So...
I like to stay far from religious discussion... but seeing that this is mainly conceptual discussion - then it's ok to play.
Last night, I decided to give the "4-HO"-MiPT a second run - the first was great! But, it was a lower dose, so i wanted to crank it up a notch or three. See, I'm the superstitious type - what lands on the scale IS the dose. If I want to add more, fine... usually won't, but ok. Trying to scoop a powder in mg increments is a total pain in the ass, so I chose this superstition. It's never "failed" me, though delivered some humbling messages at times.
Right, rambling, get to the point - thursday, took the first dose: ~7.5 mg. Loved it! I decided that it was a nice mix of "phenerhylamine + tryptamine" headspace and body feel. Yes, it's a tryptamine, but I like phens. I'm not gonna deny it any longer... I did for a long time. Meth use, in my teens, resulted in a self-imposed hell that took years to battle my way back to reality. I hated myself and anything that was related to meth - including the idea of drugs being similar.
Time passed. I licked my wounds and hid inside myself. Eventually, MDMA said, "yo, don't throw the baby out when you throw out the bath water..." which kinda peaked interest... and then mescaline - "come here, you silly guy! Gimmee a big hug and let's fix this shit, eh?" So, my perspective began to question itself. Maybe phens aren't so bad?
So, last night I wanted to try the 4-HO-MiPT at a higher dose. I was aiming for 15 mg, but 20 mg hit the scale. You've been informed of my superstition - what hits the scale goes. Ok, so skipping some - about 30 mins later I am feeling pretty strong onset. An hr in, nearly full throttle, my mind visualizes a wave. Let's assume it's a Sin wave for ease of explanation. At first, the wave was typical 2-D that your see in a book. But... i decided that didn't seem right. So, I added the third dimension of spacial concept and saw a new model. Rathe than a flat wave, it was more like a tube that constricted and flared continuously.
So, that was fine. Conceptually, maybe a photon would be in any of the places with the wave. Mb maybe not. It led to thinking about the double slit experiment and the results. I wondered - how can the people that produce the experiment insure that each photon is in-phase with the previous? Could that attribute to the odd phenomenon? Maybe flawed equipment provides inconsistent phases. And then I wondered... maybe the "wave" is only observed because of a "spiralling action" that is created from the interference of other photons on their "spiralling path."
So, they say - ok, do this in a vacuum. Makes sense... but, the behavior seems consistent. So, what if the photon has an affinity for itself. Perhaps there is never a single photon. Maybe there are only pairs. However, due to "uncertainty" we can only detect "one." Maybe the wave occurs from an attraction that meets a central "singularity," where an inversion ocurs and they are sent spiralling away... until they invert again - returning to attraction.
Maybe we only see "one" because of our resolution of observation. Maybe one is not just two... maybe one has many intricate parts.
Just drugged up thoughts. It was fun though.
Take Care!
ACY