Thank you for taking the time to write about your experience. You offered a beautiful description and I love the message about your family and life. It gave me goosebumps. That may be the most touching trip report I have ever read.
Thanks for your kind words
it caught me a little off guard to be honest; it has definitely taken me some time and attention to integrate and digest that one. Its easy to feel discontentment as a human, but remembering that experience helps me to trust the current of creation and the waves of my life even when they are difficult, boring, or confusing.
May I ask how your journeys are coming along now that you are trying to be less intentional? Do you have any suggestions for me? I suspect that if I learned to let go and be more open to the experience that I may be able to delve deeper? What are your thoughts on this? Also, how do I know if I have gone deep enough?
Definitely still a work in progress hahaha. Only human after all
One nice trick I’ve learned is to set the intention to
have fun! It’s a powerful way of upleveling the over seriousness of my usual intentions by adding it to the mix. I have done (and continue to do) a lot of self healing with LSD, and one thing it has taught me beyond any shadow of a doubt; sometimes, the most exalted, divine, cosmic, and profound experience are the most fun, also. You can meet God at the party. You can laugh until you cry and realize the Cosmic Joke. You can dance yourself into Oneness with you friends and family. DMT is obviously a non-kinetic substance (you don’t usually move your body much when you take it), but the same ideology applies. Going to hyperspace
is fun. It’s okay for it to be fun. It can be fun and a divine ritual. It’s important to allow the opportunity for both.
One thing that usually helps me is to take a very small handshake dose of DMT before really digging in, simply to be reminded of how absolutely
pleasant the experience is. I remind myself that this chemical is here to teach and help us. I allow my fear of difficult or disturbing images to abate, but don’t shut out the possibility. Do your best to invite the experience however it arrives, and know that it will be a passing experience.
Depth… a good question. I’ll ramble for a while and hopefully answer your question…
The right depth is what feels right at any given moment. Sometimes it’s nice to accidentally overdo it and go deeper than you thought, but also can be jarring. There’s nothing wrong with following the trail a little at a time. The relative intensity of the experience, and what you take from it, are highly personal. Always consult your intuition. Don’t take a dose that doesn’t feel right.
Relatively, there are fellow Nexians who have used DMT much longer than I and in higher doses. I’ve definitely had some intense experiences, but I don’t think having many experiences is necessary. I think the right experience finds us in the right moment. Try to trust the moment intrinsically and know that you are where you are at the right time.
How deep is deep? There is a parable dear to my heart: A doll made of salt went to measure the depths of the ocean… who was left to report the depth once the doll reached it??
There is also this (translated) mantra from the Heart Sutra:
Gone, Gone, Gone beyond, Gone beyond The Great Beyond; Oh! What an awakening!… when we go really deep we realize we haven’t gone anywhere at all.
When you go really far in the sauce, the “I” who goes deep sort of dissipates; a loss of individual identity can occur. In Vedic philosophy it’s called Samadhi. Sometimes, but not always. Lots of people have break thru experiences or entity encounters where their individuality is retained. Everyone is different. We get the message we need in the moment we need it. Trust the Divine Mother to take care of you.
Hope that helps
Peace and love
Sv
