Mikesaltwater
Rising Star
Hi, I wanted to post this somewhere and get some feedback today. I took an incredibly large dose of DMT. I normally use vaporizer pens but today I have obtained a crystalline form of the substance and I didn't know how to smoke it so I went to a head shop and got one of those meth pipes with the bubble at the end I put about a third of the gram in there planning on taking several hits. I melted it down and took a gigantic hit. I held it in for maybe 10 or 15 seconds and the next thing I know I wasn't just tripping and seeing visuals, but but a bubble in circled my body and all I could see was this green spinning ball around me, I laid back in the seat of my truck and everything was green, and I was spinning backwards, faster, and faster and faster Then I got the feeling like I was throwing up and I was throwing up so fast and so violently that it was coming out of my mouth and going back in through my ass this sounds funny, but I'm serious. I kept spinning for what seemed to be 30 seconds or so. I had lost complete control of my body. I felt like I was dying. In fact I think I did die in a metaphorical way. When I arrived at the entrance I was told your life is over you have died.. the voice told me that I let my mother down and also GOD down.. I was mortified and everything that I had done or thought that was broken or guilty about was there I had an overwhelming sense of shame and then I was told that I was filth and my soul was ripped away and thrown into a toilet where it splattered black like shit. I was directed down a corridor and told I was to spend eternity in hell.. I curled up into a ball and covered my face and thought I just want to die and they said but you are dead and your in hell.. wtf??? This left me feeling like maybe god spoke to me and gave me another chance but now I'm thinking maybe this was my brain being wired to feel inadequate and guilty.. I have been an addict most of my life and been to prison for selling drugs I lost my mom while in prison and have a lot of guilt there but I can't shake this feeling of how real it was.. it left me with a profound feeling to be better and to improve myself and become closer to GOD.. this was a complete breakthrough to another place I just can't describe it I don't have the words I've heard similar experiences called ego death? Has anyone ever had an experience like this?
