Blevins53
Rising Star
Hello fellow explorers and friends! I have joined this site in hope of finding others like myself. I have realized in everyday life that the affliction to explore one's inner worlds and planes of consciousness is not a very common thing. In joining this site I hope to find others who share the thirst for knowledge and fulfillment of self which I seek. I also hope to learn from the people on this forum and wish to further my advancement on the spiritual plane. Now a little about myself I love intellectual things anything that is difficult to understand or in other words I adore the mystery. I really enjoy occult literature such as Terence McKenna, Allan Watts, Aleister Crowley, Robert Anton Wilson, Eliphas Levi and anything to do with magick or the esoteric. Aside from magick I truly love psychedelic experience and meditation. I also really enjoy anything from Terence McKenna because during high school my friend showed me a lecture by him and from then on my life took a huge turn. After hearing him speak I was inspired and took it upon myself to venture into the deepest states of consciousness. For about three years I had a drug abuse problem due to lack of guidance and literally lived every day of my life "tripping" on LSD, molly, or mushrooms and this got me into some legal trouble. It was while incarcerated that I came to realize one must respect these things and now I go about my quest in a much more structured and responsible manner. I have passed through the dark night of the soul at last and after watching my entire life fall apart and all my material belongings and loved ones disappear I came to a state of what I can only think to call nirvana. It sounds weird, but after losing everything that I cared about I found true spiritual fulfillment in isolation. Oddly enough though during my irresponsible period of drug use I entered into some of the deepest states of consciousness imaginable even if it was unintended. I lived out of body basically for three years. So now I understand that the mistakes of my past were necessary to become the man I am today and I look forward to spurring some powerful conversations and learning a lot from everyone on this site. Thank you all for welcoming me to your site and I am ever grateful to find a place where I don't feel alone any longer.
