Greetings, friends. Thank you for being with me.
You know, when I first started my journey with DMT-induced dreams, I assumed that I would be sharing adventures I experience during these journeys and all that.
Hallucinations distract me from the most important thing. I didn't even notice it right away. In a deep trip, right at its beginning, you can notice a glow. This glow is reminiscent of moments when, on an autumnal cloudy day, a little cloud opens up to the sun for a short while, and it feels so uplifting! And then the cloud covers the sun again, the glow fades away, and we return to our current tasks, only sometimes reminiscing about the fading impression of that sunny moment.
So, in a deep trip, this glow never ends. Because that cloud is me. That cloud is my inner dialogue, which triggers the dream. If I wake up, or in other words, if I recall the glow and turn to it…
I won't try to find words to describe the bliss I experience when I turn to that glow. I won't be able to. There are no words for that.
I just want to tell you that this works mechanically. I remember the glow, turn to it, and instantly immerse myself in bliss. What takes me out of this state is my attempts to describe and explain what's happening. With each thought movement, spirals, roots, snakes, and patterns manifest and continue. But if I manage to detach from the habit of explaining everything, I can remain in the state of bliss for longer and longer.
There's a trap. To recall the glow, I initiate an inner dialogue. This works like phenazepam. Nevertheless, I'm succeeding more and more often. I haven't figured out how: either I can remember without the inner dialogue, or I manage to wake up (not fall into a deep sleep).
I'm very excited. I suppose this could work in everyday life too.
With love!
