Now I'm stressing because I felt as if I had to be completely honest on the questionnaire for the retreat which I just received by email today (even though I have already paid the full amount of the retreat cost), and one of the questions was if I had ever been hospitalized for a mental illness. So I told them that I have, several times over the course of twelve years, for severe depression. They already knew that I had been taking medication for depression and that I had slowly stopped taking it also. I hope this does not disqualify me from the retreat or from particpating in all of the powerful healing ceremonies. This is what I have been patiently waiting for for many years. I want to receive complete healing on all levels, mental, emotional, and physical. I also want to evolve spiritually. I can't be deined this because I know that I am worthy and deserving of these things. I really hope that I can still attend this retreat and also heal on all levels and experience transcendence and enlightenment. I am not interested in phony heirarchies or artifical paradises.