thanks for your replies,

but I think I am no longer going to smoke dmt because I have serious problems with demons harassing me while I am sober, and I think that smoking dmt a few times over the course of two years has definitely exaccerbated this problem.

It's too bad that I probably shouldn't be smoking dmt, especially considering that I've wanted to for a very long time now, and because I still have like two grams of a strong enhanced leaf blend. But maybe I will visit an ayahuasca retreat in the future sometime to heal on all levels and also experience spiritual awakening.

I am certain that I am worthy of both healing and also of love and happiness and respect. So I am going to go on a retreat and hopefully I find physical, emotional, and mental healing, and also psychic purifcation and spiritual development.

Thanks again for the replies.