Cataplexy
Cordelia
Well... yes as you can see I am new. Very new in so many ways. I have had one experience with DMT... but its "strain" or form of chemical composition is unknown to me. All I know is that is was a revelation to me in many ways.. both visually and spiritually. It was a vortex of absolute rapture... although in physical time it was short... in my mind's time it went on forever. It was similar to some of the lucid dreams I have, yet I was in no position to manipulate the events around me. I was merely a lucid bystander engulfed in sounds, smells, images, colours, shapes and symbolism.
Now, I do have some concerns. First of all, I am not the most stable person. I have experienced many downs and lows... in extreme manners. At the time I wandered into my first DMT trip I was in a good state of mind. I was with just one person I trusted and loved dearly, bless his soul. It went flawlessly, though at times I felt slightly timid and overpowered.
However, I have noticed some changes in my being. When I lie in bed and it is dark, or even when I simply smoke a spliff and close my eyes... I see the same swirls of shapes and colours I saw during most of my psychedelic trips including experiences with more than just DMT. I've found that the difference in my visuals is that the more potent the trip, the less hazy these visuals are and the more three dimensional they become. When I see these sober or stoned, often they are not very detailed and mainly flat patterns... and they intrigue me. Yet I still wonder why I see such phenomena.
Does anybody experience similar things? Is this abnormal or worrisome? Should I just be happy with the one amazing journey I went on and put down the pipe?
Now, I do have some concerns. First of all, I am not the most stable person. I have experienced many downs and lows... in extreme manners. At the time I wandered into my first DMT trip I was in a good state of mind. I was with just one person I trusted and loved dearly, bless his soul. It went flawlessly, though at times I felt slightly timid and overpowered.
However, I have noticed some changes in my being. When I lie in bed and it is dark, or even when I simply smoke a spliff and close my eyes... I see the same swirls of shapes and colours I saw during most of my psychedelic trips including experiences with more than just DMT. I've found that the difference in my visuals is that the more potent the trip, the less hazy these visuals are and the more three dimensional they become. When I see these sober or stoned, often they are not very detailed and mainly flat patterns... and they intrigue me. Yet I still wonder why I see such phenomena.
Does anybody experience similar things? Is this abnormal or worrisome? Should I just be happy with the one amazing journey I went on and put down the pipe?