XIX log update:
Dose: 230mg harmala freebase (from Rue) @ T-00:30 + 3ml tincture (equivalent to 1.5g Mimosa) @ T+00:00 + 3ml tincture (same) @ T+01:00. With empty stomach, fasted for 10 hours. Very late at night.
This was an experiment to try the tannin-free Mimosa tincture made following
@Transform 's tek. As he had warned of signs of potential convulsant activity, I had a lower dose than I would have otherwise. So this was mainly an experiment to see the effects.
Due to some noise from the neighbors next door getting ready to leave the village the next day, I had to take it very late at night. The effects from the harmala alkaloids proved to me that the muricata doses I've had were low (and thus the material I have is weak): I started feeling as if transported to another world before I even drank the tincture.
The tincture had a very mild flavor, not unpleasant at all. Combined with the fact that it's so little volume of liquid, it was very easy to drink. This is a good plus. I couldn't feel any tannin dryness in my mouth (as it's supposed to be).
When I went upstairs, I found out I had forgotten to prepare some basics (bring there my mp3 player and earphones, a second blanket, a pillow...) and as I was already feeling effects come up, I frantically went downstairs to look for all I needed. It was difficult to find in the state I was in, and when I finally got it all my heart was pounding. I think I'm going to write down a checklist for the next time, because this is not a good way to start an experience, and I tend to be forgetful.
As I laid down, I felt profoundly relaxed. Soon, strong flashes of vibrating light appeared, and over time they developed into phantasmagorical, flickering images. Their style was very much that of Mimosa CEVs as opposed to pure DMT (at least for me): less well defined but somehow more realistic, quickly shifting (in this case they flickered fast and over time a new image started alternating with the old one during the flicker and finally replaced it), and with a feeling of "space" to them. So the tincture must have successfully extracted other actives besides DMT.
The content of the CEVs this time was very unusual for me, and somewhat embarrassing to recall. There were many women, specifically young women, very beautiful and often acting in a very sexually provocative way. Some of them naked. At times it was not sexual but they were looking upwards as if in prayer while crying. Over time, the images started being predominantly in an anime style (and I don't usually watch anime). Despite the high amount of sexual content, the feeling was one of sadness. I don't know why.
After some time, the CEVs started to become more abstract, and I think I would have started to have realistic-type visions if the dose had been higher. I started to have many complex trains of thought that I can't recall well. Part of it is due to it being unusually late, so I was tired and I think at some points I was drifting into a state not far from dreaming. I remembered many good moments of my life and friends I appreciate but haven't seen in a long time. I realized how their image had been slowly fading from my mind: now I could see them again clearly, as they are, a very fresh and vivid image. I'm going to reach out to them soon.
I also saw clearly the reason I misinterpreted
@fink 's recent posts: the real problem is not how they were written, but that some posts he made before triggered some very negative associations, and so I was predisposed to misinterpreting it from the beginning. I apologize for that
@fink , I was harsh just due to my own misinterpretations and issues.
At many points I could feel different presences, most of them benevolent. Unlike other times, I had no gastric discomfort (very slight bloating, but not uncomfortable) and didn't have muscle tension, I was very relaxed and felt safe and comfortable. So about three and a half hours in, everything started getting more and more dreamy, and eventually I fell asleep. When I woke up (five and a half hours after taking the Mimosa) there were still noticeable effects, although not strong. I went to bed, and when I woke up this morning I was still having tracers, at T+9:00! This is very unusual for me, also considering that the dose was not too high.
So the tincture worked perfectly, and it's exactly what I was looking for: the Mimosa effects without stomach pain. The tek is great and it's going to be my go-to way of preparing Mimosa. So thank you
@Transform! As I didn't perceive any worrying effects, I'm going to try a higher dose with harmalas next time. And if it works well, I'll combine it with B. muricata.
