Hi,
Gurud here and I have only had around ten smoked/vaped dmt experiences total, over the course of two years. My question was regarding letting go to the experience during a dmt journey. I have been too scared to fully let go every time that I have tried this. I felt my soul/astral body purifying and developing during my latest smoked dmt journey, but after just one small hit which I did not hold in I decided not to take any more. This has happened several times, the part about me not being able to take big inhalations and holding them in and submitting fully to the experience. On the one hand it seems very clean, pure, and spiritual, but on the other hand it feels terrifying and unpredictable. Is one supposed to just take a breakthrough dose and just give in to the experience fully, trusting the entire process, and be willing to experience whatever transpires? I have not thus far been able to smoke a large dose of dmt-infused peppermint, hold in the inhalations, and experience a breakthrough, because fear is preventing me from doing so. The dried peppermint leaf is 50% dmt by weight, so it is a very potent smoking blend. I really like and appreciate it, but at the same time it has just been sitting on my shelf for quite a while. I love and respect it, but I am fearful of it as well. I do not know what a full-on dmt breakthrough is like, and am rather reluctant to find out, because my emotions are in turmoil. Also I have a problem of being mocked by beings while totally sober, and I don't think it is a mental illness, no not at all. If anyone has any advice or suggestions as to how I can proceed with this it would be greatly appreciated. I have a very nice one-foot tall glass bong in which I could pack 100mg of leaf blend into. That could be smoked in one large inhalation, which would equal 50mg of dmt. It's basically a one-puff breakthrough blend when smoking it in a bong. I'm just too hesitant to explore further. Thanks for reading this and have a great day,
Gurud
Gurud here and I have only had around ten smoked/vaped dmt experiences total, over the course of two years. My question was regarding letting go to the experience during a dmt journey. I have been too scared to fully let go every time that I have tried this. I felt my soul/astral body purifying and developing during my latest smoked dmt journey, but after just one small hit which I did not hold in I decided not to take any more. This has happened several times, the part about me not being able to take big inhalations and holding them in and submitting fully to the experience. On the one hand it seems very clean, pure, and spiritual, but on the other hand it feels terrifying and unpredictable. Is one supposed to just take a breakthrough dose and just give in to the experience fully, trusting the entire process, and be willing to experience whatever transpires? I have not thus far been able to smoke a large dose of dmt-infused peppermint, hold in the inhalations, and experience a breakthrough, because fear is preventing me from doing so. The dried peppermint leaf is 50% dmt by weight, so it is a very potent smoking blend. I really like and appreciate it, but at the same time it has just been sitting on my shelf for quite a while. I love and respect it, but I am fearful of it as well. I do not know what a full-on dmt breakthrough is like, and am rather reluctant to find out, because my emotions are in turmoil. Also I have a problem of being mocked by beings while totally sober, and I don't think it is a mental illness, no not at all. If anyone has any advice or suggestions as to how I can proceed with this it would be greatly appreciated. I have a very nice one-foot tall glass bong in which I could pack 100mg of leaf blend into. That could be smoked in one large inhalation, which would equal 50mg of dmt. It's basically a one-puff breakthrough blend when smoking it in a bong. I'm just too hesitant to explore further. Thanks for reading this and have a great day,
Gurud