mg usually sends me to far away places). Dose... just play with it. You will naturally hit your limits either via fearing going higher after scaring the shit out of yourself or having zero recall of the trip (blackout).

3. Many times... Some of actual death (my human self dying)... some ego death (fading of a concept of I or individuality), sometimes 'i' shift to some other non human creature then experience my death as something else. Best you can do to prepare for any DMT experience is to learn how to really let go to the experience.... don't judge it... stay an objective observer... and let go of fear... don't fight it. Don't flip your shit. Easier said than done

4. I really dislike the term 'breakthrough'... it is one of many pre-coloring dogmas around DMT.... like 'mother ayahuasca' and 'gnomes' and 'hyperspace' etc. I find that if you read about and fear or desire to have a specific experience w strong substances like dmt / shrooms / etc then when one experiences the indescribable the brain tries to map dogma and preconceived notions onto the experience. It reinforces the dogma but also robs the experience of seeing the trip through it's own lens.

 

[changaforchange]

4. I really dislike the term 'breakthrough'... it is one of many pre-coloring dogmas around DMT.... like 'mother ayahuasca' and 'gnomes' and 'hyperspace' etc. I find that if you read about and fear or desire to have a specific experience w strong substances like dmt / shrooms / etc then when one experiences the indescribable the brain tries to map dogma and preconceived notions onto the experience. It reinforces the dogma but also robs the experience of seeing the trip through it's own lens.

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Nice post guys... I agree with FRIKEN on this one, and in my opinion it is best to enter the realm of DMT without expectations just engaging yourself into new discoveries. After my few initial trips, I'm now learning to approach each experience as if I've got nothing to lose, I can really let myself go now, and each time I fly further and further into it... sometimes I just tell myself: I AM DMT - Kinda works for me.

For some reason I don't really understand, in the last couple of magnificent trips, I've found myself happily smiling while embracing the worlds given to me, and a huge sense of warm happiness is all I can recall coming down... I like it.

 

[Psilosopher?]

4. I really dislike the term 'breakthrough'... it is one of many pre-coloring dogmas around DMT.... like 'mother ayahuasca' and 'gnomes' and 'hyperspace' etc. I find that if you read about and fear or desire to have a specific experience w strong substances like dmt / shrooms / etc then when one experiences the indescribable the brain tries to map dogma and preconceived notions onto the experience. It reinforces the dogma but also robs the experience of seeing the trip through it's own lens.

The breakthrough isn't defined by a word. It's that place with no words. When you break through, you know it.

I've met Mother Ayahuasca using caapi leaves, and i think you're right about the dogma. In my trip, she looked like the Oracle from the Matrix, which is rather fitting.


To the OP, don't think too much about the quantities too much. Use it as a bench mark. People handle DMT in different ways. You just gotta find the amount that's good for you. Just work your way up in increments. Again, when you break through, you'll know it.

 

[sloth_in_space]

Thank y'all all for the feedback, it really does help me, and anyone with questions themselves. DMT is vast and confusing, and any kind of clarity we can get is insightful.

I suppose when I was "researching" DMT I had taken in some preconceived ideas about it for sure. I've had experience with LSD, and pscylocibin before, so I suppose I was basing DMT on those experiences as well. Boy was I wrong. It's nothing like them, I don't think anything can prepare you for DMT. After thinking about my first experience with it, it almost seems to be a forced OBE, or forced astral projection. I'm still trying to figure it out though lol I'm sure I never will though

I will try to reply to all of y'all as best I can to keep this conversation alive, as I do not have many other people to share it with, and I am the first of my circle to experience it. So even sharing with my friends is difficult since they can't relate.

Again thank you everybody for the feedback, it truly helps. This forum is a special place

 

[entheogenic-gnosis]

Has anyone else had the experience of dying? How did you handle it? What can I do to help prepare myself for next time?

I'm convinced that DMT provides one access to the after death state, I've gotten into this in many other threads, I'll post a link if you are interested.

I'll leave with an experience report of my first DMT flash, as well as some insights from terence mckenna on the topic of psychedelics and death...I'll.start with the mckenna:

The metaphor of a vehicle--an after-death vehicle, an astral body--is used by several traditions. Shamanism and certain yogas, including Taoist yoga, claim very clearly that the purpose of life is to familiarize oneself with this after-death body so that the act of dying will not create confusion in the psyche. One will recognize what is happening. One will know what to do and one will make a clean break. Yet there does seem to be the possibility of a problem in dying. It is not the case that one is condemned to eternal life. One can muff it through ignorance. Apparently at the moment of death there is a kind of separation, like birth--the metaphor is trivial, but perfect. There is a possibility of damage or of incorrect activity. The English poet-mystic William Blake said that as one starts into the spiral there is the possibility of falling from the golden track into eternal death. Yet it is only a crisis of a moment--a crisis of passage--and the whole purpose of shamanism and of life correctly lived is to strengthen the soul and to strengthen the ego's relationship to the soul so that this passage can be cleanly made. This is the traditional position... What psychedelics encourage, and where I hope attention will focus once hallucinogens are culturally integrated to the point where large groups of people can plan research programs without fear of persecution, is the modeling of the after-death state. Psychedelics may do more than model this state; they may reveal the nature of it. Psychedelics will show us that the modalities of appearance and understanding can be shifted so that we can know mind within the context of the One Mind. The One Mind contains all experiences of the Other. There is no dichotomy between the Newtonian universe, deployed throughout light-years of three-dimensional space, and the interior mental universe. They are adumbrations of the same thing. -terence mckenna

Thoughts on Death

My report:

*note: the dose range in this report is highly inflated, there is no reason to ever dose this high*

the first time I used N,N-dimethyltryptamine I smoked 200mgs of translucent yellow crystals on top of a small amount of high-grade cannabis, I consumed it in a single inhalation. I held the hit in less than 5 seconds when the rush began, "I don't believe it!" I kept repeating in my head, "this is impossible".... my surroundings began to quiver and slither apart, faster than anything I had ever seen everything began moving away from everything else in a mash of brilliant color geometric form, and speed, before fully shattering the "reality" in my visual and mental field, it came on like a freight train, I remember thinking "oh fuck! Get this stuff out of me!" And frantically trying to exhale. It was pure terror, I thought "now you have done it! You killed yourself!" After brief mourning at the life I had just departed from I began to pay attention to the present, I remember feeling like I was at the bottom of a foggy mountain with dirt roads, the clouds felt like a domed ceiling, everything was wet, misty, cloudy and rainy, I was overcome with an intense feeling of panic and deja-vu, I felt like a lost child, everything I knew about who I was or my life or earth seemed like a distant dream, like I dissolved out of existence, I interpreted this as dying, I knew that I was dead, and I was emotionally overwhelmed while confronting the event of my death, just like sand slipping through finger cracks I tried to hold onto this all as my entire identity as a human was dissolved, I remembered my name, the earth, my family, who I was, being a human, and life, but like grabbing at smoke, it was futile, all of this slipped away and nearly faded entirely out of my memory, impossible to cling to all this, I had to let it go...I kept thinking "what the fuck was life?" ...I could not tell if I was breathing or not, I would take air in, but couldn't feel it, I began taking in panicked deep breaths, thinking that none of the oxygen was entering my system, then noticed a pain in my chest, a giant mantis like being had its claws in my chest! It proceeded to tear open my chest and stomach removing all my organs and insides, I was about to go into shock when I saw a bright green light flash over my shoulder, it nearly hit me, it then became a beautiful fractal-geometric object, morphing and color changing, at times it was metallic at other times it was a beautiful jewel, and all the while to look into it was to view endless geometric fractal patterns, moving, morphing, and changing color. The mantis then put this object in my torn up body, he began to make billions of these objects, each one unique and radiating beautiful colored light, and the mantoid filled my body with them, billions of them, becoming small as atoms to construct the new insides of my mangled corpse, then I was sealed up and propelled into an orange light where I was resurrected, my conscious-being (soul) was becoming reunited with the physical world ...then I felt as if I was being pushed head first through a thick gelatinous membrane, violent gesticulations of the membrane surrounding me were forcing me through this thing...I was being born...slowly I began to recognize my surroundings, my face still covered in tears, I looked up and saw the branches of a tree in the yard all slither in sinister fashion in from all directions to take place and solidify as the tree in the distance, the world began to slither back into place, most things moved in an elegant liquid serpentine slithering motion, or like the dancing movements of a flame, as the world constructed itself back into the familiar, so did my conscious state and memory, I was still disoriented, and fairly traumatized, I thought I had been gone for millennia, "how long was I gone I asked?"...."about 20 minutes" was the answer ....those who were there said in reality I curled up into a ball and began to cry for 20 minutes, I was wondering why my face was wet, because it felt like I had actually just been through being born, I was still covered in tears...any way the immense deep spiritual and psychological implications of this experience left me for ever transformed, reborn as a new person entirely, it was the single most meaningful thing that has ever happened to me, and changed me in many significant ways, all for the better.
-eg

-eg

 

[entheogenic-gnosis]

Thank y'all all for the feedback, it really does help me, and anyone with questions themselves. DMT is vast and confusing, and any kind of clarity we can get is insightful.

I suppose when I was "researching" DMT I had taken in some preconceived ideas about it for sure. I've had experience with LSD, and pscylocibin before, so I suppose I was basing DMT on those experiences as well. Boy was I wrong. It's nothing like them, I don't think anything can prepare you for DMT. After thinking about my first experience with it, it almost seems to be a forced OBE, or forced astral projection. I'm still trying to figure it out though lol I'm sure I never will though

I will try to reply to all of y'all as best I can to keep this conversation alive, as I do not have many other people to share it with, and I am the first of my circle to experience it. So even sharing with my friends is difficult since they can't relate.

Again thank you everybody for the feedback, it truly helps. This forum is a special place

I remember thinking the same thing! I was expecting something built up out of my past experience or from anecdotes presented by well known psychoanalyst, and what I got was something I never could have prepared for.

I'll leave with some related mckenna quotes:

The feeling of doing DMT is as though one had been struck by noetic lightning. The ordinary world is almost instantaneously replaced, not only with a hallucination, but a hallucination whose alien character is its utter alienness. Nothing in this world can prepare one for the impressions that fill your mind when you enter the DMT sensorium.
Terence McKenna

Metaphorically, DMT is like an intellectual black hole in that once one knows about it, it is very hard for others to understand what one is talking about. One cannot be heard. The more one is able to articulate what it is, the less others are able to understand. This is why I think people who attain enlightenment, if we may for a moment comap these two, are silent. They are silent because we cannot understand them. Why the phenomenon of tryptamine ecstasy has not been looked at by scientists, thrill seekers, or anyone else, I am not sure, but I recommend it to your attention.
~ Terence McKenna, The Archaic Revival: Speculations on Psychedelics, Mushrooms, the Amazon,
Virtual Reality, UFO’s, Evolution, Shamanism, the Rebirth of the Goddess, & the End of History. (1991).

-eg

 

[DmnStr8]

Sloth-in-space.. check out this pdf.

O nobly born, listen carefully: You were unable to maintain the perfect Clear Light of the First Bardo. Or the serene peaceful visions of the Second. You are now entering Second Bardo nightmares. Recognize them. They are your own thought-forms made visible and audible. They are products of your own mind with its back to the wall. They indicate that you are close to liberation. Do not fear them. No harm can come to you from these hallucinations. They are your own thoughts in frightening aspect. They are old friends. Welcome them. Merge with them. Join them. Lose yourself in them. They are yours. Whatever you see, no matter how strange and terrifying, Remember above all that it comes from within you. Hold onto that knowledge. As soon as you recognize that, you will obtain liberation. If you do not recognize them, Torture and punishment will ensue. But these too are but the radiances of your own intellect. They are immaterial. Voidness cannot injure voidness. None of the peaceful or wrathful visions, Blood-drinking demons, machines, monsters, or devils, Exist in reality Only within your skull. This will dissipate your fear. Remember it well.

http://www.leary.ru/download/leary/Timothy%20Leary%20-%20The%20Tibetan%20Book%20Of%20The%20Dead.pdf

 

[Drowning-man]

First off guys this is my first post. Been a lurker on here for a bit, DMT has been a huge interest of mine for a while now. Sorry if this isn't where this post belongs, or something similar.

So I extracted DMt for my first time using Cyb ATB hybrid salt tek, came out with nice fluffy yellow crystals. I was going to re x but decided I really wanted to go ahead and try some. After making sure it was safe to smoke (new shoe/flower scent which took me by surprise because that's EXACTLY what it smelled like, no trace of naphtha left) I loaded increasing doses into my gvg. I didn't wanna rush into it so I started with .05mg, .15mg, then .23mg so I could see what I was getting into. .05mg dose wasn't much of anything, I had the oxygen leaving the room experience, felt slight pressure in my head which didn't hurt, it was just there. .15mg was a little more intense. ringing in my ears getting louder and louder, vibrations in my body ect. I've had one OBE, which is what this dose reminded me of feeling wise. I saw what looked like a portal? It was the flower of life, changing colors, and swirling around. The colors weren't super vivid but I could clearly see them. Then I saw a man sitting down, he was all black and covered in eyes from head to toe. He was showing me what appeared to be a timeline of something, I'm not too sure, my focus was mainly on him. Once he finished showing me I slowly came back down to baseline. The .23mg dose was super intense though. It scared me honestly. I hit the gvg, laid down, closed my eyes, and put a blanket over my head so I could focus better. I skipped the "portal" part from last time and was starting to catapult somewhere.. But I thought I had died. Like I literally thought I was dead and that I had poisoned myself. It scared me so I removed the blanket to make sure I was still alive and looked around the room which I think prevented me from going as far as I could have gone. So once I realized I was still alive I calmed down and replaced the blanket over my head. A short time later I was greeted by what I think was a gate keeper. He's obviously impossible to describe but he sorta looked like an ameba. He was green and had all the 3D geometric shapes coming off him. Almost like they were still k to him. He kept morphing and so did the shapes. He was communicating telepathically with me, telling me to go down this stairway he was gesturing towards. I wanted to go down it but I wasn't able since I think I scared myself out of the full experience. The stairway was to the left of him, and the timeline I saw on my .15mg dose was going from left to right. So I think it has something to do with the past maybe? Anyways some questions I have are.

1. My colors are pretty vivid, especially one the .23mg dose but they don't seem like what's been described from other trips. Maybe they are, but like this be because my product isn't as potent? Is that a possibility or is spice, spice?

2. Was the stairway from my .23mg dose what I needed to enter for a breakthrough?

3. Has anyone else had the experience of dying? How did you handle it? What can I do to help prepare myself for next time?

4. Should I up the dose to experience it way more, or is .25-.30mg enough for a breakthrough with the the?

First time I loaded like 50mgs but didn't go past the second hit cuz I got scared. But I don't really weigh it any more after hundreds of trips it's something like 80-100mg. 75+ is the only way for me to travel these days. But I suggest just let go. Load the pipe to the max and hit it till yer hands disappear and the pipe hits the floor. Usually like 3-4 hits don't be afraid if your intentions are pure everything will be ok:grin:

 

[3rdI]

this isnt the type of advice we give on the nexus, this dose is way above what most people need. pure intentions wont do squat.

100mg is a ridiculous amount to smoke, whats your ROA?

 

[Drowning-man]

this isnt the type of advice we give on the nexus, this dose is way above what most people need. pure intentions wont do squat.

100mg is a ridiculous amount to smoke, whats your ROA?

Ure right I regress. I load like 75-100 but I just hit it till I break through so the whole 100 is definitely not consumed I can usually break trough twice on one bowl. I use a freebase "straight shooter" or "The machine" but I've mostly smoked an Acacia. Extract so sometimes it takes quite a bit. But I do find intentions do go along way. Sorry for the bad advice to a new member. It's been awhile since I've been on the nexus so I forgot myself for a minute. Sorry about that wont happen again.

 

[3rdI]

:thumb_up:

 

[sloth_in_space]

Thank y'all for the continued support and feedback, it's greatly appreciated.

I've been trying to digest what happened for the last few days, it hasn't been "hard" to deal with, but it has consumed my attention. I've had ego deaths before, and I had read about people experiencing death while on DMT, and I thought I knew what I was getting into. I wasn't prepared lol. The way I've been trying to describe it, to myself, and a few close friends, is like I knocked on the gate of truth. If anyone here is familiar with FMA, the performance of the taboo takes the practitioner to another dimension in which they are shown the gate of truth. That's what I feel like DMT does. It takes your spirit and shows you the truth, but you must experience death to gain access. It's a "payment" if you will. It also seems like DMT is forced astral projection. I've seen this mentioned before, and agree to an extent. I've had 1 OBE before so anything I can compare it to helps.

On a parting note I would like to add this. It feels like I played around with something I shouldn't have. Not because it's dangerous, but because once you experience DMT you can never go back to who you were before. I know you hear that a lot, but I was comparing it to LSD, or mushroom trips, but wow it's not even close. I strongly believe we are being shown truth, and it's not something everyone is meant to see.

Gonna wait a bit longer for this first experience to fully digest, then drop back down to a smaller dose and try again, and see what happens from there.

Thanks again y'all.

 

[savage]

I also started out with ridiculously high silly doses. I was eager to "not mess about" and jump in the deep end. I can see that was not the way to do things.
I had much better success when I was a lot more modest with the doses loaded.

 

[MasonJarBong]

Sloth-in-space.. check out this pdf.

O nobly born, listen carefully: You were unable to maintain the perfect Clear Light of the First Bardo. Or the serene peaceful visions of the Second. You are now entering Second Bardo nightmares. Recognize them. They are your own thought-forms made visible and audible. They are products of your own mind with its back to the wall. They indicate that you are close to liberation. Do not fear them. No harm can come to you from these hallucinations. They are your own thoughts in frightening aspect. They are old friends. Welcome them. Merge with them. Join them. Lose yourself in them. They are yours. Whatever you see, no matter how strange and terrifying, Remember above all that it comes from within you. Hold onto that knowledge. As soon as you recognize that, you will obtain liberation. If you do not recognize them, Torture and punishment will ensue. But these too are but the radiances of your own intellect. They are immaterial. Voidness cannot injure voidness. None of the peaceful or wrathful visions, Blood-drinking demons, machines, monsters, or devils, Exist in reality Only within your skull. This will dissipate your fear. Remember it well.

http://www.leary.ru/download/leary/Timothy%20Leary%20-%20The%20Tibetan%20Book%20Of%20The%20Dead.pdf

I'll second this recommendation. There are great insights to be had. Read it about a month ago myself.

 

[MasonJarBong]

On a parting note I would like to add this. It feels like I played around with something I shouldn't have. Not because it's dangerous, but because once you experience DMT you can never go back to who you were before. I know you hear that a lot, but I was comparing it to LSD, or mushroom trips, but wow it's not even close. I strongly believe we are being shown truth, and it's not something everyone is meant to see.

As with any powerful, mind-altering substance, go at your own pace and only do what you are ready to do. Sounds as if you are approaching this with the proper amount of respect (just watch those high dosages). I would add that it is natural to feel somewhat (or very) disconcerted when you are first pulled away from your own ego. The ego is what you have thought of as yourself for most or all of your life after all! However, there is a great reward in overcoming that fear. I have personally found that it has left me with far less fear and anxiety concerning death, and I am happier for it. I wish you the same.