YourMateBob
Esteemed member
Hi guys i just wanna share with you my second breakthrough experience ever on nndmt emesh. Well at least what i gave me and how it made me feel as im still a newbie and have a hard time putting anything into words so bare with me .
I attended the SHE event hosted by Pandora, and it turned into one of the most profound experiences of my life. It was my second time with DMT. The first time, I had taken about 65 milligrams, which I did without a scale, and I remember bits and bobs flashes of hyper space , but not much clarity. This time, I was meticulous: I measured 35 milligrams on a precise scale and used my e-mesh vape. I had abstained for about 3 weeks in between, integrating the previous journey. I set a calm, intentional space: candles, a completely dark room, and galaxy stars on the walls and calming meditation music . At 6 p.m., I began, inhaling that warm, chemical rush, and as I lay back, the music carried me.
This time, the visuals were even more vivid: colors, vortexes, galaxies swirling hyperspace unveiled it self in front me yet again but it was more calming. I was fully aware no entities like the first time, but a powerful sense that something was with me, guiding me. What I received from this experience was a clear, resonant message: to forgive myself, to forgive others, and to love everything myself, my past, and those around me.Any giref i held from my childhood to now as its not easy and its only a begging of my healing jorney . I did feel a wave of grief rise toward the end from pain I had caused, especially from how I reacted to life something deep from childhood. I opened my eyes as that wave of fear hit, but even then, I kept telling myself, breathing slowly, that it was okay. As the effects softened, I stayed still, letting everything sink in.
I cried, not out of sadness, but out of overwhelming love, connection, and a sense of new perspective. It did really let me goo very deep this time like no other time before .This experience gave me exactly what I needed more openness to reality, more love for myself and others and though it’s hard to put into words, it changed my perspective, and I felt, for the first time, a deep, lasting sense of forgiveness and love. I had a lot of experience shrooms in the past but they didnt let me go as deep as dmt into what i felt i need and now that iam getting this im just greatfull for everything. I do feel like everything i start to settle and go deep it starts to draw away so i got my little elfs to make me some harmala syrian rue seeds in my basement
Planning to do some more deep work when ever I get a calling again this time with some rue tea and a bit more time thanks for you all who welcomed me into your community and everyone on the chat that listen to my chit chat from time to time
I attended the SHE event hosted by Pandora, and it turned into one of the most profound experiences of my life. It was my second time with DMT. The first time, I had taken about 65 milligrams, which I did without a scale, and I remember bits and bobs flashes of hyper space , but not much clarity. This time, I was meticulous: I measured 35 milligrams on a precise scale and used my e-mesh vape. I had abstained for about 3 weeks in between, integrating the previous journey. I set a calm, intentional space: candles, a completely dark room, and galaxy stars on the walls and calming meditation music . At 6 p.m., I began, inhaling that warm, chemical rush, and as I lay back, the music carried me.
This time, the visuals were even more vivid: colors, vortexes, galaxies swirling hyperspace unveiled it self in front me yet again but it was more calming. I was fully aware no entities like the first time, but a powerful sense that something was with me, guiding me. What I received from this experience was a clear, resonant message: to forgive myself, to forgive others, and to love everything myself, my past, and those around me.Any giref i held from my childhood to now as its not easy and its only a begging of my healing jorney . I did feel a wave of grief rise toward the end from pain I had caused, especially from how I reacted to life something deep from childhood. I opened my eyes as that wave of fear hit, but even then, I kept telling myself, breathing slowly, that it was okay. As the effects softened, I stayed still, letting everything sink in.
I cried, not out of sadness, but out of overwhelming love, connection, and a sense of new perspective. It did really let me goo very deep this time like no other time before .This experience gave me exactly what I needed more openness to reality, more love for myself and others and though it’s hard to put into words, it changed my perspective, and I felt, for the first time, a deep, lasting sense of forgiveness and love. I had a lot of experience shrooms in the past but they didnt let me go as deep as dmt into what i felt i need and now that iam getting this im just greatfull for everything. I do feel like everything i start to settle and go deep it starts to draw away so i got my little elfs to make me some harmala syrian rue seeds in my basement
Planning to do some more deep work when ever I get a calling again this time with some rue tea and a bit more time thanks for you all who welcomed me into your community and everyone on the chat that listen to my chit chat from time to time
