mrjackp0ts
Rising Star
Hello all!
I'd like to introduce myself - duh! You can call me Mr. Jackpots - the name comes from an episode of the recent series of Twin Peaks that I'm quite fond of.
I've been exploring altered states of consciousness since my early teens. I certainly began too young. I decided to embark on an ego-driven, pseudo-spiritual quest for higher consciousness when I was 13 or 14 after reading Ram Dass's "Be Here Now." The concept of freeing myself from suffering and/or becoming enlightened really appealed to me, but I think that was due to the fact that I was seriously hurting inside. During this period I had to deal with some traumatic family issues and several debilitating mental health problems. Anxiety and depression led to a destructive cycle. Instead of spiritual growth, I found myself addicted to intravenous heroin on and off (but mostly ON) for the better part of a decade. Not only had I given up on what many once considered to be a promising life, but I stole from, lied to, and caused immense pain to everybody around me. I've been in jails, institutions, and been revived after overdosing multiple times.
It took a hell of a lot of hard work to battle back against addiction and begin to heal the wounds. I thought it was impossible to be anything but miserable. These days, however, things have turned around completely. I'm doing awesome! Just last week I graduated college with a bachelor's in mathematics and computer science. Never in my life have I been happier or healthier than I am right now. Quite a few of my close friends and acquaintances that I'd known since childhood were not as fortunate as I have been and did not make it out the other side.
The reason I'm posting here on DMT-Nexus is entheogens played an extremely significant role in helping me get to this point. A combination of psychedelic experiences, meditation (particularly with two lovely Sri Lankan Buddhist monks that helped me a ton), and therapy led to a complete revamping of my thinking. These days I don't touch anything that is purely for euphoria - alcohol, cocaine, amphetamines, opiates, benzodiazepines, anything that I feel can be easily abused or potentially addictive I steer clear of.
I look at entheogens with serious amount of respect and know that it is absolutely vital to prepare as much as possible for such powerful experiences. I love science and reading. I'm either an atheist or a Spinozist depending when you ask. I am always down to learn and my goal in life is to leave this world a tiny bit better than it was before I came into it. I believe that DMT-Nexus can help provide me with information necessary in order to both be safe and get the most out of my psychedelic experiences. I'd also like to give back and share my own knowledge, experiences and insights with others whenever beneficial.
I guess that covers the basics. Thank you for allowing me to become part of such an insightful community. I have the utmost respect for you guys and the projects that go on here.
-Mr Jackpots
I'd like to introduce myself - duh! You can call me Mr. Jackpots - the name comes from an episode of the recent series of Twin Peaks that I'm quite fond of.
I've been exploring altered states of consciousness since my early teens. I certainly began too young. I decided to embark on an ego-driven, pseudo-spiritual quest for higher consciousness when I was 13 or 14 after reading Ram Dass's "Be Here Now." The concept of freeing myself from suffering and/or becoming enlightened really appealed to me, but I think that was due to the fact that I was seriously hurting inside. During this period I had to deal with some traumatic family issues and several debilitating mental health problems. Anxiety and depression led to a destructive cycle. Instead of spiritual growth, I found myself addicted to intravenous heroin on and off (but mostly ON) for the better part of a decade. Not only had I given up on what many once considered to be a promising life, but I stole from, lied to, and caused immense pain to everybody around me. I've been in jails, institutions, and been revived after overdosing multiple times.
It took a hell of a lot of hard work to battle back against addiction and begin to heal the wounds. I thought it was impossible to be anything but miserable. These days, however, things have turned around completely. I'm doing awesome! Just last week I graduated college with a bachelor's in mathematics and computer science. Never in my life have I been happier or healthier than I am right now. Quite a few of my close friends and acquaintances that I'd known since childhood were not as fortunate as I have been and did not make it out the other side.
The reason I'm posting here on DMT-Nexus is entheogens played an extremely significant role in helping me get to this point. A combination of psychedelic experiences, meditation (particularly with two lovely Sri Lankan Buddhist monks that helped me a ton), and therapy led to a complete revamping of my thinking. These days I don't touch anything that is purely for euphoria - alcohol, cocaine, amphetamines, opiates, benzodiazepines, anything that I feel can be easily abused or potentially addictive I steer clear of.
I look at entheogens with serious amount of respect and know that it is absolutely vital to prepare as much as possible for such powerful experiences. I love science and reading. I'm either an atheist or a Spinozist depending when you ask. I am always down to learn and my goal in life is to leave this world a tiny bit better than it was before I came into it. I believe that DMT-Nexus can help provide me with information necessary in order to both be safe and get the most out of my psychedelic experiences. I'd also like to give back and share my own knowledge, experiences and insights with others whenever beneficial.
I guess that covers the basics. Thank you for allowing me to become part of such an insightful community. I have the utmost respect for you guys and the projects that go on here.
-Mr Jackpots