Got totally checkmated - 1st time breakthrough with changa

[Makyo]

So right now, I don't care about ultimate reality. I need to get things right in my reality.

You're right.
I also try to figure everything out, but sometimes it doesn't feel that healthy at all, and it's true, people have always tried to figure it all out, and still no one has any clear answers to what we are, life is, God is, reality is..., there are a lot of people SO much more intelligent than i am, who asked themselves the same life questions, wrote books about it, dedicated their whole lives to meditation, and studying ancient holy texts, philosophy, theology, etc, and still haven't figured it out.

It might be wise for me to follow your advice and stop asking myself "why" all the time, i like your buddhistic approach to life and people as well.It is far more beneficial to other people as well if i followed that approach.

If you don't know him yet then i think you'll probably like this man a lot:

Mooji

Thanks!

 

[Jot]

Crud... So beautiful

 

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I'd truly love to bring back a small percentage of the detail you seem to enjoy. I do relate with the "me, we, us, I, It" revelation. I prefer to describe us as "the I," but trying to label the experience is meaningless, imo. Yes, I did say, "us," because you are me and I am you, and we are everything, and nothing.

My "godhead" experience was my third attempt at home-brewing ayahuasca. I will never forget it, but wow...the details you were able to bring back are amazing. I was only able to post a few lines about the experience. Looking forward to your next report..

 

[Iweme]

Revel in the integration, you'll prolly be integrating that one till your last days on Earth.

Yeah that is somthing I'm starting to realise, at first I expected it to take a few weeks or months tops but I'm still unravelling this one.

I actually did it 2 days before I went away with my girlfriend to Japan. My logic leading up to it was since the drug laws are so strict over there I was going to be without anything but drink for a few weeks. So why not enjoy intergrating over there since I'd read people say if you break through you can experience a lasting after glow.

I'd never been to asia before so it was very alien to me, I was spinning out trying to take it the what had happened at the same time enjoy our time in Japan.

While in Kyoto in shopping area we were milling about and came to a temple that was really old and didn't fit in with the other surrounding shops. Like it was much older with all new stuff just built around it. We peared in for a quick glace (hoping to find some good photo ops) and I was instantly thown into brief but sharp moment of horror.

- Sorry, hard to find good photos of it.

Funny as it might seem this shrine (of what appears to be a buddhist statue) stared into me and for whatever reason it was unbearably intense. I went from casual tourist browsing around, relaxed as can be, to totally stunned. I had to look away from it immediately. It felt like I'd been punched in the chest. I still have little clue of why this was my reaction. All I could think about was those eyes on the statue 'felt' like that godhead thing was there again but out of the blue it was now in the real world staring down at me.

Even now it quite frankley freaks the living day lights out of me, I've never had thing like that happen before. It seems so irrational to react like this to an arrangement of essentially just physical objects but it suddenly seemed at that moment to have deep meaning and a extremely real presence as if it was conscious. Somthing like staring into the eyes of million people all at once.

It all certainly made the time over there count for alot more I think. All part of intergration I guess

 

[Iweme]

I'd truly love to bring back a small percentage of the detail you seem to enjoy. I do relate with the "me, we, us, I, It" revelation. I prefer to describe us as "the I," but trying to label the experience is meaningless, imo. Yes, I did say, "us," because you are me and I am you, and we are everything, and nothing.

My "godhead" experience was my third attempt at home-brewing ayahuasca. I will never forget it, but wow...the details you were able to bring back are amazing. I was only able to post a few lines about the experience. Looking forward to your next report..

Thanks upload, I did find myself using the term "We" totally out of context for a couple days afterwards.

With the recall I had this time, I think I must have just been lucky. I've had a few other experiences recently and I am also noticing that its not easy to remember what happened - infact I suspect I've been denied entrance to Hyperspace as last time I took a go I was got placed in a waiting area where nothing happened at all. That first time was much cleaner but that might be down to it being a different batch/mix.

 

[dropthemillstone]

Funny as it might seem this shrine (of what appears to be a buddhist statue) stared into me and for whatever reason it was unbearably intense. I went from casual tourist browsing around, relaxed as can be, to totally stunned. I had to look away from it immediately. It felt like I'd been punched in the chest. I still have little clue of why this was my reaction. All I could think about was those eyes on the statue 'felt' like that godhead thing was there again but out of the blue it was now in the real world staring down at me.

Even now it quite frankly freaks the living day lights out of me, I've never had thing like that happen before. It seems so irrational to react like this to an arrangement of essentially just physical objects but it suddenly seemed at that moment to have deep meaning and a extremely real presence as if it was conscious. Somthing like staring into the eyes of million people all at once.

It all certainly made the time over there count for a lot more I think. All part of integration I guess

Wonderful. Embrace it. It is irrational. SO WHAT. Do not exclude irrational from the realm of acceptable, legitimate experiences. We are so much more than we think we are.

 

[anon_003]

POETRY, my friend! Thank you for the incredible write up. Hard to believe that prior to this you had never had experience with any other psych? Must have been a shocker, for sure, lol. Glad to hear it went so well, and best wishes for future excursions!!!!!!! You should definitely write some more reports for us to gawk over.

EDIT: that photo you posted is definitely reminiscent of some hyperspatial voyages Ive had. It has that golden lighting, those impossibly clean, perfectly polished textures and surfaces, all of those rounded edges and curves, and those super vivid cartoon colors. Sometimes when something visually, sonically (certain songs), or mentally (in certain philosophical discussions) GOES THERE, its almost like a flashback of sorts. It maybe isn't so much like consuming the drug, so much as that gripping, POWERFUL, sense of "the other" piercing or invading your consciousness. Certainly tricky to describe. Like you are being watched or something. The million eyes is a good way to put it.

 

[sarek]

I'd like to see this moved to the quality experience reports thread; this is one of the best I've ever read. Thank you