Some throw around ideas of Ayahuasca being relatable to a grandmother with qualities which connect to that archetype in man. Peyote or sp as being grandfather like. Whereas the plant we know and adore has very curious qualities as an entheogenic plant teacher. I come from a childhood laced with the continuous consumption of copious amounts of canibus which was a self soothing mechanism utilized in the wake of a lot of early trauma. During this stage of life I experienced none of the healing qualities as my intent was in entirety recreational in nature.
Fast forward to 12 years ago: I had my first handful of experiences wherein I experienced what I can describe as the plant Spirit of this sacred herb helping me take a look at aspects of my mind which could be said to be distortions or boundaries. The experience shines a light in dark place sometimes resulting in epiphany/revelation though it can be highly unpredictable as it seems to only show up for healing one out of two times. I wonder if it is more like a lazy uncle who likes to laugh at almost anything half of the time but has another side of seriousness when it comes to assisting in self-correction.
The slipperiness of certain thoughts whilst in thc space has always been bizarre. Both in social interactions and during solo meditations. Sometimes it feels like an outright trickster when it reveals something meaningful followed by it vanishing from your midst a split second later. Sometimes I'm able to fish it back and as long as it isn't taken a second time I'll be able to further work with it. Lol.
The line between recreation and healing is often blurry indeed. Perhaps there is something to be gleaned from the fact that quite a few humans use it with no intent at all to take a deeper looking into oneself. The pleasant effects of it are surely a part of its makeup but as with any character personalities can be for whatever reasons complicated.
I far prefer ingestion over combusting with vaporization being second best. Combusting it is unsettling to my constitution as is tobacco. The longer duration through ingestion is much preferable as well as the experience of it going a little less straight to the head/mind. Somatic awareness seems more active when ingesting this plant as well as quite a few others with both options at hand.
Fast forward to 12 years ago: I had my first handful of experiences wherein I experienced what I can describe as the plant Spirit of this sacred herb helping me take a look at aspects of my mind which could be said to be distortions or boundaries. The experience shines a light in dark place sometimes resulting in epiphany/revelation though it can be highly unpredictable as it seems to only show up for healing one out of two times. I wonder if it is more like a lazy uncle who likes to laugh at almost anything half of the time but has another side of seriousness when it comes to assisting in self-correction.
The slipperiness of certain thoughts whilst in thc space has always been bizarre. Both in social interactions and during solo meditations. Sometimes it feels like an outright trickster when it reveals something meaningful followed by it vanishing from your midst a split second later. Sometimes I'm able to fish it back and as long as it isn't taken a second time I'll be able to further work with it. Lol.
The line between recreation and healing is often blurry indeed. Perhaps there is something to be gleaned from the fact that quite a few humans use it with no intent at all to take a deeper looking into oneself. The pleasant effects of it are surely a part of its makeup but as with any character personalities can be for whatever reasons complicated.
I far prefer ingestion over combusting with vaporization being second best. Combusting it is unsettling to my constitution as is tobacco. The longer duration through ingestion is much preferable as well as the experience of it going a little less straight to the head/mind. Somatic awareness seems more active when ingesting this plant as well as quite a few others with both options at hand.