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Impulse Experience:

I'm trying to smoke less cannabis, so didn't smoke returning home from work and not before my meditation. I had kinda thought about some changa, but then thought "that may be a bit much to handle right now." I'm pretty tired (when am I not). But I took the save-a-bowl off of the changa pipe and set it on my altar before I sat to meditate.

I spent some time just being with the calamity of my mind, observing the torpid function and lack of any sort of general and flow, almost like watching free association instead of hearing it. Not placing any value judgment to anything witnessed.

Then, I decided I wanted to smoalk, so I should, so I did. Even taking a one hit is work in the right direction.

A lot of understanding. With regard to DMT, I'm where I should be based on where I am with myself (a theme so far of this thread). And I torture myself in a way with some of these lower level journeys, where I feel I sometimes have more than one "experience" at once, and where I often am "split between worlds." While the come up intensity isn't there, it's a practice that has it's own hurdles to be overcome. And I don't mean the super low dose, but the ones where hyperspace is clearly penetrating, but you're "not there." Today was a fine example. A green dot being shone from the nebula light in my room onto the stucko ceiling showed an alien language within the circumference around the dot. I'm confident it's one that I've seen before. This was pronounced, because other than what could best be described as a light mushroom vibe, everything "looked" relatively normal.

Proper realization and understanding and acceptance feels nice. I can get in whenever I want, I just have to be better to myself to the extent that one of my favorite things to do is something I can allow myself from within.

It also hit me how much certain entities I interact with on DMT have been trying to show me this overall message that I currently feel I'm too high and tired to do justice to.

I may smoalk again tomorrow.

One love

<blockquote data-quote="Voidmatrix" data-source="post: 3937171" data-attributes="member: 5">Impulse Experience:I&#039;m trying to smoke less cannabis, so didn&#039;t smoke returning home from work and not before my meditation. I had kinda thought about some changa, but then thought &quot;that may be a bit much to handle right now.&quot; I&#039;m pretty tired (when am I not). But I took the save-a-bowl off of the changa pipe and set it on my altar before I sat to meditate. I spent some time just being with the calamity of my mind, observing the torpid function and lack of any sort of general and flow, almost like watching free association instead of hearing it. Not placing any value judgment to anything witnessed.Then, I decided I wanted to smoalk, so I should, so I did. Even taking a one hit is work in the right direction.A lot of understanding. With regard to DMT, I&#039;m where I should be based on where I am with myself (a theme so far of this thread). And I torture myself in a way with some of these lower level journeys, where I feel I sometimes have more than one &quot;experience&quot; at once, and where I often am &quot;split between worlds.&quot; While the come up intensity isn&#039;t there, it&#039;s a practice that has it&#039;s own hurdles to be overcome. And I don&#039;t mean the super low dose, but the ones where hyperspace is clearly penetrating, but you&#039;re &quot;not there.&quot; Today was a fine example. A green dot being shone from the nebula light in my room onto the stucko ceiling showed an alien language within the circumference around the dot. I&#039;m confident it&#039;s one that I&#039;ve seen before. This was pronounced, because other than what could best be described as a light mushroom vibe, everything &quot;looked&quot; relatively normal. Proper realization and understanding and acceptance feels nice. I can get in whenever I want, I just have to be better to myself to the extent that one of my favorite things to do is something I can allow myself from within. It also hit me how much certain entities I interact with on DMT have been trying to show me this overall message that I currently feel I&#039;m too high and tired to do justice to.I may smoalk again tomorrow.One love</blockquote>

[QUOTE="Voidmatrix, post: 3937171, member: 5"] Impulse Experience: I'm trying to smoke less cannabis, so didn't smoke returning home from work and not before my meditation. I had kinda thought about some changa, but then thought "that may be a bit much to handle right now." I'm pretty tired (when am I not). But I took the save-a-bowl off of the changa pipe and set it on my altar before I sat to meditate. I spent some time just being with the calamity of my mind, observing the torpid function and lack of any sort of general and flow, almost like watching free association instead of hearing it. Not placing any value judgment to anything witnessed. Then, I decided I wanted [I]to smoalk[/I], so I should, so I did. Even taking a one hit is work in the right direction. A lot of understanding. With regard to DMT, I'm where I should be based on where I am with myself (a theme so far of this thread). And I torture myself in a way with some of these lower level journeys, where I feel I sometimes have more than one "experience" at once, and where I often am "split between worlds." While the come up intensity isn't there, it's a practice that has it's own hurdles to be overcome. And I don't mean the super low dose, but the ones where hyperspace is clearly penetrating, but you're "not there." Today was a fine example. A green dot being shone from the nebula light in my room onto the stucko ceiling showed an alien language within the circumference around the dot. I'm confident it's one that I've seen before. This was pronounced, because other than what could best be described as a light mushroom vibe, everything "looked" relatively normal. Proper realization and understanding and acceptance feels nice. I can get in whenever I want, I just have to be better to myself to the extent that one of my favorite things to do is something I can allow myself from within. It also hit me how much certain entities I interact with on DMT have been trying to show me this overall message that I currently feel I'm too high and tired to do justice to. I may smoalk again tomorrow. One love [/QUOTE]