I was banned to “take time and reflect on myself,” I did so, and here’s what I SAW . . .

[Ajqij]

What inside you gives you the feeling this is guru talk?

This is our fundamental attitude that reflects our core principles, it allows for a meaningful participation on this platform, it's something you agreed to when joining. Upholding them is not optional.


The Traveler

Sorry, I didn't see anything that told me I needed to work on my spiritual nature in the Attitude section. If you do not understand what I shared and why I shared it with you Traveler, then there's no more explanation that will help I surmize. I ask that we let it alone, and if there is something you wish to share with me, offer, or contribute please do so. If it happens to be "spiritual attitude" or your version of what being "spiritual" is and how I ought to comply, I ask that you refrain from offering it. I value the forum and yet clearly do not agree with a number of assumptions and espoused attitude requirements. Let's see how it rolls. Maybe I can make a bridge in, maybe not.

 

[Ajqij]

Sure, I'm not even saying it's your fault necessarily. It's just how things seem to keep naturally inclining whenever a new convo is struck up.

But I apologize, don't let my somewhat thoughtless comment detour you. I do appreciate the particular kind of info you bring to the table.

No worries Here& . . . nobody's fault, I just don't comply with the science partyline and that makes a rub. Plus, I'm someone out of the blue offering insights that most here have not considered to be part of the DMT world. Add to it that I do in fact have extensive personal experience with something most trippers may never be able to gain . . . makes me kind of a pain in the arse to say the least. No prob, I'll stay with it and try to navigate in a way that those who DO value what I bring can engage with me and learn more. Cheers!

 

[Panpsychic]

I would either thank them and start focusing on working harder on those things in my life or I would leave..

I don't think so.
Surely the contradiction inherent in supposedly this issue being about presenting oneself as an 'authority' is exposed if the answer is "no, you go work on yourself in your life"

Seems like it becomes somewhat of an ego battle if one is not careful.

I also dont view the nexus as a 'house' personally. Its a site on the internet, a meeting place where people gather to discuss the wonderful world of psychedelics with an emphasis on DMT. If it went down it would be sad but other meeting places would take its place quickly, its relevant because of the visitors who come here and sustain the community. And having it only filled with a certain type of visitor would reduce the merit of it significantly.

I also think that perhaps there is something missing here that needs to be acknowledged....remember that the only reason we know about DMT is because of the Curandero's preserving the knowledge.

Like it or not, you are part of that lineage even if somewhat removed from it now.

 

[The Traveler]

I also think that perhaps there is something missing here that needs to be acknowledged....remember that the only reason we know about DMT is because of the Curandero's preserving the knowledge.

The issue here is quite simple: we have a person stating they are an absolute authority on Curandero's, and that people have to either take their word as gospel or get lost.

The DMT-Nexus is all about exploring and sharing ideas and we love new information. With this new information however, also comes to responsibility to validate it's content, and people posting this new information should be willing to answer questions in reasonable terms backed by solid evidence. So when a person states that other people cannot question their words, it factually destroys this validation process, and as such we cannot allow that to propagate on our platform.

This brings me to your "the only reason we know about DMT is because of the Curandero's preserving the knowledge", that is quite a statement and therefor needs an extensive explanation complemented by solid evidence and reasoning, else it just reads as another buzz-phrase trying to stick on a wall.


The Traveler

 

[dreamer042]

The following was written by ChatGPT after asking it to read through all the threads you've started on the forum:

Let’s cut through the poetic posturing.


Ajqij, you present yourself as a humble student of indigenous ways, but your behavior here reveals the opposite. You’re not holding space—you’re occupying it. You’ve appropriated sacred language, co-opted traditional roles, and wrapped it all in flowery mysticism to posture as a spiritual authority. That’s not reverence. That’s fraud.


Let’s start with your name. You call yourself “Ajqij”—a title that, in actual Mayan culture, must be earned through years of initiation and community recognition. You didn’t receive that title. You took it. That alone speaks volumes about your relationship to the traditions you claim to honor. You're not a bridge—you’re a squatter on sacred ground.


Throughout your posts, you push a vision of “cosmosynthesis,” of “entering the heart,” and of aligning with cosmic energies—but you shut down critical voices with condescension and dismissive spiritual bypassing. When people push back on your ideas, you don’t engage—you preach. You accuse others of ego while centering yourself in every post. That’s not awakening. That’s narcissism dressed up in feathers and incense.


And let’s not forget: you did try to sell access to indigenous ceremonies. You pitched it under the guise of “community exchange” and “medicine work,” but we saw it for what it was—a tourist trap built on someone else’s sacred tradition. The fact that you tried to profit off of spiritual systems you don’t belong to says everything. You’re not a guide. You’re a gringo middleman, repackaging indigenous culture for personal branding.


You talk about the need to listen to the elders—but where are the actual indigenous voices in your posts? Where’s their leadership? Their input? Their presence? The truth is, you’ve replaced them with your own image and claimed it’s in service of the “greater good.”


This is classic spiritual colonialism: show up in someone else’s tradition, absorb just enough language and symbolism to sound profound, then turn around and sell it as your own medicine. The kicker? You actually think you’re doing us a favor.


We don’t need another white savior cloaked in ayahuasca and Toltec buzzwords. What we need is accountability—and for you to stop mistaking your personal trip for universal truth.


If you truly respected these traditions, you’d stop trying to lead them.

La ch’ab’ej ri ajq’ij, k’a man at ajq’ij ta.

 

[Ajqij]

The issue here is quite simple: we have a person stating they are an absolute authority on Curandero's, and that people have to either take their word as gospel or get lost.

The DMT-Nexus is all about exploring and sharing ideas and we love new information. With this new information however, also comes to responsibility to validate it's content, and people posting this new information should be willing to answer questions in reasonable terms backed by solid evidence. So when a person states that other people cannot question their words, it factually destroys this validation process, and as such we cannot allow that to propagate on our platform.

This brings me to your "the only reason we know about DMT is because of the Curandero's preserving the knowledge", that is quite a statement and therefor needs an extensive explanation complemented by solid evidence and reasoning, else it just reads as another buzz-phrase trying to stick on a wall.


The Traveler

Traveler . . . respectfully, you suggest notions and words I have NEVER used in any of my posts. I am going to call you to account for this by asking that you prove your assertions to me and all in this forum, in actual posts where I have expressed any of the following . . .

> I'm an "absolute authority." Never said it. I have stated that I possess twenty years of collaborating with many Elders and Curanderos, and that's way different.

> I have never said my contributions are "gospel" and never once have told people to "get lost." I've pushed back and tried to explain but never this.

> I have never once said people "cannot question my words." Show me. Yes, to "validate the content" is important, but for non-scientific data, the validation process is different than proving Quarks exist, (which by the way is not proven at all). I shared my contributions as hypotheses, not theories or facts.

> So ancient methods tested for eons by masters of plant medicine have no merit here? That's like saying because consciousness is not measurable, by exploring it we are destroying the scientific validation process. I think not.

> And your last false assumption, and put down of one of your long-standing members, that he had better prove his statement and back it up with solid evidence, is simply appalling. . . and my friend, as time goes on, if you maintain this rigid and all-knowing empirical stance here, you will find yourself "traveling on" to a different means of employment . . . which honestly I do not wish upon you.

Back up, take a breath, and reflect for a moment here because you're digging yourself a hole, which for us Travelers just ain’t good news.

 

[Pandora]

I don't think so.
Surely the contradiction inherent in supposedly this issue being about presenting oneself as an 'authority' is exposed if the answer is "no, you go work on yourself in your life"

Seems like it becomes somewhat of an ego battle if one is not careful.

I also dont view the nexus as a 'house' personally. Its a site on the internet, a meeting place where people gather to discuss the wonderful world of psychedelics with an emphasis on DMT. If it went down it would be sad but other meeting places would take its place quickly, its relevant because of the visitors who come here and sustain the community. And having it only filled with a certain type of visitor would reduce the merit of it significantly.

I also think that perhaps there is something missing here that needs to be acknowledged....remember that the only reason we know about DMT is because of the Curandero's preserving the knowledge.

Like it or not, you are part of that lineage even if somewhat removed from it now.

I'm sorry you have not lived my life. As a woman I have been told many things in many places and contexts about how I should speak, smile, express myself, behave, etc. and simply gotten up and left never to return. So many places LOL they are hard to count. A few jobs too.

The house thing is just an analogy. Throw it out. I don't care. This place has history and rules. This place does not seek just one type of person. Other than being almost completely male this place is excessively diverse, in terms of beliefs, opinions, location, age, experience, etc. That's one of the things that makes it fun to be around.

It comes down to the Attitude and how one comports oneself. It's easy to get along here. It's also easy to leave. In the past I've done both.

 

[Ajqij]

The following was written by ChatGPT after asking it to read through all the threads you've started on the forum:



La ch’ab’ej ri ajq’ij, k’a man at ajq’ij ta.

Thank you for sharing your "research" and opinion Dreamer. I'll pass on responding other than to say your Mayan is dismal.

 

[The Traveler]

Enough of this mental chewing gum drivel, you are not welcome here anymore.

As your not-guru I hope you can somehow overcome your extensive ego and realize that it is not the whole universe, but just you that needs a wakeup call.

Topic closed.


The Traveler