IggyStarman
Esteemed member
Alias: Ignis J. Starman
(Aka: Iggy Starman)
Age: 29
Sex: Male
Eth: Caucasian European
Wt: 235
Ht: 5’ 7”
From as early as my memory goes back, I’ve felt different from many around me. Between undiagnosed spectrum related symptoms, ADHD, upbringing, so on and so forth, Ive struggled my entire life finding sense, reason, or happiness in spirituality or religion.
I’ve researched and read scriptures, passages, cliff notes, summaries and grimories from many authors and writers over the years. For a time, I found myself following old Pagan rites and beliefs until I came across a new issue that had barely been spoken about before.
APHANTASIA
Inability to create voluntary images behind the lids of one’s eye, in their mental headspace. This extends to other sensory imaginations, and is often paired with SDAM, an issue where one cannot relive or even remember particular points in their life. Or they’re so low energy that they become jumbled and horribly incorrect from fact.
A lot of spirituality and religion is rooted in meditation, clearing the mind, or focusing on a place, object, thing or person. At the very least, the belief of a god or gods. (Usually)
After coming to the realization I have this Aphantasia, I feel as if I’m missing out on the entire spiritual aspect on life. I never had it and have lived a fairly decent life without it, however, you always want what you don’t have. (Again, usually)
I had tried DMT once before I learned of this back in 2014. Brewed it in a tea, probably did it wrong, and got minimal OEVs, none were CEVs. Felt like I was dying, and had brain fog for two whole weeks after the fact.
Ten years have come and gone in a blink of an eye, and I haven’t had another opportunity to try it again. I’m hoping through the use of this community and crafty online sources, I will be able to find or fabricate sources of magic crystals, and The_Machine.
I am terrified of death, and will more than likely struggle greatly to combat this in future trials and usage. Ultimately I hope to make an acquaintance or friend or two, get safer about the usage, get everything in gear, and take a blind leap over the threshold.
There has not been a lot of research into this topic Amphants using DMT, and less so successfully. I understand that I shouldn’t set expectations for a trip, in my mind and with this ego, I have a hard time letting go.
Anyone that has successfully broken through as an amphant-from-birth, please do hit me up, as I am more than eager to hear out that experience. (Or any other experience). I love (but mostly fear) hearing what people experiences are with DMT.
Thank you, I hope to meet the people of the community soon.
-Ignis
(Aka: Iggy Starman)
Age: 29
Sex: Male
Eth: Caucasian European
Wt: 235
Ht: 5’ 7”
From as early as my memory goes back, I’ve felt different from many around me. Between undiagnosed spectrum related symptoms, ADHD, upbringing, so on and so forth, Ive struggled my entire life finding sense, reason, or happiness in spirituality or religion.
I’ve researched and read scriptures, passages, cliff notes, summaries and grimories from many authors and writers over the years. For a time, I found myself following old Pagan rites and beliefs until I came across a new issue that had barely been spoken about before.
APHANTASIA
Inability to create voluntary images behind the lids of one’s eye, in their mental headspace. This extends to other sensory imaginations, and is often paired with SDAM, an issue where one cannot relive or even remember particular points in their life. Or they’re so low energy that they become jumbled and horribly incorrect from fact.
A lot of spirituality and religion is rooted in meditation, clearing the mind, or focusing on a place, object, thing or person. At the very least, the belief of a god or gods. (Usually)
After coming to the realization I have this Aphantasia, I feel as if I’m missing out on the entire spiritual aspect on life. I never had it and have lived a fairly decent life without it, however, you always want what you don’t have. (Again, usually)
I had tried DMT once before I learned of this back in 2014. Brewed it in a tea, probably did it wrong, and got minimal OEVs, none were CEVs. Felt like I was dying, and had brain fog for two whole weeks after the fact.
Ten years have come and gone in a blink of an eye, and I haven’t had another opportunity to try it again. I’m hoping through the use of this community and crafty online sources, I will be able to find or fabricate sources of magic crystals, and The_Machine.
I am terrified of death, and will more than likely struggle greatly to combat this in future trials and usage. Ultimately I hope to make an acquaintance or friend or two, get safer about the usage, get everything in gear, and take a blind leap over the threshold.
There has not been a lot of research into this topic Amphants using DMT, and less so successfully. I understand that I shouldn’t set expectations for a trip, in my mind and with this ego, I have a hard time letting go.
Anyone that has successfully broken through as an amphant-from-birth, please do hit me up, as I am more than eager to hear out that experience. (Or any other experience). I love (but mostly fear) hearing what people experiences are with DMT.
Thank you, I hope to meet the people of the community soon.
-Ignis
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