Pile of cats
Rising Star
Hello everyone, This weekend I had the pleasure of experiencing an event that will shape the rest of my life because of what I witnessed and things I learned from it.
It started on friday after meeting up with a friend I'd recently met at a psy gathering where we smoked had taken lsd and smoked some dmt and had some pretty amazing experiences. originally there were no plans but I knew for certain that we'd both be wanting to smoke dmt. The weekend turned into 3 days of relaxing, smoking hashish and vaping dmt coupled with nitrous. We probably smoked over 10 times each but there was one experience that stood out.
On the Saturday we'd been resting for the most part as we'd been up all night, We were waiting on some hashish which we'd been chasing and after it finally came we smoked some even though I'd always thought that thc had a bad synergy with dmt (had only tried it once but I was pretty faded) and this hashish was truly incredible so I felt completely fine going into the experience with it. We hadn't smoked any dmt since sleeping and had been waiting until we'd obtained the hashish as we only had a few canisters of nitrous left and it was really adding to the experience in quite a profound way (It seemed to just completely remove the ego temporarily allowing one to instantly submit to the experience and go deeper) When the time to smoke some changa finally came we lit some candles, put on some music and a visualizer and I loaded a bowl of changa for my friend and helped him light it before preparing my own. I had a pretty overwhelming experience earlier in the weekend so I was still feeling a little uneasy about going deep so I loaded 50mg of 1:1 changa and cleared it in 1 hit, held it in for around 20 seconds before exhaling, taking a few deep breaths then breathing in the whole canister and then I lay back and for some reason started repeating the mantra 'all is well' (believe I read that here) and this seemed to bring me into a deeper trance like state where a part of me continued to repeat this mantra while I was fully able to observe and think about the visions that I was seeing. I vaguely remember this first one but I remember being impressed by how deep I had managed to go from 0.5 which before had barely produced CEV's mainly just increasing colours in the room and making everything look highly defined.
As I came down from that I instantly felt like I should go back again, I poured an unweighed amount of changa (roughly 0.1) into the bong and cleared it followed by nitrous. In the last experience the mantra had at some point changed from 'all is well' to 'all is love' I resumed repeating that second mantra and I was kind of repeating it along to the beat of the song I was listening to and before I knew it I was viewing this spiraling tunnel that had walls of white, green, red and yellow. There were countless geometric shapes protruding from the walls which were all sorts of colours and were extremely defined. This tunnel stretched on infinitely yet it was all in perfect focus, It was sharply 3D, I could see depth beyond each spiral of the tunnel that was just truly mind blowing. I seemed to get the idea that I was staring off into the infinite of the universe and then these entities came out from behind the various 3d shapes protruding from the walls and they started waving at me signaling me to come towards them. They looked feminine and kind of android like. I seemed to remember them from another experience I'd had which had been very overwhelming.
Next thing I knew I started twisting through this tunnel at an increasing speed, faster and faster and faster until I seemed to hit the very edge of the universe but I didn't stop there I completely burst through it! to be greeted by huge cheers, celebration strong feelings of love but these weren't coming from anyone else, these were coming from me.. or the infinite energy I had become. I had become the source, The pure energy of the highest vibration which the entire universe manifests out of. I can't even explain how great I felt. Everything made sense. The life I came from, all of it was built up of this same energy. Life was just this game we play with ourselves, things that normally seemed like problems only were so because of the way we approached them. I remember also being in places that looked a lot like some of Alex Grey's paintings. What was interesting also was that at times the music we were listening to was there in the experience and I could hear the words in the song but they had no meaning in their language.
when I came down I was just in utter bliss, There was no meaning in negativity in my life as we are made out of an energy that is so far beyond it. I felt so truly connected to this world that in that moment I was able to identify as myself but also as my friend next to me almost as if I was percieving the world from both mine and his perspective, there was no him and I only all as one. I felt like I'd been given THE lesson and I was allowed to take everything back with me. from here dmt existed for me to play the game and that is to help me figure out myself and my life and simply to enjoy living.
After a break we smoked again, I this time had the intent to do delving into myself and had two pretty amazing experiences.
One is a bit unclear in my head but it felt like I got sucked far into the back of my head and I was doing something that I can't quite remember but it felt almost as if I was organizing things in my head represented by colourful blocks.
The second was very vivid and I managed to keep the image very clear in my head for some hours after. After smoking I saw this form start to take shape before dividing up into several shapes, hexagons or octogons if I remember correctly and then they started popping out as 3d shapes with multiple faces which highly intricate patterns containing strange objects. Most of the vision was red and dark red but then an offwhite colour started surrounding the form which itself was constantly morphing in and out whilst the patterns were endlessly changing. The off white colour that surrounded it had also become 3d and was morphing into human looking things (which lacked the presence of an entity) and then morph back into random smooth textured forms. The patterns within the form also would randomly morph into faces which would make faces at me or wink, sometimes the faces would form with the patterns in an erotic nature. While all this was happening I felt like I was in a room but I was only really aware of my mouth which kind of felt like the doorway into this room. (haha from smoking dmt?) This all started going away by retreating back into the wall or collapsing on itself then the room kind of vanished into these doors leaving me in the blackness of my own mind apart from these doors that were still open with various bits and pieces of hyperspace poking out kind of saying that's the end of the show! good bye for now! see you again soon! it was almost as if it was sad to be leaving me. I just started saying thank you! thank you! thank you so much! over and over in my head as this door was closing.
It seems that after this weekend I've been accepted by hyperspace and have learned to overcome fear and just bask in joy as I'm shown around hyperspace.
I don't really know what more to say about all this.. There's alot I've missed out. this weekend has been the most notable event in my life and I already feel a multitude of changes because of it. I've often struggled with understanding people and why they do the things they do and I might never but I truly understand the mess that we all go through and I love you all, Thanks for helping me experience what I now truly wish to help others experience.
It started on friday after meeting up with a friend I'd recently met at a psy gathering where we smoked had taken lsd and smoked some dmt and had some pretty amazing experiences. originally there were no plans but I knew for certain that we'd both be wanting to smoke dmt. The weekend turned into 3 days of relaxing, smoking hashish and vaping dmt coupled with nitrous. We probably smoked over 10 times each but there was one experience that stood out.
On the Saturday we'd been resting for the most part as we'd been up all night, We were waiting on some hashish which we'd been chasing and after it finally came we smoked some even though I'd always thought that thc had a bad synergy with dmt (had only tried it once but I was pretty faded) and this hashish was truly incredible so I felt completely fine going into the experience with it. We hadn't smoked any dmt since sleeping and had been waiting until we'd obtained the hashish as we only had a few canisters of nitrous left and it was really adding to the experience in quite a profound way (It seemed to just completely remove the ego temporarily allowing one to instantly submit to the experience and go deeper) When the time to smoke some changa finally came we lit some candles, put on some music and a visualizer and I loaded a bowl of changa for my friend and helped him light it before preparing my own. I had a pretty overwhelming experience earlier in the weekend so I was still feeling a little uneasy about going deep so I loaded 50mg of 1:1 changa and cleared it in 1 hit, held it in for around 20 seconds before exhaling, taking a few deep breaths then breathing in the whole canister and then I lay back and for some reason started repeating the mantra 'all is well' (believe I read that here) and this seemed to bring me into a deeper trance like state where a part of me continued to repeat this mantra while I was fully able to observe and think about the visions that I was seeing. I vaguely remember this first one but I remember being impressed by how deep I had managed to go from 0.5 which before had barely produced CEV's mainly just increasing colours in the room and making everything look highly defined.
As I came down from that I instantly felt like I should go back again, I poured an unweighed amount of changa (roughly 0.1) into the bong and cleared it followed by nitrous. In the last experience the mantra had at some point changed from 'all is well' to 'all is love' I resumed repeating that second mantra and I was kind of repeating it along to the beat of the song I was listening to and before I knew it I was viewing this spiraling tunnel that had walls of white, green, red and yellow. There were countless geometric shapes protruding from the walls which were all sorts of colours and were extremely defined. This tunnel stretched on infinitely yet it was all in perfect focus, It was sharply 3D, I could see depth beyond each spiral of the tunnel that was just truly mind blowing. I seemed to get the idea that I was staring off into the infinite of the universe and then these entities came out from behind the various 3d shapes protruding from the walls and they started waving at me signaling me to come towards them. They looked feminine and kind of android like. I seemed to remember them from another experience I'd had which had been very overwhelming.
Next thing I knew I started twisting through this tunnel at an increasing speed, faster and faster and faster until I seemed to hit the very edge of the universe but I didn't stop there I completely burst through it! to be greeted by huge cheers, celebration strong feelings of love but these weren't coming from anyone else, these were coming from me.. or the infinite energy I had become. I had become the source, The pure energy of the highest vibration which the entire universe manifests out of. I can't even explain how great I felt. Everything made sense. The life I came from, all of it was built up of this same energy. Life was just this game we play with ourselves, things that normally seemed like problems only were so because of the way we approached them. I remember also being in places that looked a lot like some of Alex Grey's paintings. What was interesting also was that at times the music we were listening to was there in the experience and I could hear the words in the song but they had no meaning in their language.
when I came down I was just in utter bliss, There was no meaning in negativity in my life as we are made out of an energy that is so far beyond it. I felt so truly connected to this world that in that moment I was able to identify as myself but also as my friend next to me almost as if I was percieving the world from both mine and his perspective, there was no him and I only all as one. I felt like I'd been given THE lesson and I was allowed to take everything back with me. from here dmt existed for me to play the game and that is to help me figure out myself and my life and simply to enjoy living.
After a break we smoked again, I this time had the intent to do delving into myself and had two pretty amazing experiences.
One is a bit unclear in my head but it felt like I got sucked far into the back of my head and I was doing something that I can't quite remember but it felt almost as if I was organizing things in my head represented by colourful blocks.
The second was very vivid and I managed to keep the image very clear in my head for some hours after. After smoking I saw this form start to take shape before dividing up into several shapes, hexagons or octogons if I remember correctly and then they started popping out as 3d shapes with multiple faces which highly intricate patterns containing strange objects. Most of the vision was red and dark red but then an offwhite colour started surrounding the form which itself was constantly morphing in and out whilst the patterns were endlessly changing. The off white colour that surrounded it had also become 3d and was morphing into human looking things (which lacked the presence of an entity) and then morph back into random smooth textured forms. The patterns within the form also would randomly morph into faces which would make faces at me or wink, sometimes the faces would form with the patterns in an erotic nature. While all this was happening I felt like I was in a room but I was only really aware of my mouth which kind of felt like the doorway into this room. (haha from smoking dmt?) This all started going away by retreating back into the wall or collapsing on itself then the room kind of vanished into these doors leaving me in the blackness of my own mind apart from these doors that were still open with various bits and pieces of hyperspace poking out kind of saying that's the end of the show! good bye for now! see you again soon! it was almost as if it was sad to be leaving me. I just started saying thank you! thank you! thank you so much! over and over in my head as this door was closing.
It seems that after this weekend I've been accepted by hyperspace and have learned to overcome fear and just bask in joy as I'm shown around hyperspace.
I don't really know what more to say about all this.. There's alot I've missed out. this weekend has been the most notable event in my life and I already feel a multitude of changes because of it. I've often struggled with understanding people and why they do the things they do and I might never but I truly understand the mess that we all go through and I love you all, Thanks for helping me experience what I now truly wish to help others experience.
