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My friends..the little ones..the mushrooms..

The jokers..the cosmic comedians..the teachers..

2 weeks ago I had planned to drink ayahuasca one night..instead soem friends came over and wanted me to come do a little group thing on the beach with some of the mushrooms. I had taken about a gram or so 2-3 weeks prior and it brought back old memories of the mushrooms..whom I had not visited much at all in the last year..I used to take them alot..they were my first..but lately I have been caught up with this whole bufotenine thing, and ayahuasca..

So after we skimboarded, we sat there and consumed about 2 grams each of strong powdered cubes in some orange juice. Not a huge dose..but enough. I remembered..I remembered it all..

Everythng was soo beautiful..so full of love and radiating the light..everything was animate..everything was one. I went through emotions sitting there on that beach i had not felt in a LONG time..the group mind we had going on was incredible..It was an exceptionally healing expereince.

Now i really love ayahuasca..but personally..the mushrooms take me deeper into my own soul than I have ever expereinced with ayahuasca..they are both similar..both amazing entheogens..but the mushrooms are more in line with me..they got my back..they know what i need..they know me.

The only other entheogen that can get me to that place tha the mushrooms brings me to seems to be changa..mushrooms are a bit more colorful though.

So last night instead of ayahuasca..I again sat down with a tea made with 2 grams of these real potent cubensis with a bit of lemon juice.

I dunno what to say here..I could take about psychedelic patterns..geometric grids..how the room was like a 3d hologram, or the insectoids that molested me while trying to fall asleap..but I wont..theres enough of that posted in other threads already..and not what this was all about anyway..

I became enlightened last night..some sort of temporary satori..it was one of the most beautiful things I have ever experienced in my life on this planet. I felt like I felt 2-3 years ago when I was taking the mushrooms much more often..except this time I was able to surrender alot more into it..from my work with changa.

At the 1 hour point I was feeling it radiating through ever fibre..so I decided it might be a good time to finally try smoking some caapi with mushrooms. I loaded up a big bowl of shredded vine and slowly puffed on it sitting there inthe dark with candles listening to the beatles..it deepened the mushrooms and the most wonderful euphoric jolts were shooting through me and I was rolling around on the floor having this intense spiritual experience..

I came onto the chat at one point becasue i was sitting at the computer listening to some psy trance and was feeling really great talking to house..i felt soo open and alive and vibrant..i felt like I could feel the energy of the people through the computer..which also made it difficult when the vibes inthe chat turned sort of dark at one point..the energies were turning on me and i felt bad so I had to leave and go back into my room to get away from the negativity..

I sat there for a while swayuing back and forth in the dark to music..smokng more caapi and laying there 100% content with life..colors and faint grids buzzing around the room..rainbows in my head..

At some point my brother and his gf came home after drinking 4 bottles of wine..by 3am I was still peaking and they were in the other room onthe floor puking into this bucket and fighting back and forth..I couldnt stand listening to it..it hurt to hear it..I felt bad for them..I felt like they dont really love each other and are instead just hung up on contolling each other..I thought about how some girls have made me feel..they way I felt about them..how happy they made me..and I realized that my brother and his gf must not have that..I was nearly ready to just walk in there in the middle of their drunken puking and fighting and tell them that they needed to break up, becasue they didnt love each other..they are always worrying abotu what happened yesterday or bitching about tommorow..they arent in the moment at all..they take the now for granted.

They were to drunk though so I instead told them to get it together and shut the door becasue I was peaking and they were freaking me out lol...I watched discusted as my brother emptied his gf's vomit unto the front lawn and came back inside.

back in my room I started to have visions of my brother..of us as kids..skateboarding..me teaching him how to do his first kickflip..gong snowboarding and surfing with him..I saw his face at like 12 years old soo clearly it was painful becasue i desperatily wanted that person back..i felt like my brothers soul had been poisoned and it hurt. I cried.

I smoked more caapi and ate some food and lay there feeling like I had al the answeres to the problems of humanity..why we cant get along..why we are unhappy..why at times we can all be these bitter assholes that step all over each other..I felt enlightened and healed and safe and happy and I wanted to give that back to every other single soul on this planet, becasue they deserve it.

As I lay there I got deeper and deeper into these unbeleivable psilocin visions on the verge of sleep, until I passed out.

 
Great report. Glad you had a good experience too.

Thanks for mentioning the caapi + shroom combo. I've been wondering about that since i heard Terence McKenna mention it, but wasn't sure when to do the caapi, or what pre-cautions I need to take.

Your report gave me some confidence in that regard.

Something about the chat-room situation, where you felt the energy change. We all know about how subtle changes in energy can be strongly felt, but I'm wondering....if there was an energy change in the chat-room, it must have been unintentional. Know what I mean? No one would deliberately set out to ruin your trip.

But, if it was unintentional - then why did it feel negative? Just some questions I'm asking myself, as a result of reading your experience.

I went to a festival here in austin called eyore's birthday last week. Has something to do with celebrating the summer solstice and it attracts the hippies, psychedelic, and candy-people. Everyone, about 400 people, just hangs out in a park for the whole day, drinking, drum circles. Almost everyone dresses up, the girls as fairies and other earth-creatures. Even the itty bitty kids.

Anyways, me and a friend ate some shrooms and wandered around the whole event for the day. At one point we stopped to sit and rest. And some really cute girl walked by. I'm nervous enough as it is around girls, so the shrooms really emphasized that nervousness. I was talking to my buddy, she walked by, and i just stopped talking altogether. I was really drawn into the beauty of the female form that day.

Most of the girls wore these bright neon colored outfits, that beckons "hey, look at me...". I kept associating them with pretty flowers, something to just admire the beauty of, jaw-dropping and absorbing.

was a wonderous day.
 
I personally love caapi with shrooms. Some people aparently don't and that could have something to do with the type of shrooms since it's not all the same. But to me it's an absolutely fantastic combo.
Mushrooms can be realy powerfull end energetic.
There is something about it that's just immensely real..more real then normal reality in some way.

Maybe you should talk your brother into trying some.
Everybody can use a little illumination now and then. And the tryptamines with caapi provide a powerfull tool in relationships.

People are complex. I don't always understand why some people seem to like hurting themselves so much. A friend of me is also in a relationship like that and i totally don't understand it. Maybe some people are just deeply afraid of real love because it makes you lose your boundaries, but i would say that's a good thing and not something to be scared of at all.:?
 
Very nice report. Must be tough to see your brother in that way during a trip like that. I know i wouldn't want that.
Great song by the way...


Peace
 
Great report. I feel a very similar way about mushrooms...they have been my number one all for quite a few years now. Very much would like to sample some caapi and/or changa with them next time I journey.
 
wow..i think I overdid it....I ate too many mushromosm thinging i needed more becasue i ate a large dinner..nope..deff didnt need to eat that last dose..im just glad to be alive:d ..i was scared for a while there. I swear to god i just died and came back to life..

probly make more of this post when im back fully..until ten here is some music..:d

seriousily..im sooo freaking glad to be alive.
 
Ha, you and me both..I was wayyyyyyy out there when i made that post..I think typing anything was helping to me ground.

I have no idea how many grams of these cubes I took..I stared off with abotu 2 grams in a tea with some lemon..then made some more tea with the same mushrooms..then decided to just powder some more, about a gram or so and add them as well..drank that, smoked a bunch of caap and then went and just started eating stems..I dont have a scale here and havent weighed out a dose in a looooong time but i got to that point where it didnt matter how much I took, I was just there..mckenna style. I guess I got up to about 4-5 grams..

The thing is that I was stupid, ate a large dinner..so it took about 2.5 hours for them to really peak..also I didnt dose all at once so the pea was spread out over about 2 hours into 2 peaks overlapped somewhat..with the first part this amazing and very personal spiritual experience,I talked to the mushrooms and w..and I thought that was the main peak, unless I had to pee, got up and went into tthe bathroom and realized it looked like some sort of space ship with rainbow bending colours around the lights and geometric symbols shimmering and overlayed all around..

After that I get back into my room and all of a sudden I am peaking so hard, visions pouring out of my head and my body shaking..this part was rough and i was rollignback and forth alot trying to be comfortable butI thought I was loosing it..at thesame time looking at some of the most amazing thingsand deep deep into this heavy psychedelic expereince..Every other high dose mushroom experience I have ever had was like flashingback up into my memory as I become fully reaquainted with the little ones..

After that leveled off I was left back in some of the most amazing, honest and beautiful few hours of my life..I cant even attempt to decribe the level of peace I had attained..I was still tripping hard but not quite peaking..I lay in the dark getting very relaxed, in silence..and that when the voice became apparent..the voice of the mushrooms. I would know it anywhere because its distict..alien and sort of cybernetic..it was talking to me..i found out ways to ask it things and then go blank and let it answer..it told me we were getting close to "them"..whoever or whatever "they" are..I asked it what they are but it just then showed me images of this techo dimension and alien sort of cyber beings from another dimension, while saying "them"..I wish I couldnt remember more of what it was saying, but I cant..all I know is that psilocin, it speaks.
 
fractal enchantment said:
wow..i think I overdid it....I ate too many mushromosm thinging i needed more becasue i ate a large dinner..nope..deff didnt need to eat that last dose..im just glad to be alive:d ..i was scared for a while there. I swear to god i just died and came back to life..

probly make more of this post when im back fully..until ten here is some music..:d

seriousily..im sooo freaking glad to be alive.
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haha...words from a psychedelic voyager, hehe...woops - over did it :)
 
fractal enchantment said:
..the voice of the mushrooms. I would know it anywhere because its distict..alien and sort of cybernetic..it was talking to me..i found out ways to ask it things and then go blank and let it answer..it told me we were getting close to "them"..whoever or whatever "they" are..I asked it what they are but it just then showed me images of this techo dimension and alien sort of cyber beings from another dimension, while saying "them"..I wish I couldnt remember more of what it was saying, but I cant..all I know is that psilocin, it speaks.
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Heard Terence McKenna say once that its the duty of the psychedelic explorer to venture into the realm, and to bring back something for the people in this realm.

so thanks again for the report, we're getting insight into what's there...and that's what it is all about.
 
Very beautiful revelations FE..

"I was rolling round the floor having this intense spiritual experience"

This is me down to a tee. Somehow I always find myself on the floor without the burdon of having to maintain anysort of physical posture at all. To me the floor is a vast expanse of freedom whilst on psychedelics... I love rolling around as If I'm wrapped up in a blanket of beautiful colours :)

As for the mushrooms.. I've not had the pleasure of encountering the cosmic wizards for a couple years now. I trully miss them, the teachings they offer and the way they make me feel about life in general. They were my first as well.. so for that reason they'll always be something special.
I'd love to see how I get on with them after discovering all this. Maybe I'd be able to give myself over a lot quicker without toiling the depths of disapair for X amount of time... it shall be an interesting reintroduction. Somehow I just know this season it going to be a good one, I just know.. and I plan to take full advantage of it, picking like the feind I used to be hehe.

One year we had so many to dry out and preserve that we had to devise a complicated pully system with strings of mushrooms all over the livingroom drying infront of a coal fire. The thing they've shown me over the years, just wow! Lets just say I never really knew who I was until these strange little fruits entered my life.

Cheers man :)
peace!
 
fractal enchantment said:
Ha, you and me both..I was wayyyyyyy out there when i made that post..I think typing anything was helping to me ground.

I have no idea how many grams of these cubes I took..I stared off with abotu 2 grams in a tea with some lemon..then made some more tea with the same mushrooms..then decided to just powder some more, about a gram or so and add them as well..drank that, smoked a bunch of caap and then went and just started eating stems..I dont have a scale here and havent weighed out a dose in a looooong time but i got to that point where it didnt matter how much I took, I was just there..mckenna style. I guess I got up to about 4-5 grams..

The thing is that I was stupid, ate a large dinner..so it took about 2.5 hours for them to really peak..also I didnt dose all at once so the pea was spread out over about 2 hours into 2 peaks overlapped somewhat..with the first part this amazing and very personal spiritual experience,I talked to the mushrooms and w..and I thought that was the main peak, unless I had to pee, got up and went into tthe bathroom and realized it looked like some sort of space ship with rainbow bending colours around the lights and geometric symbols shimmering and overlayed all around..

After that I get back into my room and all of a sudden I am peaking so hard, visions pouring out of my head and my body shaking..this part was rough and i was rollignback and forth alot trying to be comfortable butI thought I was loosing it..at thesame time looking at some of the most amazing thingsand deep deep into this heavy psychedelic expereince..Every other high dose mushroom experience I have ever had was like flashingback up into my memory as I become fully reaquainted with the little ones..

After that leveled off I was left back in some of the most amazing, honest and beautiful few hours of my life..I cant even attempt to decribe the level of peace I had attained..I was still tripping hard but not quite peaking..I lay in the dark getting very relaxed, in silence..and that when the voice became apparent..the voice of the mushrooms. I would know it anywhere because its distict..alien and sort of cybernetic..it was talking to me..i found out ways to ask it things and then go blank and let it answer..it told me we were getting close to "them"..whoever or whatever "they" are..I asked it what they are but it just then showed me images of this techo dimension and alien sort of cyber beings from another dimension, while saying "them"..I wish I couldnt remember more of what it was saying, but I cant..all I know is that psilocin, it speaks.
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wow.

I once had an experience like that. There was this moment that i suddenly realized that i'd taken a little more than i thought i did. It was coming,and coming...and then i had this:shock: 'oops' feeling, and then it was still coming and still coming. Fortunately some primal survival instinct in me took over then. It was like: 'if you panic now, then you're gonna be in serious trouble'. It was also impossible not to surrender because it came with a power that was just impossible to even attempt fighting against. It was totally clear that any resistance was totally futile. There was a carrier wave sound that was literally as a roaring thunder. There where a few hours that where totally magical although i was not in the position yet to fully enjoy it or to feel anything but just a deeply humbling sense of awe. But i remember that sense of pure joy and bliss when i started to realize that i was actually gonna survive it. Easily the happiest moment of my life. Everything made sense all of a sudden and that state lasted for many hours. In totally the whole trip lasted for more than 12 hours but i even saw rainbow colours almost 24 hours later when i realy felt sober. The bliss lasted for much more than a month because it WAS totally divine what i had experienced that night.

I know how you're feeling right now and i'm glad that you wanted to share some of it with us:) . Right now a part of me is there with you, my friend.
 
polytrip said:
fractal enchantment said:
Ha, you and me both..I was wayyyyyyy out there when i made that post..I think typing anything was helping to me ground.

I have no idea how many grams of these cubes I took..I stared off with abotu 2 grams in a tea with some lemon..then made some more tea with the same mushrooms..then decided to just powder some more, about a gram or so and add them as well..drank that, smoked a bunch of caap and then went and just started eating stems..I dont have a scale here and havent weighed out a dose in a looooong time but i got to that point where it didnt matter how much I took, I was just there..mckenna style. I guess I got up to about 4-5 grams..

The thing is that I was stupid, ate a large dinner..so it took about 2.5 hours for them to really peak..also I didnt dose all at once so the pea was spread out over about 2 hours into 2 peaks overlapped somewhat..with the first part this amazing and very personal spiritual experience,I talked to the mushrooms and w..and I thought that was the main peak, unless I had to pee, got up and went into tthe bathroom and realized it looked like some sort of space ship with rainbow bending colours around the lights and geometric symbols shimmering and overlayed all around..

After that I get back into my room and all of a sudden I am peaking so hard, visions pouring out of my head and my body shaking..this part was rough and i was rollignback and forth alot trying to be comfortable butI thought I was loosing it..at thesame time looking at some of the most amazing thingsand deep deep into this heavy psychedelic expereince..Every other high dose mushroom experience I have ever had was like flashingback up into my memory as I become fully reaquainted with the little ones..

After that leveled off I was left back in some of the most amazing, honest and beautiful few hours of my life..I cant even attempt to decribe the level of peace I had attained..I was still tripping hard but not quite peaking..I lay in the dark getting very relaxed, in silence..and that when the voice became apparent..the voice of the mushrooms. I would know it anywhere because its distict..alien and sort of cybernetic..it was talking to me..i found out ways to ask it things and then go blank and let it answer..it told me we were getting close to "them"..whoever or whatever "they" are..I asked it what they are but it just then showed me images of this techo dimension and alien sort of cyber beings from another dimension, while saying "them"..I wish I couldnt remember more of what it was saying, but I cant..all I know is that psilocin, it speaks.
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wow.

I once had an experience like that. There was this moment that i suddenly realized that i'd taken a little more than i thought i did. It was coming,and coming...and then i had this:shock: 'oops' feeling, and then it was still coming and still coming. .
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Here's my experience like that:

1. Ate unknown amount of mush. Walked from my apartment to Chilis as I normally do, to drink a pint of beer to calm my nerves while waiting for the onset. (keep in mind this was my first grow, so first few times in a very long time).

2. Smoked a couple hits off a joint on the way.

3. At about minute 3 of the 5 minute walk, I noticed a sensation in my teeth. Figured it was the pot.

4. Got to chilis, ordered the beer. Grabbed the paper.

5. About 10 minutes later, I'm looking at the paper, chinese tanks are on parade in a picture on the paper. I see the tanks moving in the picture. I look around, note the texture of the brick walls, sounds are peculiar - droning.

6. Tell myself its all in my head. I can control it. No need to worry.

7. Nope. Put my money on the bar, tell the bartender I gotta go.

8. Walking home and telling myself "just get home, just get home". The ground I'm walking on starts to look like spanish tiles, and then I get the impression that i'm walking on roof tops.

9. Almost home, see myself as a cartoon, then see myself from an observer's point of view, 50 feet in the air, as a cartoon walking home.

10. Got home, and then rode along for the ride inside.
 
It feels good:d

Probly wait a few more days to dose anything..then drink some ayahuasca after a nice week away from all entheogens.
 
Well go to know your all right Fractal Enchantment.
SWIM has been doing some exploring with the golden teachers recently too and still prefers them over any other mind manifesting substances 😉
 
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