Inner Struggle

[Infinitude]

A question here. Any reply would be appreciated
My problem is for years, since a toddler, I've always had
mystical experiences. The problem however is this. I have
full control over my appetites. But I seem to vacillate between
the lower self and the higher self. I have a fondness for cocaine
because of its erotic stimulus. But when in contact through mediation
or plain seeing, I feel uncomfortable to the point I hesitate to use DMT.
Any advise out there?

 

[spawn9076]

This is most likely because of the becoming experience. Even experienced travellers and myself feel uncomfortable on occasions before doing it. My advise is to try a low dose so you know you aren't going to break through and the hit another dose before the effect wears off. A small dose always has a calming effect on myself.

Changa is also a lot more gentle on you