JosephSeth11
Rising Star
Hello everyone. I have been reading the posts on this site for quite some time and I guess you could say that I feel as though I know some of you already. I thought that I would post a bit about myself so that you can begin to know me as well.
I was raised in a very strict and devout Christian family. I spent most of my younger life thinking that I had it all figured out. I believed that I was going to Heaven where Jesus was waiting to show me to my mansion made of gold. I felt sorry for the other people in the world, the ones who were not saved. I thought that everyone who didn’t call God by the same name that I did was going to hell. I thought it odd that God chose to favor me in such a way, allowing me a golden ticket straight into the Kingdom without any work on my part whatsoever. But, my only role models assured me that my sins were paid for. It’s always easy to believe someone when they are telling you what you want to hear.
It wasn’t until I joined the Army and had a chance to escape the dogmatic teachings of my parents and church that I started to realize that not only was I wrong about a few things, I was completely lost! My ego was larger than a two story building and my head was filled with the constant chattering of lies and illusions.
It has been eight years since I fully realized the extent of my ignorance. And since then, I have been playing catch-up, trying to learn so much of what was withheld from me. Now I look at life with an open mind, a neutral lense. For the past few years I have been making slow and steady progress. I have managed to reduce that two story building to something that I can at least see over. Of course, it is still there and I am constantly whittling away at it. These past few years, my number one goal has been personal growth. I thought that the answer to that would be in college so I used my GI bill and started going full time in 2008. Needless to say, I soon found that the answers I was looking for could not be found in a classroom. I am still enrolled in college and am planning to finish if not for the value of a degree, I do it because I don’t like to quit things once I have started. (Proof that my ego is still there).
It wasn’t until I read the book “The Power of Now” that I realized the potential that lies behind my noisy mind. I have made progress through meditation but I feel that I have reached a place where I need something else to completely break through. This is what has brought me to the DMT-Nexus. Although I have been reading about DMT for years, I have not seriously considered using it until recently. I guess the conservative nature instilled in me as a child is still present. I remember years ago I was reading about the Colorado River Toad and how you could smoke the venom. I asked someone about it and if I should try it. They told me “when you are ready it will find you.” I took that as good advice and forgot all about it. Since then I have wondered when it would find me. Although I haven’t had any toads knocking at my door, I feel as though wherever I look, DMT is there.
I am a little nervous about extracting as I have absolutely no experience with chemistry so I hope that I can learn as much as possible from all of you. I am a patient person and will wait until I feel as though I understand the process completely before attempting it but I would appreciate all of your help. Thanks for reading and I will see you all in the forums.
Seth
I was raised in a very strict and devout Christian family. I spent most of my younger life thinking that I had it all figured out. I believed that I was going to Heaven where Jesus was waiting to show me to my mansion made of gold. I felt sorry for the other people in the world, the ones who were not saved. I thought that everyone who didn’t call God by the same name that I did was going to hell. I thought it odd that God chose to favor me in such a way, allowing me a golden ticket straight into the Kingdom without any work on my part whatsoever. But, my only role models assured me that my sins were paid for. It’s always easy to believe someone when they are telling you what you want to hear.
It wasn’t until I joined the Army and had a chance to escape the dogmatic teachings of my parents and church that I started to realize that not only was I wrong about a few things, I was completely lost! My ego was larger than a two story building and my head was filled with the constant chattering of lies and illusions.
It has been eight years since I fully realized the extent of my ignorance. And since then, I have been playing catch-up, trying to learn so much of what was withheld from me. Now I look at life with an open mind, a neutral lense. For the past few years I have been making slow and steady progress. I have managed to reduce that two story building to something that I can at least see over. Of course, it is still there and I am constantly whittling away at it. These past few years, my number one goal has been personal growth. I thought that the answer to that would be in college so I used my GI bill and started going full time in 2008. Needless to say, I soon found that the answers I was looking for could not be found in a classroom. I am still enrolled in college and am planning to finish if not for the value of a degree, I do it because I don’t like to quit things once I have started. (Proof that my ego is still there).
It wasn’t until I read the book “The Power of Now” that I realized the potential that lies behind my noisy mind. I have made progress through meditation but I feel that I have reached a place where I need something else to completely break through. This is what has brought me to the DMT-Nexus. Although I have been reading about DMT for years, I have not seriously considered using it until recently. I guess the conservative nature instilled in me as a child is still present. I remember years ago I was reading about the Colorado River Toad and how you could smoke the venom. I asked someone about it and if I should try it. They told me “when you are ready it will find you.” I took that as good advice and forgot all about it. Since then I have wondered when it would find me. Although I haven’t had any toads knocking at my door, I feel as though wherever I look, DMT is there.
I am a little nervous about extracting as I have absolutely no experience with chemistry so I hope that I can learn as much as possible from all of you. I am a patient person and will wait until I feel as though I understand the process completely before attempting it but I would appreciate all of your help. Thanks for reading and I will see you all in the forums.
Seth
