Bigchungus
Rising Star
Hey fellas,
So I tried DMT for the first time ( Changa + Bong, worked great) I managed about two hits before I lost all grasp on reality and felt like someone threw a grenade into my skull. I was honestly unprepared at the intensity of repressed, unconscious contents that just threw themselves at me. At the moment I thought, “how could anyone do this?”, the boundaries between things, all things became undone, between object and subject, color and form, past present, and all swirled around in some chaotic whirlwind. For a generally conservative, person who puts things in boxes it was too much, too unexpected, painful and frightening. My soul felt like it was being torn out of my body. I almost threw up.
If the personal unconscious is so frightening what am I to expect from the further reaches? I’m not a person who’s brave or forthcoming with my problems and I think my DMT experience demanded this of me, more clearly than ever I was given the option to brave the experience or to be burnt by it. That was the feeling I was left with, “am I brave enough?”, “ do I really want to do this?”, “do I have it in me?” Im not sure how to answer these questions. I took DMT because I wanted answers and I wanted healing and I don’t know if that’s what I’m going to get, or if I’m just going to get burnt.
How do you know if you’re prepared to take the journey?
So I tried DMT for the first time ( Changa + Bong, worked great) I managed about two hits before I lost all grasp on reality and felt like someone threw a grenade into my skull. I was honestly unprepared at the intensity of repressed, unconscious contents that just threw themselves at me. At the moment I thought, “how could anyone do this?”, the boundaries between things, all things became undone, between object and subject, color and form, past present, and all swirled around in some chaotic whirlwind. For a generally conservative, person who puts things in boxes it was too much, too unexpected, painful and frightening. My soul felt like it was being torn out of my body. I almost threw up.
If the personal unconscious is so frightening what am I to expect from the further reaches? I’m not a person who’s brave or forthcoming with my problems and I think my DMT experience demanded this of me, more clearly than ever I was given the option to brave the experience or to be burnt by it. That was the feeling I was left with, “am I brave enough?”, “ do I really want to do this?”, “do I have it in me?” Im not sure how to answer these questions. I took DMT because I wanted answers and I wanted healing and I don’t know if that’s what I’m going to get, or if I’m just going to get burnt.
How do you know if you’re prepared to take the journey?