I felt it was time to find a community

[~Odysseus~]

Hi! I go by Odysseus (~Odysseus~, but "Odysseus" was taken), an alias I go by outside of this nexus.

I'm currently writing this on the comedown of an LSD trip, so bear with me.

About 1.5 years ago I was completely adamant I would never try drugs and stood by the belief that all mind-altering substances are objectively bad. I somehow convinced myself to pursue psilocybin mushrooms out of pure curiosity after hearing so much about it from friends and online. After [>snip< no sourcing! *Mod edit*] consuming the mushrooms (first drug I ever tried), a completely new sense of wonder permanently struck me, opening doors I never would've even dreamt of pursuing. I began to explore immediately, increasing the dosages until accomplishing my first hero's journey. I also did a lot of research and began discussing these experiences among my inner circle. Soon I tried LSD, then some dubious smoke shop psychedelic chocolate (probably 4-AcO-DMT or similar RC). Then, lurking on this nexus and other websites, brewed a form of ayahuasca with Mimosa hostilis and Syrian rue. I did this at home, alone, and that first touch of DMT permanently changed something in me. This trip was so minor and a threshold dose, yet so profound and visionary. After meeting an entity of sorts and experiencing a vision, I've grown intensely more spiritual ever since. Recently, also using this website, my closest buds and I extracted DMT also from Mimosa hostilis and I've been slowly experimenting with it with a dab rig. I have never broken through yet and that's where I sit here today. Exploring psychedelics is one thing but also exploring spirituality is another, hence why I decided to register into this site and seek out some community and advice among like-minded individuals.

At my young age (admittedly barely old enough to be on the site), I am insatiably curious, adventurous, but also naive. I'm honestly overwhelmed with what's at stake for me in life, and I'm trying to incorporate my newfound spiritual practices into my life intelligently without becoming insane. I can only condense what I'm seeking so much here, but in a search to become grounded and knowledgeable I find myself getting destabilized, distracted, and confused. Of course entheogenic practices are welcome here, but I wasn't sure about the discussion of specific spiritual practices, something as universal as yoga or meditation for example. All things I feel the need to research and know about, but there's just too much out there.

That's me, and I should probably leave it at that. Thanks in advance for any resources and/or advice I may receive.

 

[rkba]

I can only condense what I'm seeking so much here, but in a search to become grounded and knowledgeable I find myself getting destabilized, distracted, and confused

The way I 'see' this.

This 'destabilization' is needed to reposition a core-perception. When you are able to reposition a core-perception your experienced reality will change.

The 'distraction' is your mind trying to regain balance in keeping the previous core-perception. In order to keep reality the same, it is resisting the position-change.

The 'confusion' is the result of the ever-analyzing mind, realizing that there are endless positions for a core-perception to be 'anchored'. This practically means that there is not One Reality. Very confusing, it is.

Again, just the way I'm trying to approach my reality-fluctuations. Letting the mind do what it likes, analyze. Letting the mind resist while at the same letting it 'see' for itself that resistance is futile.

Embrace and accept the confusion. Let your heart lead the way in the creation of questions. Let your mind analyze the answers. And together you travel a path created by your Being, a path created by your own totality. Then invoke the third option and admire the impossible magic from outside of yourself.

 

[rkba]

Oh, and welcome to the forum.

 

[Transform]

Welcome to the forum!

Great to see a curious young mind here. Grow cactus. Grow it now!

Please remember to reign it in with the talking about where you may have obtained things. This is crucial to the ability of this forum to continue to operate. Read about this and other necessary rules here:

Attitude Page - DMT-Nexus Wiki

wiki.dmt-nexus.me

Now that that's cleared up, on with the show!

Of course entheogenic practices are welcome here, but I wasn't sure about the discussion of specific spiritual practices, something as universal as yoga or meditation for example.

This is indeed quite acceptable - we even have a special area of the forum for it and, as you'll undoubtedly find out, an eager retinue of regulars who are ready to discuss this stuff.

It's exciting to see that you already have a holistic attitude towards personal exploration. Having practices beyond mere drug-taking will enable you to get much further, and hopefully avoid some of the pitfalls of 'chapel perilous'. Give yourself time to integrate and remember to maintain a healthy level of skepticism - with youth on your side, you'll be fine.